"for.. what..."
"to be unable to turn down such a great guy like you..."
MyungGwan stared at me with his expression hardened... i shifted my gaze toward haewon then MyungGwan opened his mouth again..
"Is it cuz of Haewon?"
"........"
"are you blind? can't you see him smiling surrounded by those girls???"
looking again and again... Haewon wasn't smiling in ANY way but i guess.. it seemed that way to MyungGwan..
"that's.. not it.... i'm moving next week.."
"what????"
MyungGwan shouted loudly causing Haewon and everyone around him to stare at us... Blushing, i hung my head low and confidently walked toward the gates..
"where are you going?!?! hey chung Hankyung!! what'd you say?? you're moving?!??! why?!!? where???"
MyungGwan shouted louder this time while chasing after me.. T___T WHY are you shouting so loudly... ahhhhh T__T everyone was laughing... (just the girls..)
"Nuna.. you're moving?"
Wun who had been laughing next to Haewon asked me in surprise while haewon just spat on the ground uninterested.. i know we broke up and all... but... why do i feel like a part of me had been ripped out...
"yeah..."
"why didn't you say so?? dareum said nothing about you moving...!"
"yeah..... ^-^"
"when are you moving...? huh?"
"this.... week.."
for... a split second.... Haewon met my gaze with his expression hardened... and as soon as meeting my gaze, he turned around and started to joke around with a girl nearby..
"chung hankyung! don't go!! wait, i won't let you!"
MyungGwan had suddenly appeared next to me and piped up.
"nuna... you can't go!! please?"
Wun and MyungGwan now created a wall in front of me while whispering... why are you guys so.. blind... T___T can't you see.. how haewon's just laughing next to you guys...
"is it cuz you and haewon broke up? T_T if it is don't!! T__T see haewon is-"
"....Yoo Wun"
Haewon's face expression suddenly changed from a smile to an icy glare causing Wun to look at Haewon and me sadly.. The girls who had Haewon surrounded were also glaring at me with their lips forming a thin line...
"Have a great day Wun... ^-^"
i waved my hand lifelessly and walked out of the gates.... a tear... another tear.... rolled down and dampend my lips..
"Hankyung... lets talk for a moment.. yeah?"
"Don't... please just leave me alone!!!"
I'm such a bad girl...MyungGwan didn't do anything but to like me... arghh... MyungGwan stopped chasing after me and stood in his spot.
In a payphone around school..
"Mom? This is Hankyung... imma go back to Gongju... by this week... yeah.... please, as soon as possible if you can...."
A Wolf's Attraction-111
That night, because Dareum didn't come home for a long time, mom and i were able to have a long conversation.
"yeah.. it'd be better for you, too huh?"
"yes"
"Did you tell Dareum?"
"No.. Please don't tell her."
"If she finds out...."
"Your daughter won't suddenly start doing drugs or anything just because i go back so don't worry.. i'll persuade her later.."
Mom flinched as she gave me a surprised glance.
"How you say stuff like that.. it reminds me of your dead fath-"
"I could get up now right?"
"yeah... you should start packing... it should take you 2 or 3 days to transfer.."
"Okay.. it'd be better for it to be faster"
I forced on a smile and ran out of mom's bedroom as if i were being chased... crawling under the covers, i was sobbing silently when i felt a tug at the blankets..
".....nuna.."
"Jooho.."
"why are you crying.. don't cry...."
"Heuk... jooho... jooho..... my brother jooho..."
throwing the blanket aside, i rubbed my face against jooho's and continued to cry.. after awhile, jooho who had been caressing my face silently said..
"nuna... stop now.. it's getting gross T_T"
"jooho.... if.. if nuna's not here, you'll be sad, right?"
"yeah"
"you won't even have anyone to borrow videos for you.."
"i do! -0-"
"....who?"
"Captain!! Taesung hyung!"
Jooho took out the studio picture of me, dareum, and taesung proudly.
