"yah.. isn't that bahn haewon"
"yeah."
"fcuk. Yah, pink backpack!"
"yes? TOT"
"you... walk behind us, aight? Don't look like you're a part of us, okay?"
"what? TOT"
"if you tell him we're taking you somewhere.......... You know what happens right?"
"..........."
"just hang your head low and walk 50 meters away from us. If you run away or tell we'll go to your school."
The hideous creatures began walking infront of me.
"yah.. why can't we just kill him right now? He's alone.."
"dude.. theres only 4 of us, right now.. if we get in a fight with him, he'll just pound our faces in, aight? Just follow what I say... hang your head low."
The hideous creatures walked while complaining.. T_T they all had their head hung low.. T_T... swallowing back my tears, I forced myself to walk as if nothing had happened.. haewon didn't recognize the hideous creatures.. and...
"you going somewhere?"
"yeah.. TOT"
"are you... crying?"
"no.. T_T"
"why are you crying again... you shouldn't be out here alone.."
"I'm not crying.. ^O^ see?"
if I ask haewon to help me, he'll get in fight again... T_T I can't let that happen.. his face'll get scratched up again.. T^T from the side of my eyes, I saw the hideous creatures shaking their fists at me.. I don't want haewon fighting cuz of me...
"it's nothing haewon.. are you going to meet jaehee? ^-^ yeah.. have fun... I'm kinda busy so I'll be going now."
Haewon grabbed my shoulders as I brushed past him.
"why are you crying.."
"I'm not... "
haewon didn't let my shoulders go.. If I don't say anything he'll just ask me until I give him some answer...
"I'm just... crying cuz of taesung... "
"........"
haewon slowly let go of me..
"I'll be going now.. I'll see you at school tomorrow.. ^O^"
haewon didn't say anything as he waved his hand and disappeared.. the hideous creatures smiled at me as if I had done a good thing... T_T not wanting them to see my tears, I continued to wipe away my tears with my forehand as my footsteps were following after their shadows.. T^T
In a karaoke room...
I guess this is their hideout.. =_= the creatures forced me down into a chair, next to the counter and went into a room... they seemed to be talking to someone... and... pretty soon, they came out, once again.. but this time accompanied by 3 girls about my age, who were chewing gum...
"what? This girl? You want us to handle her?"
"-0- handle? Handle what? What are you handling? -0-"
when I asked them in surprise, one of the girls replied.
"until you tell us where chung taesung is, we handle you, okay?"
"-0-"
"can't let anyone hear a guy beating up a girl. We'll be in the karaoke room, singing aight? Hey girls... just don't let her die, k? ^-^"
the hideous creatures tapped my cheeks and went off into a room...
you'll hit me? -0- just until I won't die..??
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when I looked around, dumbfounded, the girls scoffed at my actions.
"yah... so you're the slut who hit on chung taesung?"
one of the 3 girls, a girl with short hair, asked me.
hit on? He's my brother! T^T
"I expected something better hearing chung taesung's head over heels for this girl.. where do you play at?"
where do I play at..? O.O does she mean where did I use to play at..? O.O
"sshi... answer me! Where do you play at!"
"when I lived in gongju I used to play in the creeks but they don't have those here.."
the 3 girls scoffed in disbelief and one of the girls who had been holding the karaoke books, walked closer to me and slapped me on the head with the book. -0- aigoo!! Holding my head, I stared at them, eyes full of tears. TOT
"don't cry. We get more of an urge to hit you more, if you cry."
It hurts. It doesn't hurt as much as when mom hit me but right now... these punches and slaps the girls are throwing at my thin skin hurts more than I had expected..
"you grew up getting beat up or what? You won't even complain, huh? I guess we have to use some of our feet, too. Hahaha"
I was already splattered on the floor as the scary girls started stepping all over me... these girls aren't hitting me to find out where taesung is... the beating and hitting.. it's just a play thing for them... my back hurts a lot... but I won't cry... when I was young.. my dad told me that if you cry as you fight, then you can't win... that you're the lose... well... I'm not exactly fighting right now.. but still...
