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“What are we gonna say?”
whispered as two
uniformed police officers walked past the chairs where Adam
and were seated. It was wide hall in the entry of the police
station, the tiled floor
marbled gray and white that looked
like it would be cold against the bottoms of my feet if kicked
off my flip-flops.
“What do you mean?” Adam looked at me, his eyes
scrunched tight. The officers’ footsteps slammed against the
walls, echoing like the gorge, vibrating my entire body. “We’re
gonna tell the truth.”
pressed myself against the straight back of the chair,
trying to mold my body to the hard surface. “Right.”
“We don’t have anything to hide.” Adam’s foot, which
had been tap-tap-tapping the floor nervously, suddenly
stopped. He swiveled in his seat and leaned toward me, his
eyes searching mine. “Do we?”
Adam’s hand gripped my knee, and placed my hand
over his, soaking in the warmth of his skin, reassured that he
was sitting there next to me. Alive.
“Mags.” Adam ran
hand through the dried clumps of
his sun-streaked hair. “If should know something, now is the time to tell me. They’re gonna be done talking to our parents
any minute, and—”
“There’s nothing more to say.” My bangs fell forward
and swiped them out of my eyes, blinking away the fear that
had taken hold of me, and settled even deeper into the raw
pain of Joey’s sudden absence. “I can’t remember anything.”
“You really can’t?” Adam pressed his lips together so
tightly they disappeared. He quivered
little, and for
moment, he looked like the kindergarten version of himself,
lost and alone, like he had when his mother dropped him off
for his first day of school. squeezed his hand, the way had all
those years ago when I’d led him to the reading corner to
distract him from being left behind.
closed my eyes, playing the day’s events along the
backs of my lids like
silent movie. Driving in Tanna’s car,
windows down, music blaring, watching Shannon’s hair whip,
and dip, and flip all around her head in the crazy, rushing wind
as she giggled about how Ronnie Booker had puked all over
Gina Hanlon’s purse at the party we’d gone to the night before.
Hiking up the trail from the parking lot to the Jumping Hole,
the rush of
cool breeze against my skin. Feet running,
pounding, crashing.
My eyes snapped open and sucked in deep breath. It
felt like was underwater, struggling to find my way to the
surface.
“What?” Adam asked, his eyes wide. “Did you remember
something?”
“Feet,” said. “Running and—”
The door to the room where the detectives had taken
our parents swung open with loud click-swoosh and the gruff voice of the detective, who reminded me of gorilla, chased my
found memory back into hiding.
All that was left was the fear. And the comfort of not
knowing.
They filed out of the room in pairs, the two detectives,
my mom and dad, Mr. and Mrs. Meacham. Our parents looked
like deflated shells of their usual selves. saw it in their eyes,
the way their heads hung low, how their shoulders slumped
with exhaustion, like two hours of this news was already too
much for them to bear. If there was hope there, masked by the
emotion that threatened to suck them under, couldn’t find it.
When they saw us, their feet stuttered. Stopped.
The long, flowy skirt my mother wore swayed around
her legs as if strong wind had just drifted through. heard
slight grunt escape Adam’s father’s lips.
The detectives just stared, taking us in.
Me.
Adam.
Our heads bowed together.
Hands clasped tight.
And the way we practically clung to each other like our
individual survival depended on the connection.
It was as if they’d been able to forget reality for
moment, to place it in the dark corner of high shelf while they
dealt with the formalities. But seeing Adam and me shifted
things, brought it all spilling down, nearly knocking them to the
ground.
“We’re very sorry for your loss, Maggie.” Detective
Wallace looked at me, creases wrinkling the loose skin on his
face. “Your parents told us that you and Joey had been dating
for the last two years.”
“ Almost two years.” pressed my fingers into my eyes,
realizing they were leaking again. “Would have been two years
this fall.”
My mother handed me
tissue, then placed hand on
my knee.
“We asked you here so you can help us piece together
the events of the day. We need you to tell us everything you
can about what led to Joey’s accident.” Detective Meyer shifted
in his seat. His large body strained the chair beneath him,
causing it to moan in protest.
took in shaky breath. “I can’t remember much,” said,
wishing they’d allowed Adam and me to be questioned
together, wondering what they’d asked him while he was
sitting at this very table with his own parents just ten minutes
ago. We’d passed one another as he exited the interrogation
room and entered, his eyes saying thousand things at once:
be calm; that was brutal; you can do this; hate these men.
He’d grabbed my hand and given it quick squeeze before the
detectives rushed him along with firm reminder that we were
to be questioned separately. And now, without Adam by my
side, felt lost.