"see!! everybody in my kindergarten class got jealous after seeing my hyung! nuna, why isn't hyung coming to play with me though? O_O"
oh... i forgot all about taesung... what'll happen if i go back to gongju... yet... to take him with me... i still feel a lot of betrayal toward him though.... i shook my head furiously to erase Taesung's face out of my mind and after putting jooho to sleep, i begun to pack.
As i was finishing up the 3rd drawer i heard the front door slam along and immediately my room opened up..even thought dareum and i made eyecontact already, i pretended to suddenly fall asleep upon the suitcase causing Dareum to shake me violently..
"wake up!! wake up!!!!"
"euum...=_= you're here dareum.."
"stop with the show!! you think i'm a dummy? unni!! YOU!! told wun that you were transferring!!!!"
"ohh... that... i changed my mind already.."
"you're lying!!"
"really!! O_O"
"then!! what are you doing huh? you're packing!!! >__<"
dareum was breathing out fire as her red cheeks stretched.. -0- dang.. scary...
"see, i was putting my clothes back IN cuz i packed before... wanna see?"
i put the clothes back into my drawers and finally Dareum's suspicious glare turned into a small smile. T_T
"really?"
"i'm serious! ^-^ i'm not going~ nope, and you can't make m!"
".. stupid wun"
"heh ^-^"
"unni, i heard that you and haewon fought.."
ohh... dareum doesn't know yet huh... well.... the juniors probably made an excuse for me and Haewon not talking, knowing how bad Dareum's temper was.... -__- my poor sister...
"Nah.. we'll probably make up again.."
i'm sorry dareum... forgive me T__T
"oh yeah.. unni if you have some money, can i borrow $5?"
"why do you need it?"
"AH!! sh!T!! that b!tch broke that plant thing and I"M the one who has to pay for it!! arghhh i should've never become class president!! >_<"
"-___- Dareum you were class president?"
"-__- yep"
"why didn't you tell me...-__-"
"-__- it's embarassing..."
"Oh my gosh! i didn't know!! >__< my sister's a class president!!"
I hugged Dareum feeling touched and proud yet something Dareum said lingered in my mind..
"Dareum... did you just say someone broke a plant? um.... did it happen to be a cactus?"
"Yep.. the spiky one... why?"
"who..... who broke it?"
"Bahn Haewon"
bambambam -0- i felt my heart beating more than 50 times a minute......
"why though?"
"hae..haewon???"
"yeap -__-^ he's crazy i tell you! he suddenly charged into the room and throws the cactus out the door!! aigoo... that insane monkey... why do I have to pay for his.... unni?"
pushing dareum aside, i crazily dialed Haewon's number... forgetting all about my pride and trusting dareum's words... well... tch when did i ever have pride... -___- after awhile, i heard loud music playing in the background and haewon's low voice talking over the phone..... why do you sound so pathetic haewon..
"hello"
"it's me"
".....who"
"hankyung"
"what?"
haewon's voice suddenly turned into a yell =_=
"it's hankyung... um haewon.."
"where are you"
"home..."
"wait"
"huh?"
"wait for me"
"huh? nooo haewon, i'll go.. my mom's home right now.."
"just come out then!!"
"you're drunk aren't you.."
"so.... so what"
"wait for me... you can't drive when you're drunk.. where are you?"
"i am drunk!! what are you gonna do about it!! -__-"
"-__- whew... where are you haewon..."
"if you move!!! i'll hit your head with a...... aish!! leave me alone!! can't you see me on the phone??? stop blowing!!! -0-"
a girl's happy shriek rang throughout the speakers... along with haewon's angry shout... T___T i'm so confused... after telling me to come out to a building, haewon hung up with a click... Dareum stared at me surprised, as i hurriedly put on my jacket.
"unni.. where are you going? O_O"
"to meet haewon.."
"-____- i thought so!! do you ENJOY making up after like.... every other second? -0-"
"^-^ don't wait for me"
"-___- okay... becareful"
"yeah.. thanks dareum... oh yeah. hey dareum"
"yeah?"
"can you call taesung..? ask him if.. if he's eating his meals daily... and how he's doing..."