"yah.. where's chung taesung?"
"......."
"where is he?!"
"..........."
as I ignored their question, they began kicking and stepping on me more violently.
"ah... man fcuk look at her misun.. she won't cry.. keke"
"sshi!@&#(!@ I'm getting tired, how long has it been?"
"half an hour. Damn she's hard core or what. Sshi.. yah! You really won't tell us, huh?"
"....."
"ahhh... she's pissing me off.. yah misun, you liked taesung didn't' you? Just finish her off with every part of your loathing."
"yeah? Aight, guys stand back while I do my job."
"okay~"
I didn't even have the strength to lift my face up yet these kids sat me in a chair by force. The short haired girl began swing her arms like a windmill.. I think she's gonna hit my stomach. look at her face.. she's enjoying it too much... windmill.......... Hah... wun.... It's been a long time since I saw wun...... taesung'll be waiting for me right now... I can't even give him my pizza...
The short haired girl's fists came closer and closer.... Not even a hint of sympathy...... I let my eyes close...
"yah!! Sshi!(@#&*!@!! what are you doing!!"
one of the hideous creatures came out of the room and shouted.
"why are you yelling!! You told us to beat her up until she tells!"
"yah, I didn't order you guys to kill her! Are you gonna take care of it when she tells the police?!"
"YOU told us to beat her up just until she won't die!!! Is she dead?! NO! why are you pmsing?!!?"
"you!@*#&*(!@s!!!! i knew you guys were a bit bored these days. I told you guys to find out where chung taesung is, not to entertain yourselves!"
the hideous creatures and the girls's voices became louder and louder.. I even hear punches and slams. The rest of the hideous creatures ran out of the room in surprise. someone lifted me up and dragged me out of the karaoke room.
"yah, go to the hospital. Don't tell anyone you got hit here, aight?"
"....."
"aish imma go crazy.. fcuk those girls.. yah we didn't hit you, you know that right? Right?"
"........"
"we're letting you go easily so don't tell this to anyone okay?!"
"....."
"taxi!! Yah, go to the hospital by yourself.. eeshi.."
the hideous creature called to one of the taxis and ran back to where the karaoke room was.. I leaned against the brick walls for support and when I squinted, I saw a surprised taxi driver running toward me.
"aigoo!! Are you okay?!?!?"
"^-^"
"who did this to you?! Is it the guy who just ran off?"
"no it isn't... mister, the hospital please.."
"which hospital?! Just any hospital?"
"anywhere except for Samsung hospital... just anywhere else.."
if taesung sees me right now.. he'll just be worried.. and his condition might get worse... but the taxi driver ignored my plea and 5 minutes later, we were infront of the large and crowded Samsung hospital
"go in now."
"mi... Mister.. I don't like this hospital"
"what are you talking about!! You're not in any position to complain, with your body!"
the ahjusshi pulled me into the hospital T_T well.. I just have to get a checj up and I'll just come out straight afterward.. taesung's in the hospital room so he won't even notice I'm here.. T_T as we were walking into the hospital... i realized that the hot liquid that came into my mouth ever since I got into the taxi was blood from the cut around the area of my eyes.. -0- blood!! Well... at least it's not tears this time..
"huh? Nuna! Aren't you taesung's girlfriend?"
one of taesung's friends stood infront of me
"ah.. do you know her?"
"she's my friend's girlfriend! Mister!! Why is she hurt like that?"
"I dunno.. if I knew, I'd be less perplexed.
"give her to me, I'll carry her in... "
"would you? Sorry I'm on duty right now.."
no ahjusshi.. T_T I pleaded through my mind but my body was already piggybacked my taesung's friend.. -_-
"what are you talking about!! Taesung has to know!! Nuna, who hit you? Huh?"
"T_T lets not go... taesung can't be any more stressed out.."
"taesung ah!!"
slam! The 501 room had opened suddenly and the friends who had been surrounding taesung, stared at me wide eyed.. one of them had a bananna in their mouth while some others had hamburgers.... A wave of silence fell over us..
