Birthday Puja 1997

Birthday Puja. Delhi (India), 21 March 1997.

[first part of the talk, in Hindi]
When all the world is sleeping a Sahaja Yogi is awaken and when all the world is getting up a Sahaja Yogi is sleeping. The meaning of this is that when the attention of a Sahaja Yogi is towards a particular thing, the people’s attention is not towards it. Their attention towards other things because they are away from the reality. Those people are stuck to money or they want to have power in their hands or many other things and they are completely lost away from reality. Some people say this is the reason or that is the reason and they will try to give their own point of view.
But I think that this is because of the ignorance. In ignorance man does all sorts of wrong things. A kind of blindness spreads on them and they get completely covered by this deep blindness. Suppose this place becomes dark, then a big havoc would be created. Some people will try to run outside or try to push each other, some people will get injured, some people will trample on others, anything can happen. When we live in this darkness we are in the situation of a blind man. But when we get our Realisation, when our Kundalini gets awakened and when we are facing the Reality, then no one can describe the glory of the Truth.
When I asked someone ‘what did you get in Sahaja Yoga?’, the person replied: ‘Mother, I cannot tell You what I got but I got everything.’ Everything means what? Me also, I can say today that I got everything. When I was small I told to my Father that The number of stars shinning in the sky, I want the same number of people to shine in this world and spread the light of the Divine. My father said that it is possible but try to awaken the collective consciousness and don’t give any speech, don’t write anything, otherwise a new Bible will appear, or a new Koran and a fight will start. So first You try to awaken the collective consciousness. And then the awakening of the collective consciousness started in Sahaja Yoga, but I am going to tell you today about the problems of this work.
It is very auspicious to have the collective consciousness all over the world, in all countries in large number of people having achieved the Truth. But it is painful when I think that we have not paid so much attention to it. The door was open and all types of people came inside with all their negativity. But when this type of few people come in Sahaja Yoga they are very harmful. Namadeva and others, they were really saints. They clearly said those who are bad cannot become good. Their habits can never be improved. For example he said, take one fly. If it drops in the food it will try to kill us and if it dies and goes in our stomach we will also die. This fly cannot be treated. And this type of people are sticky so in Sahaja Yoga these things should be cleared out. Till it is not cleared we will never rise. For example if anything is stuck on the feathers of a bird it cannot fly. That’s why in the happiness of heaven which is actually Mother’s protection, we cannot fly like a bird because in our feathers also some things are still stuck.
This day is very auspicious and people think it is a very big day and on this day there was a big happening, which has been predicted by many people. But today you all will have to do a particular work. You have put so many balloons on the walls that people become happy and imagine that even the rubber has got so much of power that it gives us joy and happiness and that it could become such a beautiful thing. And we, we are human beings and then we are Sahaja Yogis supposed to be higher people. In order to get to that level, what do we have to do?