"okay... don't worry about it"
"thanks! >_<"
feeling lighter than ever, i laughed in glee and sprinted down the stairs -0- hek hek... after heaving a deep breath, i took a step out the door when familiar voices stopped me in my tracks.
"call her... tell her to come out"
"okay"
"and remember to tell her that you and haewon started dating, okay?"
"hey... what if she finds out by tomorrow?"
"just tell her you started dating in secret!! that dumb @ss will believe anythinjg you say, okay?"
"-___- what the hell am i doing for you....aish... well if it goes well remember how you're giving me your boyfriend, daehan!"
"i know i know~~ hurry up~~"
........what?..... what... what did you just say....???
"Yoo Jaehee... Lee Bojung."
"Ha.. Hankyung"
Yoo Jaehee and Lee Bojung grabbed each other's hands as they stared at me in shock.
"hah... hahaha... hahahhahahha..... ha...."
I collapsed onto the floor and started to laugh as if possessed with Yoo Jaehee staring down at me with her lips tightly shut.
A wolf's attraction-112
"Get up Chung Hankyung."
"What do we do, Jaehee?"
Both said in unison.
"Get up already.. let's talk, yeah?"
Yoo Jaehee continued to look down at me with a hint of annoyance in her voice. I brusquely got up and pushed Jaehee down.
"Kyak!! >_< what the hell???"
Yoo Jaehee grabbed Lee Bojung's stretched out hands and got back up to glare at me.
"How.... Yoo Jaehee... why did you.............."
My voice was now shaking uncontrollably mixed with betrayal and anger with nonstop tears blocking my view.
"I told you to back off Haewon."
Avoiding my gaze, Jaehee replied.
"Yeah, she SO told you! jaehee, let's just go."
Lee Bojung carefully observed my face while pulling on Yoo Jaehee's arms.
"Go? go where? hah... you can't go... i won't let you... how could you do that to our taesung..... and.. and haewon........... apologize like you mean it. and until you beg for forgiveness, you can't go anywhere."
Yoo Jaehee and Lee Bojung stared at each other flabbergasted.
"hey.. what'd she just say?"
"She wants us to beggggg Chung Taesung and Bahn Haewon for forgiveness! HAHA"
Taking a step toward me, the two growled in a low voice.
"Are you stupid? You actually think we'll be an angel and admit what we did? you think we're as stupid as you, huh???"
Lee Bojung pushed my shoulders back with her index finger.
"Don't........... touch me."
"Didn't i tell you to get off Haewon? if you know what's good for you just back off right now... i won't hurt you consideringh how we were.. friends before."
"are you... human?"
"what?"
"If you really like Haewon, why couldn't you just tell him you do confidently without playing with other people's emotions??? what are you gonna do about my brother, huh?!?!"
Crying out, i charged at Yoo Jaehee.
"ahhh!! >_< Bojung!!"
"Ah fcuk!!!"
Bojung grabbed my arms and pulled me back with a great amount of strength. Yoo Jaehee rubbed her head while biting her lower lips.
"whew... Chung Hankyung, you're nothing compared to me."
"i won't forgive you. and until i die, i won't let you guys go."
"If you don't? hah you think we'll suddenly be all afraid of you cuz you won't forgive us???"
Lee Bojung pushed me back as those words left her mouth.
"B!tch. Your sister Han Dareum? hah look at what that hoe did to me. you see this? huh, do you?"
Lee Bojung bowed her head revealing a bald spot among the middle part of her head.
"I'm trying to hold back yet... you're getting on my nerves a BIT too much. You think you're some angel? huh? YOU were the one who didn't believe chung taesung aight!! Jaehee, isn't this some gross incest though? i mean how could a brother like his sister?? if it weren't for your cousin, we'd never know yeah?"
"I know... he's really smart if you look at it that way... i guess that's why he's a fortune teller... those two are pathetic... kek"
so that was it.. that fortune teller.. he did look awfully familiar... Jaehee's cousin from Gongju... hah.....
My whole body started to tremble incredulously and before i knew it, my fists planted itself on Lee Bojung's smile. Lee Bojung looked at me in surprise then after flashing me a smile, plat! Her fists made a loud thud in the hallway as it attacked my cheeks... that hurt...