"taesung! Your girlfriend!! Someone beat her up!"
I hoped he wasn't here... I hoped taesung wasn't in the room... but taesung slowly walked to where I was..
"taesung ah.. see I collapsed with a bicycle on the way...."
"who is it."
"bicycle.."
"I asked you who it was"
"bicycle.."
"I asked you which b!tch hit you."
"the bicycle b!tch"
taesung held my by the shoulders and stared into my eyes..... his eyes were shaking furiously.. his voice changed scarily, too...
"girl or guy"
"....huh?"
"did a girl beat you up like this?!?!"
the nurse unni who had been passing us by, dropped her clipboard in surprise. I shed a tear in silence.
"then nuna.... Are you like this cuz of me..?"
taesung's voice was unsteady... I hung my head low at his question.
"lets go."
At taesung's command, every one of his friends exited out of the hospital room along with taesung.
"taesung! You can't go!! Please, you're not even better yet!!!"
but the door had slammed in my face and silence fell in the room once again... when I grabbed the door knob to follow them out.... The final bit of strength I had in my legs gave up as I collapsed onto the floor.
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as I sat down on the floor... i felt knives jabbing into every part of my body.. TOT wait, I shouldn't be worrying about how hurt I am.. taesung's going into surgery tomorrow! He shouldn't have left like that with his cast on... what should I do... ahhhh... the hospital room opened at that moment, making me to scurry back in surprise.
"who......... aren't you taesung's nuna?!?!?"
nurse unni. She kept on screaming at my condition and dragged me to where taesung's doctor was..
in the office... the same black rimmed glasses with the rectangular chinned doctor..
"it's just a couple of scratches so applying this medicine everyday should do it. Don't take off the cast, or the eyepatch."
a cast like bandage were all around my arms and a eyepatch was on my left eye
"um... doctor.. taesung... he... left to go fight... "
"what!!"
the doctor jumped up immediately
"what'll happen to taesung??"
"he went to fight in those conditions?! Is he mad??"
"....."
"he can barely survive the surgery tomorrow as it is yet he left to go fight in those conditions?!?!"
... barely.. survive the surgery....? At hearing those words, I collapsed, once again.. TOT seeing me sob hysterically, the doctor looked uneasy.
"ah... hey.. hey...."
Taesunggg.. taesung ah!! TOT
Infront of the hospital....
It had already been 3 hours since I waited for taesung... ahhhhh he won't come back... it's time for me to find him on my own. I bravely swung my arms back and forth as I quickly walked into the streets of the city. As I walked, I felt the stares from many of the people on the streets. first time I get this much attention on my own... it's not such a good feeling. -0- I guess this was why haewon and taesung didn't like walking on the streets...
Looking at every alley and shops, I didn't see a trace of taesung anywhere.. where has he gone off to... it's already 11... aigoo... mom'll chase me out of the house.. >_< why am I even thinking about this! Taesunggggg!! TOT
On the final alley....
"hankyung. ^-^"
a couple was walking toward me
"hi jaehee... haewon... hey"
"yah.. why's face your like that?"
"O.O hankyung, why's your face like that?"
they both asked me in unison.
what have you been doing until now... jaehee smiled brightly... have you dumped daehan totally?!
"I bumped into a bicycle.."
"you should've been carefully.. I'll see you later, haewon let's go. ^-^"
jaehee pulled on haewon's arms..
"bicycle? Hah.. why's your face like that.."
"really.. I bumped into a bicycle... "
"do you want me to shout?"
"really!! Heuk.. i seriously bumped into a bicycle.. T_T"
why won't anyone believe me T_T for some reason... I felt angry toward haewon for being with jaehee...
"haewon, lets go... the bus lines'll end."
"who hit you?"
"I didn't get hurt... go already... I'm busy right now.. -0-"
"you were okay a few hours ago.."
"yeah I was... and then I ran into the bicycle.."
"stop with the bicycle!!"
haewon shouted angrily. Why do I feel happy.. -0- I think I'm turning more and more into a fox...
