large hospital... swinging my arms... I headed to the front desk..
"what room!! Is Chung Taesung in....?0?.???!! Huk huk.... Chung Taesung!!!!!!"
everyone's attention in the hospital was focused on me........
........................
"...Patient Chung Taesung...?..."
a nurse asked me.
"YES!?0?!! PALE FACE!! I mean.... No!!! he just came in for emergency!!!!!"
"....ah.......the motorcycle accident....?..try the 2nd floor.."
"motorcycle accident!!????0?!?????? OH MY GOD!!!!!!?0?!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
yelling loudly... I pounded up the stairs.
"EXCUSE ME?! Where's Chung Taesung?!?! TAESUNG AH!!!"
I believe I never screamed as loud as I did in the hospital......
......
a surprised nurse sprinted toward me and took hold of my crazily shaking body..
"excuse me.. please quiet down... who are you looking for..??"
"I'm looking for my brother!!!! He might die from a motorcycle accident!?0?!!"
"...ah....;; that patient..?... he's in the emergency room right now..... the operation should take another hour.."
"OPERATION?!??! Meaning like a surgery??????????!!!!!!!?!!!!!!!!! _ 0 _!?!?!"
"..yes...."
"UNNI!!! Please!! Please I beg you!! Save Taesung!!!! He's such a poor guy!!! He cant' die!!! Please please!!!"
"....it's... not something I can control....."
the nurse stared at me bewildered and left me crying my heart out with click cluck sounds..
..i leaned against the chair, tiredly.. and continued crying my soul out waiting for the surgery room to open....
5 minutes seemed like an hour...........
...........
an hour and 10 minutes finally passed seeming like something eternal.... and as soon as the operation door opened..... several nurses came out pulling a bed with wheels with them. I bolted out of my seat and ran to the bed.. Taesung was laying down on the bed....
...
........
oh....... My............................ Taesung........
.....
that one time... when he was beaten up on the streets.... It's nothing compared with this..
....
his whole face was scarred....
......
another scar on his head.. as if he had hit his head when he fell....
.......
"..Taesung............. taesung ah.............. please........ lemme look at you taesung......... open your eyes.. please taesung....."
.......
...........
............
"Taesung ah... heuk.............. taesung................ Heukheuk.... Taesung!!!! Open your eyes!!!! Nuna's here to see you!!!! Wahhhhh.. heukheukheuk?0?!!"
the nurse unnis continued pulling the bed.. walking right next to them... I continued shaking with tears.
"Taesungggg..?0?!!nuna's here to see you...!! Taesung ah.........!!!!!!!! please open your eyes!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
I became more and more desperate... my whole body....... And my voice cracked with tears...
.........
................
right then....
Taesung..................... scarcely opened his bloody eyes.....
"taesung...........??? TAESUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! are you okay!? Can you see me all right?! Huh?!??!! Huh?!?!?!??!?!!?!??!""
".........nuna...................."
"heukheukheukheuk......?0?........Taesung......?0?.......my poor taesung..?0?.........."
"......nuna......... don't cry............"
"..?_?..sshi.... how can I not cry..?_?... how did you......... how......?_?.."
"...if I die.. nuna.............."
"why would you die????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"..if I die....... Then I'll see our dad..... yeah.....??......."
".............our dad...?... TAesung's dad...?? Don't say stuff like that!!! You won't die!!!!!!!!!!!"
"..no......... our dad......... not Taesung's dad..... but... nunas... and my................. my.... And your.... Dad............... our dad.........."
......
..........
Taesung smiled faintly.....
..................
".....what......... what are you talking about Taesung............... taesung....?..."
..........
"why.... Why couldn't you find out sooner.......This sux... yeah nuna...?..."
..................
"....you're lying........................... you're lying Taesung.... lying....."
....
.......
.............
a tear fell from Taesung's eyes....
"Chung hankyung you dummy......... you can't even recognize your dongseng's face........ confused queen of dummies............ haha........."
"Taesung............... then.......... Then you're............"
..
...............
..........................
"nuna.......... But.......... But if I die........ who'll take care of our nuna.........."....Taesung slowly closed his eyes.......
"TAESUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
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.. in a flash....
every word Taesung said..... weaved through my thoughts... every word he said.... That I didn't understand what he meant... it passed me by like lightning..
........
.........
................
I know you nuna.... Try and remember me........
..........
.................
because I searched for you a long time..... but.... But because I just found you.......... And because you're that special to me..
.........
.............
is dad home at nuna's house....?
......
nuna..... you have a lot of siblings.....^-^....
......
.........
why weren't you by my side....................... I was always alone............. Nuna..... I was always alone........ it's me.. nuna............ it's me... Taesung........... I'm Taesung....
..
.......
our nuna.... If it wasn't for me... who would fight for you..
....
......
.......when did... dad........ when did dad pass away...
....
......
then. Isn't Han Dareum nuna's real sister...?
.....
.........
nuna.... Can't you come to me..............?............would that... would that really be impossible.......?"