"Hey Lee Bojung.. i told you not to leave any evidence. If that gets to be a bruise, we're the one who'll be in trouble."
"Sh!t i can't just pretend to be all weak all the time!!! i'm not doing this to end up in the hospital you know!!"
Lee Bojung opened her eyes wide and raised her left fists again... i, also, clenched my fists tightly for defense when..
"You hoes do wanna end up in the hospital huh."
A familiar voice rang in my ears as Jaehee's and Bojung's face turned a shade of blue.
When i looked back, i saw a Haewon's third brother leaning against the open door of a black car... along with Haewon who was biting his lips to strain himself from bursting out in anger.
Haewon's third brother strolled toward Bojung. Aghast, Bojung quickly hid behind Jaehee yet was caught by Haewon's third brother's firm grip on her wrists.
"you know me, huh? dare you to say you don't."
"..........i don't.... you must've got the wrong person."
"Sh!T!! you b!tch!! -0- you ran away with my wallet a couple of weeks ago at that night club!!! why, i oughta!"
Haewon's third brother gave a loud cry as he shook her side to side.
"AHHHHHHHHH!! someone help me!! RAPEEEE RAPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >_<"
Before Bojung's shout could end, third brother knocked her to the ground scarily with a loud thud. -___-
"if you give me that crap again, i'll bury you among the garbage. Follow me. and Bahn Haewon, take care of the other b!tch. Betrayal should end in death, yeah? GET UP!!"
Lee Bojung started to shake uncontrollably with her liips pursed shut. Haewon's third brother dragged her by the wrists toward Haewon's car, and before a blink of an eye, they disappeared. then...
"CHung Hankyung.. wait for me at your house.."
haewon's low voice commanded me.... barely audible among Jaehee's weeping...
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"CHung Hankyung.. wait for me at your house.."
"No"
"Go in.."
"I don't want to.. i still have a lot of things to say to Yoo Jaehee."
"I'll tell you again, go in. just listen to me, talk to her tomorrow."
"i'm the one who should be angry."
"I don't want you seeing me hit a girl.. go in"
Haewon, who was still drunk, staggered toward Yoo Jaehee.. and she recoiled.
"Haewon... it's not like that..."
"............."
"Sorry... it's just i really liked you........"
"Lee Bojung. The fortune teller... you made all that up, huh."
"no haewon.. Bojung was the one who suggested it and i...."
Haewon looked down at Jaehee silently.. and Yoo Jaehee teared up without a change in her expression...
"after you just left me like that... i was really-"
Before Jaehee's words were finished, Haewon's fists flung itself toward Jaehee's jaw... Yoo Jaehee was now splattered on the floor, staring at Haewon dumbfounded.
"Get up."
"Haewon....ah.."
"Should i sit down? yeah that's a good idea."
"Haewon.. stop... i don't want you dirtying yourself. Yoo Jaehee, apologize to Taesung... tell him you're really sorry... then i'll forgive you..."
"Bahn Haewon.. how could you... how.... could you...."
Yoo Jaehee whispered over and over again, dumbly... Haewon looked over his shoulders at me and said..
"Chung Taesung left today.."
"what.......?"
"didn't... didn't he tell you? he said he was going to tell you last night... you don't know?"
"Where did.... where did taesung go......?"
"America.."
"what?"
"you didn't go to the airport....?"
"When.. when did he leave...?"
"........today.."
"you're lying.... right? hah it's some joke right haewon?"
"what do you want me to tell you then.......O_O chung hankyung!"
I ran with one thing in my mind.. to get to Taesung's house... almost blinded by tears, i drew Taesung's face over and over in my mind swallowing back the tears as i ran toward his house... Haewon soon caught up to me and grabbing my wrists, he panted heavily..
"Hah... where do you think you're going?"
".............."
I shook myself to get free from his grip yet Haewon just grabbed both of my wrists with his left hand while calling a taxi with his right...
"Stay still idiot... Chung Taesung won't come back, you know..."
the tears were now salty to my taste as they continued to flow down toward my mouth through my cries...