I had a sad experience which I will tell you as a story. This I am specially saying in Hindi, because it is specially seen at the Indians. But not in English, not at the foreigners, they are very dumb about it. In our country, in India, there were many people from different countries settled, for example, from Pakistan, from Bangladesh, from Shri Lanka. This is Our Mother, Our “ Bharat Mata ”. But people divided it and destroyed it. Why? Because there were some people who thought that they should become leader and a big man. So why shouldn’t I do something to become a big man. If he becomes a Prime Minister, I can also become a Prime Minister! Jealousy is the first thing. If jealousy comes, he thinks that even he should have his own country. If he can divide the country then he will have his contribution and have a control over it. In many big families it happens that people think they want a separate house and stay separately, have a wife, children and live together; but not interested in other things. So there is a tendency of separating things in human beings. And because of this, Bangladesh was created. I was surprised that people had asked for Bangladesh and wanted to govern it. So if you take an example of Islam or any other Dharma, but with some reason or the other there is this separation. And today Bangladesh is in such a situation that people tell me, Mother, please don’t go there, otherwise You will have tears flowing continuously. Pakistan is also in the same situation. Ceylon, which is Sri Lanka, is also in the same situation. All these partitions which have been created and they thought of governing, their Prime Ministers have been killed by their own people. So from some jealousy, more jealousy is increased, and then we start having groups, continue fighting and still want to have separation. But what are we going to get out of it? Sahaja Yoga is completely against it We cannot do any separation, we have to unite them. Sahaja Yoga is working on synthesis and if there is no idea of synthesis you better leave Sahaja Yoga. Now it happened that there was a Sahaja Yogi who was taking out bhoots of people. I told him to stop it otherwise the bhoots will catch him. But he was fond of it and maybe people were paying him or calling him a famous man. So he formed a new group. Even some Sahaja Yogis who were in this group got separated and they made a new association. About Me they didn’t have any doubt. But as for the leaders, they criticised them, saying they were of no use, but we are the best and pure people and disciples of Shri Mataji. Without My permission, without My decision, they formed a big group, showing my photos. I was not aware of anything what business they are doing, saying this leader is not good, that leader is not good. If there is anyone bad, I will know it. If they respect Me they should surrender to Me. Let Me decide if the leader is good or not. But you have no right to tell him what he is doing,why he has done this? Now some people will say why should we have a leader in Sahaja Yoga? They are present because I cannot keep relation with everyone. So one person can become an intermediate to keep relation with everyone. So this person was angry on the leader. If any leader has any defect or any problem this I will take it out. And if you have any, you can write to Me.
In this way a group of 70-80 persons was formed whose faces I had never seen, never heard of them. I don’t know if they are Sahaja Yogis or not. This person said that he was the incarnation of Kalki. So if he is, let him be. I don’t say anything but please keep away from Sahaja Yoga, he has no place in it. People considered him as Kalki, started touching his feet and he started taking money from people. All the defects he was showing about the Sahaja Yogis were present in him and so he was exposed finally. So this type of jealousy and ambition took place and those Sahaja Yogis who were stupid went in it. It is very surprising. As it is the last judgement, everyone is being selected. But at least ask Me, take My certificate. But these people say Mother we believe You. But what I do, you don’t believe. After doing all this these stupid people came to Ganapatipule, they threw stones on Me. They lost their senses without realising what they were doing, what they were saying. It is absolutely like a drinker’s behaviour. These people created a big show. They came in the program. They had such bad vibrations. I was surprised they were going to stay in Sahaja Yoga. Instead of clearing their own vibrations, they were clearing other people’s vibrations. So such people should leave Sahaja Yoga. If one of such a person stands out others also start supporting him, thinking they would be able to go to heaven. considering that they are doing a great work.
Sahaja Yoga is a collective work, it is a collective organisation. I told them that they were defending Me by creating this separation. They replied that I was abusing them. I am explaining that there were against Divine, that’s why there was an earthquake. And after this also I don’t know what will happen because the Divine will not spare them. Me, I am a Mother. I will forgive everything. But the Divine will never leave them. It’s better if they stop all this business. But they have not yet changed. In Dehradun, nowadays, they are continuing the same thing. On one side there is “Jhara khand ” and on the other side there is “ bhoot khand ”. If these 3-4 Sahaja Yogis are out of Sahaja Yoga, there are many people stuck to them. But for these people I have no worry even if they go and dive in Ganga. But they cannot stay in Sahaja Yoga, cannot take My name and keep My photographs. This is a very sad thing. The man with whom I had so much of confidence, who worked so much, these people are after him, telling how he has such a big car. This they should have asked Me. He does his own work, his