.....
.........
if it was always so bright... and the lights suddenly turn off... you'd probably not be able to see anything...but if it was always pitch dark... then you've adaped into the darkness... that you are able to see....... i'm okay.....
....
...........
...it's nuna........... it's really you nuna....... my nuna.... Our nuna.........
.......
and.. on top of that.. the conversation my mom and my step dad shared..
..........
I collapsed on that spot.....
........
"are you okay!?!?"
......and slowly............. My eyes were closing...
........
.......
..............
...........
..............
"unni!! Unni!!! Wake up!!!!!!!!"
......
.........
eu... eumm....
?_?..
"TAESUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
sitting up in my seat....i saw Dareum.......... And HAewon......
.......
"..how can you call to Taesung as soon as you wake up..?...unni... did you know that Haewon watched over you the whole night...? Yeah...?? At least you shouldn't ignore a person's sincerity..!!"
".......Chung Taesung....he's next door...."
....Haewon told me quietly...
I stood up and putting on my slippers... I held onto the door knob........seeing how the sun was shining....i guess it's morning..
"unni! What are you doing!? Can't you see how much we were worried about you!!"
".....Dareum................."
"..............what......"
"......our dad........... our dad's.... son..........."
"..Jooho......??"
"..no.... I'm talking about.. our... our real dad's son....."
"......why bring him up......."
"...what if... what if our dad's son die.............. what do I do then Dareum...... I don't think... I don't think I can live if that happens..."
"what are you talking about!?! Unni! Why are you crying!?!?!? What's wrong!!!!!! And why say such a random thing???!!!!"
".........."
I exited out of the room. and headed to Taesung's room.. a red banner stuck infront of his room..
'Forbidden to enter'
......
........
tirelessly... I turned the door knob. it was locked....
....
......
........
crying again...... I started pounding on the door softly.. and then... more faster........ more harder......... I pounded on the door...
"Taesung.... It's me....... Taesung ah....... Nuna's here.... Chung Taesung.... Chung Taesung.......!!"
....
.......not even a squeak was heard from his room....
"TAESUNG AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CHUNG TAESUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
....
.........
"...stop it........ he won't wake up just because you create a rackus...."
..
Haewon said to me...... stone faced..
"......Taesung......... Taesung...."
".......he won't die........ he's not as weak... you know that right? Stop crying.... He won't die..............."
.....Haewon slowly pulled me into his embrace... while I stood there frozen... crying nonstop..
.....
it's even hard to breathe.............. crying so much...... but... but Haewon.... Comforted me by hugging me tightly..
.............and.... thanks to his gesture.... the tears I was holding back. poured out more and more.... Soaking HAewon's collar....
"..idiot... he won't die that easily...... and... I won't let him die....... If Chung Taesung dies......"
"..heukheukheuk....?0?....wahhhhhhhh..?0?...."
"..if Chung Taesung dies..... you'll probably die with him......... so........ so I won't... ever let him die............ stop crying.."
"....?0?..huuuuuuuuung....?^?...Haewu....unnng.... Haewon ah?0?.."
Haewon slowly wiped away my tears with his fingers.......
"...i'll let you go Hankyung.......... I'll let you go............... so... go to Taesung........ Chung Taesung.... He'll be in pain more than me............ he probably needs you much more than me.... So... I'll let you go...."
I lifted up my gaze and stared at HAewon surprised........
"..and.... you can't tell me you're gonna die.......... Aight..............?? I'm not letting you go for nothing.......... You have to promise me...... to smile much more... and be happier while you're with Taesung............... aight.................."
........heukheukheuk...?0?.....what the heck is he talking about..?0?. Taesung's my real brother!!!......?^?....
........you're the one I like... you dummy....?0?.......
but....
....i wasn't in any situation to tell him that..?0?.....
..........?0?... without a word............... I continued crying into Haewon's arms........
.........
for more than an hour..... pouring....... And drenching.................. soaking.................................... and crying.............
...........................
the darn doctor.. forced me out of the hospital.....despite my pleas to stay within the hospital.... I ignored Dareum's constant yells and shouts telling me to go home.... and... being 10 o'clock at night.. I sat infront of Taesung's room.... And stared intensely at the red banner....
if Taesung was my brother.... then he's won't be my mom's son.. then...... dad... and another woman's son.........?... so that's what happened...................
hah........ I remember now........... I noticed how... how much he looked like.... Eunsung oppa.....
......and.. Eunsung oppa looked a lot like my dad...... and Taesung looks like Eunsung oppa......... no he's like a clone of Eunsung oppa.............dummy......... why.... Why didn't you realize ealier.... That Taesung looked incredibly alike as my dad....... dummy... dumb @ss.... arghhhh...........
tears began to fall again..?0?.. my eyes had already shrinked twice its size...... i won't have any tears left by the end of the night.........?0?.....
right then....
the same nurse..... from last night.....neared Taesung's room....... I stared at her with sparkling eyes.. and......... not letting my assumption down.... She opened the door with a key...!!
i!!!! quickly bolted in....