"SungHan Apartments please... just... go and see if CHung taesung's there... and don't cry.."
Haewon wiped away my tears with his thumb and i just thrusted his hand away..... my tears were now unstoppable as it felt like they were cutting off all of my breathing....
"i'm sorry... i should've told you sooner.."
"you... you knew... you.. knew....how could you........ how?!?!??!?!??!"
"he told me on the day i went to talk to him..."
my shirt dampened along with the disappating tears as i beat on Haewon's chest, crestfallen and dejected..
I continued to shout and yell at Haewon until the taxi came to a stop and as soon as it arrived at the apartments, i immediately bolted out of the door and ignoring how life was draining out of my legs, i was about to sprint up the stairs when..
"You came to see CHung Taesung? -__-"
The security guard held a small bag in his hands while flinching slightly as i continued to weep without a word... he slowly held out the bag toward me...
"he's not home anymore... he left for america this morning.... he told you to give you this though..."
"no.. you have it wrong.... right? i mean.. i mean he has to be home!! taesung... taesung has to be home smiling at me like he always have done!!!!..... it's a joke right....? a joke................... a joke..."
"you should've came by sooner... he came home in a drunk state last night..."
the security guard shook his head twice and entered his office... i rocked myself back and forth, my feet planted on the spot... and felt haewon's warm hands placing itself on my shoulders..
"lets go.. he won't come back you know..."
my arm felt paralyzed as i forced my trembling fingers to open the bag and reveal its contents inside.. a video tape.... a small note.... and a bankcard came into my view.... sending a chill along my spine..
A Wolf's Attraction-114
Unable to shake off the shock, the tape slipped off of my fingers... and picking them up, haewon stared into them..
"I think Taesung recorded this for you.."
"......."
"Chung Hankyung."
"Imma go."
"what?"
"If it hadn't been for aunty... if... if only she didn't take him away!!!!"
I felt my feet moving by itself, staggering... and Haewon hugged me from the behind..
"Are you insane?"
"If aunty... and grandma hadn't........."
"Why do you think Chung Taesung left?!!"
"........"
"He left cuz of you, aight?! It doesn't matter where he'd go as long as it's far away from you!!! It was hard enough for him to stay by your side, so don't make it worse.... stop.. stop acting like a dummy.."
"Why didn't you tell me eariler??? why didn't you say anything?!!??!"
I gave a loud outcry as i spun around and shook Haewon's shoulders violently... and Haewon just picked me up from the ground.
"Imma go to Taesung... please.. let me go Haewon... Taesung.... i need to see him......"
"Stop talking nonsense!!!"
Haewon shouted angrily and he placed me on the cool leather taxi seats.. after shutting the door,
"SamSung Apartments"
Haewon stated his address to the taxi driver and sighed deeply watching me shriek and yell...
"Haewon, this isn't happening right?? you and Taesung just thought of some silly joke, yeah??? right???"
"........"
Silently, Haewon embraced me... and until the taxi arrived in front of Haewon's house, i soaked up Haewon's sleeves...
"Hem, Hem. We're here"
Immediately, Haewon dragged me out of the taxi while i was unwilling to co-operate for the strength in my legs had given up. Haewon looked a bit furious as i collapsed on the ground, and swinging me over his shoulders, he headed toward the elevators... while i stared off into open space, Haewon opened his lips..
"Lets go watch it, inside.."
"What... watch what..."
With a shiny key, Haewon opened the door and helped me walk to the sofas while i leaned on the walls... As if under a spell, all i could mumble out was Taesung's name... and giving me a worried glance, Haewon injected the tape into his vcr. Pretty soon, a static sound was heard in the tv and Taesung's face was zoomed in, fitting the whole tv... Getting off from my seat, i walked toward the TV..
In Taesung's room... Taesung silently.. blankly... stared at me from the TV while sitting in his seat..
"Nuna... whenever you wanna see my face, watch this tape, okay? ^-^"
Taesung smiled brightly then stared at me again blankly..