"hankyung ah.. daehan switched his cell phone number.."
jaehee gave me an anonymous smile as she told me
"yeah....?"
"don't you like daehan? ^-^ oh yeah haewon.. see I have this boyfriend named daehan"
haewon was silent... I guess jaehee'll tell the truth now.. how I dated haewon cuz of daehan.. TOT jaehee continued on.
"me and daehan were dating and hankyung likes daehan, right? So if you and me were to go out, daehan would be hurt.. so she tried to prevent it as she went out with you ^-^ isn't hankyung incredible? Sacrificing everything for her love..?"
I stared at jaehee, dumbly... jaehee yah... why'd.. why'd you change so much..?
"I know... I know aight? Nuna, you go ahead. Chung hankyung, you hit you?!??!"
"you know haewon?!?! you know?!?!?"
jaehee nagged haewon while shaking his arms..
"yeah!! I know okay??! I went out with her even when I knew she was just using me!! Nuna go home... before I get mad at you... "
you.. knew haewon...? you knew that I was dating you cuz of daehan...? But why... why.... Why were you smiling at someone as horrible as I am... why did you hug me and tell me everything will be okay.... Why..... why make me more horrible......
"haewon... why... why were you nice to me even when you knew... I don't think I can bring myself to look at your face anymore.."
"if you're sorry, then tell me.. who hit you?"
"why!! Why do you wanna know!! All I do is hurting you!! Why are you so nice to me?! Are you stupid?? There are plenty of girls who like you!! You could just go to them and be treated far much better than how I treated you!! Why are you so nice to me... "
hah............... hah........ this.... For the first time in my life, I'm shouting and screaming... because I was sorry.... And because I loved haewon, I shouted at him more... haewon stared at me without saying a word then smiled faintly..
"what do I do then... even when you're looking somewhere else.. all I could think about is you... ever since I let you go.. I've felt like hell... and all I do when I drink nowadays is to cry...... what am I suppose to do when I get mad that you got hit so much... "
".........."
"whether its kim daehan or chung taesung... watching your back all the time.. watching you cry after those guys.. and all I could do is to let you go... do you know how pathetic that is?!"
"I've always watched your back, too.. TOT"
"... I don't wanna hear it.."
"I don't like daehan anymore!! Really!! TOT"
"I don't wanna hear it aight? Now just tell me why you're like this.."
"I'm serious!! TOT I think I like you!! TOT no... I like you!!"
"......."
"heukheukheuk.. sshi you dunno how much I'm going through.. I can't even tell you how much I like you cuz of chung taesung.. and all I could do is watch you and jaehee go around without saying a word!! TOT"
"I didn't know you were the type to like a lot of guys at once."
"T_T I only like you.... Opposite sex wise.."
haewon put up my fingers as he said to me.........
"chung taesung.... And me... that's two"
"taesung's my brother! TOT"
"stop with the brother thing!!"
"he's my real brother!!! TOT"
"......."
Haewon's face immediately hardened and jaehee, biting her lower lips... glared at me as if to rip me apart.. -_-
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=_= I told him.. I finally told him... a few seconds later, haewon opened his mouth.
"I'm not in the mood to play games with you"
I opened my mouth..
"I'm not PLAYING any games with you T_T"
haewon says..
"in my ears, it sounds like your talking nonsense."
"I'm telling the truth!! Taesung left to go find the people who beat me up!! Chung taesung! Chung hankyung!! Siblings, okay?? I found out we're related a couple of weeks go!! My dad's name is chung taehoon!! Do you believe me now?! TOT"
aigoo... that feels refreshing.. telling him everything that was on my mind... haewon stared at me intensely, a hint of realization dawning onto his face.
"yah haewon, you're not believing her, are you?"
jaehee stared at haewon pleadingly
"I do"
"she's lying haewon!! she has a habit of lying ever since she was little!!"
huk! When did I ever!! That was you, yoo jaehee!! You told me that you saw a talking duck and a golden squirrel when we were in elementary school! And you told me that you even saw a walking cabbage!! TOT that night, I went to the cabbage fields and spent the night looking for the walking cabbage!! I even didn't go home one night looking for a talking duck!!!