own business. And anyone has any complain about it, they should write to Me directly. Today I didn’t want to speak about this,but there was no other chance. So on this auspicious day I had to say this inauspicious thing. If you want to do such type of business please go out of Sahaja Yoga. It’s not a problem for me. In Sahaj Yoga there is no compulsion. I never forced My family members. Even when I know there will be nothing better than it, if my family members will come in Sahaja Yoga. If you want to do it, do it; if you don’t want,don’t do it. But don’t do this type of business. That means you can never be a Sahaja Yogi. From Sahaja point of view, to do this behaviour with a leader is a big sin and then to form a group is the biggest sin. If you want you can write a letter to Me. I will understand with the vibrations if you are right or he is right. And when they write rubbish things I don’t pay any attention. But what about themselves, are they very clean people? If you are not clear, what about future? You have your children, your neighbours, what will they think about your leader? Then what they will think about you, why you are following such people such people. Shri Mataji doesn’t have any brains to choose such people? This kind of things take place and Sahaja Yoga goes down. Up till now nothing has gone down, I have tried to save the people to the maximum. The more is the number of Sahaja Yogis better it is. But I also think, that in the heaven of truth, to go in it you will have to prepare for it and if there is less place, God will try to cut off the stupid people. But you should not fall in this trap. If you are realised, it is for yourself not for others. Try to find your own mistakes. For example, people come in Sahaja Yoga to earn money. If we tell them that you have not come in Sahaja Yoga to earn money, it does go in their brains Today I have to say that people are still stuck on this money problem. Christ has said that the first ones will be the last and the last ones will be the first. I cannot see it in people.
In the beginning when people came to Sahaja Yoga, the people from Bombay used to say: “ Mother, You should take at least 1000 Rs from us. ” I said: “ I cannot count the money, I cannot keep them properly, I don’t know anything about banks. So, when we will have our trust, you can put the money in it. ” Not because I wanted to My honesty, but I cannot do any accounting. But when you know all this accounting, you should know that in the name of Dharma, if anyone is taking money, it cannot be useful, they will have no benefit out of it. We found an association for the ladies who were poor, Muslim ladies without husband coming from Rajasthan, Bihar. But for this I don’t need any money from you. There is always some arrangement. But I thought maybe you can get some blessings, so you keep 500 Rs instead of 108 Rs. There were many letters from people about this change of 108 Rs to 500 Rs. If you have to pay in one year 500 Rs, you don’t want to give anything but you are just taking Punyas. Then how will you see your Lakshmi Tattwa. You have to always give for Lakshmi Tattwa. People have become mad for these 500 Rs. Sometimes they give 500 Rs to have a haircut. Then I realised that they are not yet deep. The generation before was not like this.
So even now our attention is still on money. They say that they will give 108 Rs or they will not come any more. It is good if you don’t come. You can go out permanently. It is better, because Sahaja Yoga is not for beggars. First clear up yourself and then help the beggars. If we asked some more money for beggars, you have become angry. But I don’t need any money. And also you become angry on leaders. People said: “ Mother, who has suggested you that. ” I say that there is not anyone born to give me any suggestion! Me, I do according to Myself. I am a very simple lady but I am very tricky. That’s why, don’t try to fool Me. If you cannot give even a little bit of money after so many years that have past, after treating so many people, giving so much money as a gift, but for such a small thing you have changed your mind.
I felt very sorry about it. Before also the same thing happened. The people from Bombay asked to do the Puja in Bombay. I said that I had a very bad experience last time when a puja was done and only a quarter of the people paid the money for food. I had to pay the money for food and they did My Puja and I had to pay for them. Specially the people from Bombay and from Maharashtra are very miserly. They would give any money to Brahmans in temples but they want to eat for free. A quarter of them paid for food, a third paid for puja 11 Rs. and they came in Sahaja Yoga. They would better take a bowl and sit in front of a mosque like beggars.
That’s why I say I don’t need any money as a donation. But I just tried to test them. But I am surprised with this testing. There is not a single person so poor who cannot afford 500 Rs. And it was said that those who cannot afford need not pay. People were calling for a reduction of money trying to bargain. But with this you have been tested how deep you are. For an Indian is very important to take the attention away from money. Why do you have so much your attention on money? I have awakened your Lakshmi Tattwa. The more you will give the more you will get. To give any person is so joyful. When you give Me something I accept to make you happy. Otherwise I don’t need anything. I have no place in My house to keep things. I said I am going to sell all My jewels so that I can do all the work. They said you do whatever you want, but we will give the gifts. This is all for your happiness. But this you Indians should understand. At the time of the independence My father sold all the properties and the jewels, went in jail and there my parents were put on ice. But nothing affected Me. It was a joke for Me.