My father cleared his throat, and
realized
hadn’t
really answered. “After the climb up the trail, everything just
kind of disappears.”
Detective Wallace’s mouth twitched, the thick gray
moustache on his upper lip looking like caterpillar wiggling
to free itself from
prison. “Your parents explained that
already, Maggie. Occasionally, in the event of
trauma,
person will suffer from memory loss. You’ll probably begin to
recall the day in bits and pieces. You can give us more
information as it returns to you. For now, we would like for
you to tell us what you do remember.”
looked from one detective to the other, hating the way
their eyes pierced my skin. “Okay.”
“Let’s start with the easy stuff.” Detective Meyer flipped
through
small spiral notebook and tugged
pen from the
inside pocket of his suit jacket. “When did you arrive at the
gorge?”
looked at my father whose face somehow seemed ten
years older than it had when he’d sat across the table from me
earlier in the morning as we ate
blueberry pancake and
bacon breakfast.
“It was little after eleven,” said. “We wanted to be all
set up by noon, to get the best sun.”
“And when you say ‘we,’ who are you referring to?”
Detective Wallace asked.
“Me, Tanna, Shannon, Pete, Adam, and
Joey.” My voice
broke when said his name.
“What would you say Joey’s demeanor was when you
arrived?”
“He was just Joey.” closed my eyes and remembered
the way the sunlight framed him after his first jump. He’d stood
above me, shaking water from his hair all over me as lay on
the towel. I’d giggled. Kicked him away. wanted to scream at
myself for that. should have pulled him closer and never let
go.
took in
deep slicing breath as
remembered his
smile. The sound of his laughter. “He was joking. Laughing. Like
always.”
“So you wouldn’t say he seemed depressed. Or angry
about anything? Maybe fight with his parents? His brother?
Or
anyone else?”
“No.”
blinked several times, something else in my
memory shifting just out of reach. “Summer’s about to start….
We’re almost seniors. He was as far from depressed as
person can get.”
“Can you walk us through the events leading to Joey’s
accident?” Detective Wallace asked. “Tell us everything you
remember?”
“We were just hanging out,” said. “Listening to music.
Tanna, Shannon, and were lying out on our towels, getting
into the water when we were too hot. The guys went up and
made several jumps. Tanna and Shannon jumped, too. Once
each, think.”
“But not you?” Detective Meyer asked, his eyebrows
pulling inward.
shook my head. “I’ve never jumped off the cliff.”
Detective Meyer jotted something down on the paper in
front of him, then looked me directly in the eyes. “Why not?”
shrugged. “Too afraid.”
“I see,” Detective Wallace said. “So what made you go up
with Joey? We were told that you intended to jump together. Is
this true?”
Shannon’s face flashed in front of me. dare you, she’d
taunted, giggle escaping her lips as she grabbed the bottle of
tequila planted at the head of the towels and took long swig.
“It was dare,” said. “I’ve tried to jump before. It’s like
running joke. That I’m too afraid.”
“Who dared you?” Detective Wallace asked.
“Shannon.”
Detective Meyer wrote the name in his notebook.
“And what made you decide to try again? What made
you feel like you could do it today?”
“I don’t know,” said, remembering Joey’s smile, the feel
of his skin sliding against mine as he tucked my arm against his
body and we began walking toward the bridge of rocks.
“Was it the alcohol?” Detective Meyer asked. “We found
bottle of tequila at the scene.”
The scene? cringed at the word. Blue Springs Gorge,
our most sacred hangout, had become crime scene.
“How much did Joey have to drink?” Detective Wallace
asked.
My eyes stuttered between the two men’s faces, their
features blurring into shadowy puzzle.
“We’ll find out for ourselves when the results from the
autopsy come back,” Detective Meyer said.
“Autopsy?” The word whirred through my brain,
flipping around and around. That meant they were going to cut
Joey open.
“Yes.” Detective Wallace’s lip twitched again and had
an urge to pluck the hairs from his face. “In the case of an
accidental death we always order an autopsy. And we run
through complete investigation.”
“He’d had little to drink,” said, recalling the way Joey
had stumbled as he walked out of the water the last time.
“Would you say he was intoxicated?” Detective Wallace
asked.
shook my head. “I don’t know.”
“You’re aware that we just finished interviewing your
friend Adam. He told us that Joey was
daredevil,” Detective
Wallace said with
sad smile. “That he often showed off,
performing stunts when he jumped from the cliff.”
pictured Joey at the top of the cliff, smiling down at us,
his arms spread wide. Watch this, he’d yelled just before disappearing. Seconds later, he reappeared, soaring out from
the lip of the cliff, his body circling over itself in flip before he slipped into the water with barely splash. Had that been his
second or third jump of the day?