"did you say.. chung taesung left to go find the people who beat you up?"
"yeah! But I dunno where he is.. TOT"
"then who are the people who beat you up?"
"sung gwon high school... seniors... those people you and taesung were fighting.. T_T"
"go back to the hospital.. we'll talk more later.."
haewon quickly sprinted out of the alley.. leaving me and jaehee behind.
jaehee opened her shaking lips...
"you..... you... how can you... "
"you haven't done anything good, either."
"why haewon?!"
"what about you then?! Why daehan?! And why haewon?!?!"
"I liked daehan back then!!"
"you lied to me and told me you didn't know where daehan was when I asked you how he was!!"
"okay!! I admit it!! You dated him first and I made him mine afterwards! But!! I knew haewon before you!! So why don't YOU forfeit this time!!"
"-0- I wont!"
"what?!"
"I won't!! I like haewon, too!! I won't forfeit nor surrender..!! TOT"
"chung hankyung! Yoo jaehee!!"
daehan stomped over to where we were.. and his friend stared at us, a look of dislike for jaehee......
"daehan... "
jaehee's eyes became wider..
"you..... you did what..... you.... How could you.."
".........."
"is that why you were ignoring me these couple of weeks?!"
"..... sorry... "
"I can't believe you, you jaehee.. I thought you were better than that... "
daehan smiled sorrowfully... he slowly turned around, and returned to where his friends were..... jaehee traced after him.
We were all friends in elementary school... we cooked potatoes... had sleep overs... studied together.. and played in the creeks on weekends.. we were all... all really good friends.... But.... But now.. what do I have left? No one.. I lost both jaehee and daehan.... Well.. at least haewon knows everything...
Oh yeah!! Taesung might have came back!! The hospital was just a 10 minute walk, yet I grabbed a taxi and asked the driver to quickly drive to Samsung hospital
The first thing that came into my sight was a ambulance truck quickly speeding out way... no.... NO!!! -0- forgetting to pay the taxi driver, I bolted out of the door and ran to the hospital... panting furiously and swalling back my tears, I grabbed one of the nurse unnis and asked her, pleadingly..
"uh.. UNNI!! TOT that ambulance truck!! What is it?!!"
"O_O a student was badly injured.. why?"
"student?!?!? A guy???!"
"yes. O.O"
"where is he?!"
"probably in the emergency room... "
"thank you!!"
2nd floor, emergency room...
I hoped for the best... I hoped.. I really wished with all my heart that it wouldn't be taesung.... Yet the first thing that came into my sight as I landed on the top stair was.. taesung lying down in a bed as he was entering the emergency room.. his clothing were wet with blood and taesung was grabbing his left chest as if it was hurting him..
"taesung!! Taesung ah!! Taesung!!! TAESUNG!!!!"
the doctors harshly pulled me away from the bed
"taesung... why'd you do it!?!? WHY!! You knew you were gonna end up like this!!!"
taesung took a glimpse of me.. and began laughing... which ended in tears.... Crying sorrowfully... and sadly.... Pouring out tears....
"take care nuna..... nuna....do this favor for me...? Can you... can you tell me you love me... just this once... "
taesung forced on a smile, his head shining with sweat...
"eu heuk heuk... euuu heuk heuk.. taesung ah... taesung ah I love you... I love you.. I love you... nuna really loves you... "
the surgery room opened in slow motion.....
"everything's okay then.... I'll wait for you.. nuna..... i... I love you, too...."
The door slammed shut and I pounded on the door, despite the bruises forming on my hand...
yet the cruel and heartless door.. didn't budge..
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you know the saying... where... when you're too sad... and you're too surprised.. your tears could dry up....and you feel nothing but emptiness...?
I think... I think now.. I know how that feels...
I stood in my spot as taesung's friends shook me, all of them wearing one or more scars or bruises on their faces...
"what happened to taesung?!?! Huh?!??!"
seeing me silent.... They hung their head low and began sobbing...