Those who have played tricks with Sahaja Yoga, I am going to get rid of them, it is sure. And be careful, if anyone is against any leader, he will get out of Sahaja Yoga completely. There is no doubt about it. If you are not capable of Sahaja Yoga, don’t come in it.
I made an effort to say all this. And when I slept I didn’t know what I will speak today with you. I am 7 years old. But the work of the elders is to give advises to the younger people, to tell them what is life. You have not come in Sahaja Yoga to spoil your lives. Because if you want to be in Sahaja Yoga you have to see the two sides: one is the mountain and the other is the valley. If you want to climb it, you need to have desire, power. If you don’t have pure desire it will not work. I didn’t want to say all this today but at the time of Shivaratri the things were so much out of the limits that I had to say it. I could speak on Shivaratri because Shri Shiva is always forgiving everything but that also within limits. And when Shri Shiva gets angry you know what He does. I am scared of Shri Shiva Sahaja Yoga knowledge is free because of our previous life. But after coming in Sahaja Yoga if you still are going in the wrong direction, it is better to leave. I have thought and thought and I have spoken. Normally I don’t think, I am in Nirvichara. I have said it because I consider you as My children. That’s why, when you are falling lower and lower by your defects, I cannot stand it. It is very sad.
There is everything in Sahaja Yoga: peace, joy, your questions are solved immediately. You know it, you have experienced it, no need for Me to tell you specially.

[second part of the talk, in English]
That was for Indians, not for you people, and I have to tell you thank you very much for this celebration, for all these beautiful balloons.
But looking at these balloons, we have to also see some of them who have lost their air completely. This is another problem we face in the West, because to have ego itself, according to the Western culture, is a very great achievement. And when we start living with our ego, I know how one looks like. He really looks like a stupid fellow. When he talks, when he describes himself, you don’t know where to look because you just feel like laughing at his stupidity. Ego is the outcome of stupidity. I don’t know what to say, how to give a simile to ego because it’s just bloated and makes you float in the air and when it bursts you are down on the earth. But you are not down on the earth the way Sahaja Yogis should be down to earth, but you are completely finished. All your arrogance goes to waste. You can never understand Sahaja Yoga if you have this ego in your head. I have known people who have this ego. They have come to Sahaja Yoga and still they want to think that they know more than anybody else.
To know about yourself you have to go deep down and to go deep down you have to give up all this idea which makes you float in the air. Imagine if you have a big balloon attached to you, how can you go deep down into the sea? You cannot. That kind of an air which makes you float in the air absolutely in an area of stupidity – what else, I mean in English I think there are no words. Stupidity means everything. Then you may think no end of yourself you may think whatever you like, you can behave the way you like and all that but what do you achieve? You achieve nothing out of it. Whatever you achieve people are jealous of you, they want to harm you, you have no friends, nobody cares for you and in Sahaja Yoga people know who has got this problem.