"Heuk,heuk.. Taesung.... Taesung..............heuk... Taesung............."
Crying... i stared at Taesung's blank face for about 20 minutes.... and... Taesung's opening mouth stopped me from crying... then... his deep black eyes blinked a couple of times while he brought his hands to his lips as if embarassed.
"Ahhhh sh!t... I don't think i could stand still for another second!! Oh.. oops!! Nuna, I didn't cuss!!! >_<"
Taesung frantically waved his hands around.. and suddenly...a tear... and another tear fell from his black eyes.
Sorrowful that even when i could see his face...i couldn't talk to... or touch Taesung... i silently swallowed back my tears... and after rubbing his eyes as if to hide his tears, Taesung said brightly...
"Nuna, in our afterlife... don't be born as my nuna... I don't care if you're some old grandma... and i wouldn't care if you were really really ugly.... just.... just don't be my nuna..."
As if he was swallowing back tears as well, Taesung fake coughed several times.... and.... forcing on a smile.... he continued...
"Then, i'll find you whereever you are.. whether you're in another country or wherever... i'll find you and have you live with me.. so... when we're born again... you have to call me "honey" instead of "Taesung" okay? here.. pinky promise. ^-^"
Taesung raised his pinky to the screen... even though tears were streaming down his face... he didn't fail to smile toward me til our last.. biting my lips hard to keep myself from bursting out... i raised up my pinky to the screen..
"hey!!!! what about me?!"
grabbing my pinky, Haewon yelled out loud... and noticing the seriousness of the situation, he let go slowly... after awhile, Taesung shouted in a bright voice..
"I knew you'd promise!! ^O^"
As if holding back the tears were improbable any longer, Taesung covered the camera lense with his hands and pretty soon... darkness filled around us and Taesung was gone... i continued to stare dumbfounded at the black monitor... and Haewon handed me a small note...
"Isn't this Chung Taesung's phone number?"
Snatching the note from Haewon's hands i quickly dialed the number with my fingers trembling uncontrollably... after a long signal...
"Hello?"
"Heuk..heuk... grandma.... please.. give Taesung back to me......... heuk..... Taesung... please... grandma..."
"Is this Hankyung...?"
"Please grandma... i beg you..... please grandma... heuk.... i can't live without taesung... please..."
Grandma heaved a deep sigh then begun to comfort me in a deep voice... when i continued to shout Taesung's name over and over again..
"Taesung, it's nuna... wanna talk to her?"
Thump.Thump.Thump.Thump. my heart begun to beat faster while Haewon was staring at me silently, leaning slightly on the couch. then.... then Taesung's sweet voice rang in my ears.
"Nuna!"
"........."
At hearing Taesung's voice... the hidden secrets i had buried and locked up in the deepest part of my heart erupted... Taesung continued on while i was unable to utter any sound due to the newly flooding tears.
"Nuna, don't i have a lot of money in the bank?? keke i'm rich! >_<"
"you........Chung taesung..........you, you..... heuk, heuk...... you're such a bad person!!! how..... why are you picking up from america??? why.................heuk.."
The atmosphere had turned deadly quiet..
"I just arrived... it's really nice here.."
"why, why don't you hate me... heuk.... after... after how much i had hurt you.... and after how i blamed you for something you haven't done... heuk.... i turned around from you.... i... i pushed you away taesung........ why are you smiling for me..... i haven't done anything good for you..."
"But you found out that i didn't do it Nuna ^-^ i'm happy with that."
"Happy with what!!! this isn't right taesung... please come back.... you're not here with me taesung.... how's that right at all... please.... please................... come back...."
While i continued to whine and cry like a child... Taesung comforted me in a warm voice..
"if i go..? nuna, what'll happen if i go.."
"Heuk... just.. come.................... please just come.......... i can't let you go.... no.. i won't let you go... heuk... nuna is....... nuna's...."
"nuna, it's hard for me to stay there more than it is to be here... you don't mind if i'm having a hard time? ^-^"
"I'm sorry Taesung... I'm sorry for everything.... so... so come back now.... i won't hurt you ever again taesung.... please... never again...."
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