"that idiot... he.. he should've stopped... we told him to stop.... We told him to...... stop...... "
they were unable to finish their sentences as their sobbing turned into bawling... standing amidst them, I prayed from the deepest part of my heart... for a miracle.... For a miracle to occur...
about an hour later... we were still infront of the emergency room... none of us had ceased our crying.
"unni."
When I turned my head, I saw dareum staring at me surprised, holding onto jooho's hands... I saw haewon staring at me dumbly behind them..
"unni... what.. what happened...?"
"......... "
"is... is chung taesung....... Really sick....? Is.. his... life... in danger..?!?!?"
"........"
"where's the captain, ahjuma?? Where's our captain?!?!?"
jooho took up sobbing as well as he collapsed onto the floor and began sobbing...
dareum grabbed both of my shoulders and shook me furiously...
"I thought... I thought he'd get better after the surgery!!! Isn't he going to.!? Unni, isn't he???"
"......... "
"is chung taesung gonna die!!!"
dareum's loud voice rang throughout the hallway..
"no dareum..... no... "
"that..... that @ss.. it's... it's his birthday today....... It's his birthday.... His... birthday....."
dareum's eyes began to water and just after she turned her gaze elsewhere, a tear fell upon her shoes... our taesung.... So many people are crying.. and sobbing.. and aching because of you......... please... survive the surgery.... And just like before... show us that beautiful smile...? Tell me "nuna, I'm back".................grinning widely just... like.. before....
Another doctor hurriedly walked into the emergency room, and before he could enter, I grabbed onto his sleeve.
"please doctor... please.. I beg you... save him... save taesung..... please.. doctor...... doctor.........."
"......... "
he stared at me without a word and grabbed the door knob.
"doctor.. he can't die... taesung can't die... taesung..... he just.. can't die... I'm the one who should die... theres too many people who ache and cry for him doctor.. T_T"
haewon grabbed my wrists after hearing my words... the doctor coughed twice and disappeared into the door. Everything's becoming a blur.... My head emptied... my mind emptied... and I began seeing black dots everywhere......
"unni!!!"
at dareum's urgent shout, I closed my eyes.
taesung was laying down on a high bed with a white bed covering..... his face was ever so peaceful.. and next to him were dareum and jooho... crying their hearts out....
My hands were shaking madly.. as I pulled down the white covering..... scars... bruises... scratches decorated taesung's beautiful face.. yet he was smiling... he was smiling til his last... I softly took his hand into mine... how... how much did it hurt taesung.... These scars and scratches on your hands.... How much did it hurt..........
It still seems like you'll suddenly jump up and give us a wide smile..... my hands never ceased to stop shaking as I slowly brought my hands onto his face....
Boong gee boong gee chachacha~ boong gee boong gee chachacha~ taesung's cell phone began ringing from his pockets...
"taesung ah.... You got a phone call.... Wake up..... wake up taesung.... You can't ignore whoever's calling you......."
no matter how much I shook him, taesung didn't budge.. his long eyelashes remained in contact with his skin..... taesung's friends bawled louder...... one of them.... Croaked out as if talking was difficult for him..
"nuna.. taesung.. taesung wanted to tell you.... He wanted you to know.. that he'll be waiting for you in heaven.... He'll be waiting for you from above.. so this time... this time, you have to recognize him right away... even if his face... and his form changes..... he asked you to recognize him right away...... "
dummy... how could nuna not recognize you.... How could... how could I not recognize such a handsome brother like you.... Why... and how.... Silent tears surrounded me as I caressed his face gently...
all because of me..... how much... how much did your body... and your heart hurt because of me.... Living alone with your grandmother..... how lonely were you...... taesung ah... how much did you cry... how much... how much did you cry out dad's and mom's name in the middle of the night........ why.... Why are you the only one who's in pain... why.... You're still so fragile taesung... you're still so young.... Why such a great pain toward someone so nice and gentle as you.... I've done nothing great and I caused everyone pain.. yet I'm perfectly fine... but why... why do you have to take in all the pain......................
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