So I have seen people, when they start talking they say “ ah he’s the same, we know, we know him… ”. Once I had an experience, long, long time back in Poona, where the people who were owning that “ warda ” said that: “ we cannot have Shri Mataji’s program because She is not a Brahmin.! ” So the Sahaja Yogi said alright we’ll give it in the newspaper, because She is not a Brahmin we cannot have a program. So these people came to my program and the owner of that was sitting on the gallery on top. He couldn’t even walk, he was suffering from some sort of a funny disease. So these people suddenly started… I didn’t know, they didn’t tell me anything. They didn’t tell me that these people had protested or whatever it is. So they all started shaking like this, like this, like this. I said what is this? So I said: “ What is it? ” They said: “ Mother stop it, we know you are Shakti but stop it, it’s too much, too much! ” – ”But what did you do? ” They said: “ We didn’t do anything we just said this is a Brahmin’s thing, a Brahmin’s warda, and this area is mostly resided by Brahmins so we thought that you cannot have your program. ” I said: “ Really, that’s all? ”- “ Yes, yes, that’s all. ”. But they said < See on the other side, see those people, they are also shaking with your power ”. So I asked them: “ Who are you, are you also Brahmins? ” They said: no, no we are certified mad people from Thanna. ” “ -But how are you here? ” They said: “ there was one fellow who was mad he was cured by you. ” – ”Really? “ – ”So our superintendent is here, he has brought us here. We are certified mad, certified! ”. -My goodness. These people looked at me. I said: ” See now you tally: you are shaking and they are shaking, now you tally. Where are you?
And they all became quite nervous. And they all became Sahaja Yogis, not only that but the gentleman sitting upstairs, I told him you get up and come down. He came and since that day he surrendered his life and did a lot of work in Poona. So what I am saying that anybody who talks like that, that this is wrong in Sahaja Yoga, this should not happen, we should not have paid so much, or this leader is not good, should take a paper, thin paper on his hand and put it before the photograph. If you can stop the shaking then you are well. All of you can try this. Then try on the right hand. Very practical. If the paper is shaking that means Mr. Ego is shaking. And you know how to treat your ego in Sahaja Yoga. Thanks to Mohamed-sahib, he has told us how to treat it.

Now these two problems are within us. One of them is our conditioning and another is this ego business. And we make our mind out of that and we are playing under the governance of these two things which we have used to make this mind. Now you have to be careful!. You find out with left hand. Now, let’s see: if the left hand is shaking then you are conditioned, if the right hand is shaking, then you are egoistical. So now you treat it. You treat these two things. Before Me you’ll get vibrations alright because you see I’m your Mother, alright. But that doesn’t mean you are alright. You try on My photograph that’s much more sharp. Being Mother, you know, I play around, I think,or I don’t know what I should say but maybe you may not feel that way. But before the photograph you put on the left hand side a newspaper or a little paper, or a thin paper, on the right hand side another paper. One by one you try and judge yourself what are you.
After all, you have not come here in Sahaja yoga to emancipate me. You have come here to evolve yourself; and because of that you have to face yourself and see for yourself what is within you, which is very strong, which is troublesome, which is dragging you down, which is killing you.
Sahaja Yoga is nothing but ocean of joy. I thought that in my absence you will be all enjoying it, alright, you do – in the airport, I see sometimes I’m late because of the plane, 4 hours, 5 hours and everybody is so fresh and so nice early in the morning, I said “ What’s happened? ”, “ The whole night we have been enjoying, Mother ”. So what you enjoy in that is collectivity, samadji -A VERIFIER. That collectivity you should enjoy only by getting rid of your nonsensical boundaries that you have built. And then you see the joy. All the time you will be floating in joy. There is a sense which people have, which you may not have before realisation. Some of the people I have known, I’m amazed how deep they are, how they took to Sahaja Yoga, supposed to be very great men, supposed to be people of very great principles but very hot tempered, intolerant about people. They take to Sahaja yoga just like this, because inside there is a big depth, so that everything is absorbed without any problem.
Everybody can achieve it but one has to be careful as to the two wheels of our mind, one is the ego, another one is the conditioning. All kinds of conditionings are there, specially in India, in the west it is all kinds of egos – is all different, different types I’ve seen, so many types and varieties of egos, I was surprised. To face that, I didn’t know what to say. It’s a very, very subtle thing which people have carved out of their minds.
So for you today it is to be decided that you are only still small children and like small children you must have a very clean heart to accept, to absorb the beauty of peace that is within you and also the beauty of purity. Without purity you cannot enjoy anything.