“Yeah,” said. “Joey liked attention.”
“Can you describe your relationship with Joey?”
Detective Meyer asked. “Would you say that the two of you
were happy?”
closed my eyes briefly, remembering my plan to spend
the night with him in just few weeks. “We were very happy,”
said.
“What about your relationship with the rest of your
friends?” Detective Meyer asked. “It seems as if you are all very
close.”
My father cleared his throat. “These kids have all grown
up together, Detective. They’ve known one another since
kindergarten.”
“That’s lot of history.” Detective Wallace scrunched his
lips in sympathetic pout.
Detective Meyer scribbled more words on the paper in
front of him. wanted to rip the notepad out of his hand, to tear
the flimsy paper from the wire spiral. How could my life—and
Joey’s death—be whittled down to just few words?
“We’re trying to figure something out,” Detective
Wallace said. “And we’d like your help, Maggie.”
“Okay,” said, drawing the word out so it sounded more
like question.
“We don’t understand why you and Adam left the
scene.” Detective Meyer’s voice suddenly sounded very official.
Almost demanding.
My heart started beating more rapidly. felt hot. Stifling
hot. shifted in my seat, and my mother’s hand squeezed my
knee again.
“Maggie?” Detective Meyer said. “Can you explain that
for us?”
shook my head. “I don’t know.”
“You don’t know why you left?” Detective Meyer’s voice
was tight with something
couldn’t place. Irritation. Maybe
anger. “Or you don’t know if you can explain it?”
“Adam was looking out for our daughter,” my mother
said. “He was the one to find her after Joey’s fall. Maggie was in shock, and it scared him when she claimed to have no memory
of what had happened. He thought it was best to bring her
straight home.”
The detectives looked at each other. Then they stared at
me.
“Can you tell us the first thing you remember?”
Detective Wallace asked. “ After Joey’s fall?”
looked at the table in front of me, my eyes following
the swirls in the wood, shuffling through the memories had,
trying to categorize them into before and after
“The seat belt clicking into place,” said. “Adam’s hand.”
“Adam put your seat belt on?” Detective Meyer asked.
“Good. That’s very good. What else?”
“The quilt my grandmother made. Spread across my lap.
And whispering.”
“That was right after she came home,” my mother said.
“She sat on the couch while Adam told us what happened.”
“You must be grateful that Adam is such caring young
man,” Detective Meyer said, looking at my parents.
“Yes.” My mother straightened herself in her chair and
smoothed one hand down the side of her brown hair. “We feel
very fortunate that our daughter had someone looking out for
her best interests today.”
Detective Meyer leaned forward, his hulking chest
creating shadow on the table in front of him, blanketing the
words he’d written on the paper.
looked at my dad. He steepled his fingers under his
chin. “Can you explain what happens from here? You said
something about an autopsy?”
The detectives exchanged
glance, and then turned to
my father. “Yes. Though this appears, in all respects, to be an
accidental death, it’s standard to open an official investigation.
It is our job to learn everything we can about exactly what
happened today so we can consider everything that might have led to the accident.” Detective Wallace spread his hands in the
air.
Detective Meyer agreed with
curt nod. “We will be
searching Joey’s car and bedroom, looking over his phone
records, and cross-referencing the statements from all of our
interviews, which will also include friends who were not at the
scene, to get the most detailed picture of his last twenty-four
hours. Only then can we close the investigation.”
“So—” said, trying to think of anything but the words
that were ringing through my head: death accident autopsy
“This is, like, full-on investigation?”
“Yes,” Detective Wallace said. “It is.”
My mother’s fingers dug into my knee.
“And we have one more very important question for you
at this time.” Detective Meyer looked directly into my eyes.
“Where was Joey last night?”
“A party,” said with sigh. “We were all at the party.”
“Yes.” Detective Wallace nodded. “Jimmy Dutton’s.
We’re aware of the party.”
“We’d like to know where Joey was after the party,”
Detective Meyer said.
“He took me home,”
said. “And then dropped off
Shannon and Pete. He was probably home by twelve thirty.”
The two detectives stared at me. Hard. And then they
looked at each other.
was almost certain that Detective
Wallace shrugged his shoulders, but the movement was so
slight couldn’t be sure.
Something inside me started to backpedal, like
was
mentally trying to escape. But didn’t move fast enough.
“No”—Detective Meyer cleared his throat and turned
his eyes to me again—“Joey did not make it home last night.”
My thoughts stretched back to the previous evening,
which now felt like it had happened in some alternate lifetime.
went back to the kiss on my front porch. Watching Joey drive
away. Hearing the music stream from the windows of his truck.
What would have kept him from going home?
“I’m not sure that understand why this is important.”
My mother sat forward in her seat, tipping her head sideways.
“What does last night have to do with today’s accident?”
“As already explained, Mrs. Reynolds, we’re trying to
construct detailed time line of Joey’s last twenty-four hours
of life.” Detective Meyer watched me closely as he spoke. “It’s
standard procedure,
assure you. We simply need to know
where Joey was during the overnight hours.”
“There’s
mistake, or something.” shook my head. “I
already told you. Joey dropped me off little after midnight. He
took Shannon and Pete home. And then he went home.”
Detective Wallace shook his head slowly. “No, Maggie.
He did not go home.”
“He said …” Everything in my head jumbled together.
wasn’t sure if
knew anything anymore. If Joey was out all
night, why hadn’t he said anything? We’d hung out at the gorge
for hours; Joey had plenty of opportunities to share if he’d been
out all night doing something crazy. It’s the kind of thing he’d
usually brag about…. But he hadn’t mentioned thing. “He had
to have been at home.”
Detective Meyer leaned toward me, lowering his voice.
“We’ve spoken with his parents. They are certain that he spent
the night out, and that he wasn’t where he said he would be.”
“Maggie, do you have any idea where he might have
gone?” Detective Wallace asked. “Or who he might have been
with?”
opened my mouth, searching for anything that might
answer the very same questions that had started to spin
around in my own mind. But had no answers, so all that came
out was choppy, stuttering sound that hardly reminded me of
my own voice.
“This is an awful lot to take in,” my mother said,
squeezing my knee again. “If Maggie remembers anything, we’ll
be sure to call you.” From my mother’s tone, it was obvious
that the conversation was over. But suddenly didn’t want it to
be.
“You’re sure he didn’t go home?” asked, focusing on the
sound of the words tumbling out of me instead of the fact that,
if they were true, it meant Joey had been keeping some kind of
secret.
Both detectives nodded, eyes trained on me. “Positive,”
Detective Wallace answered.
looked down at my hands, squeezing them together so
tightly they turned sickly whitish-blue. wasn’t sure if was
angry with Joey for keeping
secret or glad to realize that
maybe he could go on living through all the little things didn’t
yet know. Things that could easily find out.
“I assume it is standard, in cases like this, for people to
obtain lawyers,” my father said, placing hand on my shoulder.
“If you believe you may need to question Margaret again, we
will certainly call our attorney.”
“That would be fine with us.” Detective Wallace met my
father’s eyes.
“Just so you know,” Detective Meyer said, “we will be
requesting that Maggie undergo
medical and psychological
exam in the next week or so.”
“I’m not hurt.”
pushed my chair back, standing,
wavering little, and placed my hand on the table for balance.
“I don’t need to see doctor.”
“But, Maggie, you are suffering from memory loss,”
Detective Wallace said. “This might actually help you.”
“We will have our lawyer contact you for any further
directions.” My father stood, his chair scraping along the tiles
of the floor.
My mother grabbed her purse from the floor and flung it
onto her arm before she got to her feet.
Placing hand on my back, my father led me toward the
door. But was still shaky and moved slowly as tried to figure
out what Joey could have been doing all night without me.
The detectives stood before I’d rounded the corner of
the table. My fingers trailed the looping grain of the wood, and
for some reason didn’t want to lose my connection with that
cool surface.
But then saw something that made me feel like racing
from the room. As the detectives buttoned their suit jackets,
like men always do when they stand, sneaked peek at their
full uniforms, which hadn’t really seemed like uniforms at all,
since they were dressed like businessmen. But businessmen
don’t have handcuffs strapped to their waists, badges making
their pockets bulge, or guns stuffed into holsters at their hips.
Suddenly, every fuzzy quality that had made the day feel
like dream slipped away from my consciousness. It was like
broke the surface of the water, my sight and hearing clearing in
an instant. And for the first time since the accident, everything
felt excruciatingly real.
Especially the thought of myself, alone in bed, while Joey
was out in the dark night doing things without me. Things he
obviously didn’t want me to know about. And the gaping
emptiness where my memories ought to be—memories of
Joey’s last moments on this earth, of our last moments
together. There was so much that
suddenly needed to
uncover, no matter the cost. Because learning all the things
didn’t already know, finding few more slices of life when Joey
was with us, even if it only helped for
little while, was the
only way could cheat my way out of his death.
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