So in Sahaja Yoga, though we have so many people, I must say the purity of this few saints who lived earlier, we have to yet achieve. For example, yesterday they were singing about Ali. I was so very happy, because He was an incarnation and His purity, people are singing now, not at that time, He was killed at that time, He was tortured, that always they do. Then we have many others. We have had Dam Dam Saab. See, what a great thing to come to…we have here Nizamudin all here; we have so many people in our country itself that nobody, no other country can claim. They have one, say in England, they have William Blake or this and that. We had so many people. Why? Not because we were very good people but because we were to be improved; things had to be done. So they were born here. Though this is a Yoga Bhoomi. Anywhere you go in India, I was surprised in Haryana, so many great saints lived there. But they were all tortured, troubled, never understood. It’s so painful, and it hurts you how this stupid, ignorant, blind people tortured them.
So, now it is our duty of Sahaja yogis to first of all find out who is a saint. Even among Sahaja yogis as I described in Hindi language, there are people who try to trouble. Trouble others. If you have no recognition and understanding of what is the truth, what is love, what is pure compassion, then you are not a Sahaja yogi! It’s like an obtuse angle, you see, you have. You look at a person with an obtuse angle, you don’t see anything, one sided.
Now, at this juncture when I’m so very old now, I have to request that you turn your eyes to yourself, introspect, because among you there are some people who will try to divert your attention, will try to say things; very easy to say, he is very dishonest, he is very moral, very easy to say! What are you? We have, now to understand that Sahaja yoga is to be consolidated through synthesis. We are believers of synthesis. Any divisive thing that comes into your mind, you should just throw it away.

This is a request on this day, I make you, that you please introspect. Unless and until you introspect you cannot even respect yourself, you cannot even love yourself. If you love yourself, you will introspect and find out what’s the problem. Supposing I love this sari, then if I find any doubt about it or see any dot somewhere or something, I’ll get it cleaned. I’ll not be proud of it, wear it and go round saying “ Aha, see I’ve got so many spots ” In the same way you should be not proud of whatever asahaj temperaments you have within yourself and don’t talk like that! Christ has called them “ murmuring souls! ”, He said: “ Beware of the murmuring souls ”, I would say throw away all the murmuring souls!! That’s the only way!
In Hindi they say “ bagwasi ”, their name is bagwasi, means the one who just chatter, chatter, chatter, talk all non sense about others. He doesn’t know what he is!
It is much more in India, I must confess, I’m sorry though I’m an Indian; It’s a habit of talking ill of others, sitting down, just chit-chatting. They will not talk of Sahaja Yoga! How many people know Sahaja yoga in the proper way? I mean if I have to give degrees, what degrees I should give to you? Tell me! You don’t know even about your vibrations! Of course you are Sahaja yogis because you have fallen into this trap of achieving evolution. But how many are really grown up into it? You can!
So, I have to again and again tell you to make me happy, you have to give up this nonsensical cheapish talks, buy try to understand from each other, what we know of Sahaja yoga. Discuss it and contribute to this knowledge by describing your experiences of Sahaja yoga. They are many who do it! I’m not saying they don’t do. But even there is one bad fellow, he can spoil all of them, like one bad apple can spoil all the apples; so what do we do? Throw away the apple out of the basket.
It is important, see, even I feel all this standing like a witness to you, silent witness.
When I see big, big mountains, I think they are like great saints who are watching and they are trying to record what is happening in this world, because they also understand, they also know. I have to again and again tell you that today is the day to see your own self, your own chakras, your own, I should say, defects. That will give you permanently the joy that is promised; you will get thoughtless awareness, also you’ll get doubtless awareness. But never get into the trap of your conditioning and of your ego.

This is what I have to tell you today, on this day where you are celebrating, that you celebrate your own birthday, celebrate it, see for yourself what you have achieved and what you are going to achieve. It’s time for you to celebrate, than to celebrate my birthday. I’ll be very happy to celebrate your birthday than to celebrate mine.

So may God bless you.

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