"oh my!!! What are you doing..?_?..?? visitors are forbidden!! Didn't you see the sign?!"
ignoring her, I pushed her to my side and stepped into Taesung's room
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.. hah......... hah..... hah.........................i saw taesung laying on the bed infront of me..
with both of his eyes tightly shut.......
"taesung!!!!!!!!!!! Taesung can you hear me?!?!?"
"what... what are you doing!! You shouldn't be in here... please, you should go out..!"
"heukheukheuk.?0?..i'm his nuna!!!!!!!!!!!"
the nurse looked fearful of my sudden outbursts as she bit her lip.
".taesung....? taesung!!! Please.... Open your eyes!!! You're okay right taesung????? OPEN YOUR EYES!!!!!- 0 -!!"
silence......
...
"taesung............. taesung...."
"he won't wake up just because you keep on calling him.."
"..will..... will taesung die........................?....."
the nurse was silent as she jotted writing down on her clipboard...
"unni......... will... will taesung die...???? No, right...?? He'll be better after his surgery right..........??? Yeah....??"
......
once again.. she silently checked his pulse...
"he... can't die... unni he just can't.. I won't let him be alone anymore... not after..... not after............ auheukheuk..?0?..unni...?0?...please... you can save him..?0?..right..??"
".....his normal heart conditions wasn't that great.......he might........ he might need a heart transplant because of that...."
"ex..........................excuse me........?"
"..on his records.... It shows that he had a daily check up for his heart 2 years ago.............. and to make it worse..... this accident................"
"................."
"you're his guardian, am I correct...???"
"yes.........."
"..i suggest you talk with his doctor..."
the nurse cast me a sympathetic look and exited out of the room.... for a long time.... I collapsed next to his bed, crying while I caressed taesung's face.. please..... please just open your eyes taesung.....remember how you'd always wave your arms for me.. you always had that bright smile on your face.........nuna...... nuna......you'd always joke around without a hint of sorrow............you're the one who promised to protect me..... you can't protect nuna while you're laying down.. right..???
taesung ah...........taesung.........are you mad.... Are you mad because nuna took such a long time recognizing you.............?...i'm sorry............. I really am... taesung.... It's all my fault... but..... but we found each other at last right....??? Please taesung... just open your eyes.....
......please.................
when I opened my eyes................the room had turned bright..
I have to go to........ school.........?_?.........
taesung continued laying on his bed without a trace of life... if scars and scratches are left....
what if.... scars and scratches decorate my beautiful brother's face....... gently caressing taesung's cold face.. I hurriedly ran out of the room... in an attempt to flee from the tears......
on the bus going to school..........
taesung......... he doesn't have anyone... mom.............dad.............. a grandma.......
.......nor any younger siblings... I'm the only one taesung has....... as of right now..... the only person taesung could depend on............... is me...
right then.........
like lightning... a face flashed in my mind.. DAREUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
...why... why didn't I think of that sooner?!!?!!!....DAreum and Taesung are blood related......... like me and Taesung...! as soon as I got off the bus... I sprinted into the gates of our school.... ignoring the PE teacher's shouts calling my name.....- _ -...
.....
and..... panting furiously....
I halted to a stop infront of DAreum's classroom...... I've gotten too much braver these days......
for taesung........ for my beautiful brother taesung.. I slammed open the door.....
..........
- _ -...............
everyone in the room.... EVERYONE set their gaze on me..- _ -..
Haewon......
wun.... dareum......
I even saw Haejung.......- _ -.....
stopping with whatever he was writing on the chalkboard... the teacher stared at me, surprised..
"what... is it?"
"you see... huk huk...- _ -..that... han dareum student right there......... huk..- _ -.. the office wants a word with her..."
"...Han Dareum...?.. judging by the shoes your holding..... plus the backpack..... did you just come to school...?"
"yes......"
"....why....? why'd you come so late...?'
the teacher walked closer to me..- -
"....one of our family member is really ill.........."
Dareum stood up brusquely..
"WHAT!? UNNI!?!?!?! Who's sick?!??! Mom?!?!?!? Dad??!!?! Oh my gosh, it's not jooho is it?!??!?!!?"
the teacher frowned at Dareum's outburst......
.......
"no... dareum ah....... Taesung..... it's taesung..... he's sick......... our taesung........ he's really............. Really sick.................... heuk.... What... what do we do dareum..."
standing infront of the 2-3 classroom........i was unable to hide my emotions any longer...... as I started to bawl.........
"UNNI!!!- 0 -! Why are you crying???!!!!! Huh?! WHY!!!!!!"
the classroom suddenly became really loud.. as many students whispered words to each other.... the teacher looked unsure of what he should do.... while wun stood up along with dareum....
.....
and..
haewon almost stared at me lazily with his arms crossed.....
...........
"..if... it's urgent... than you can take DAreum home........ were you sisters..??? hm... I wasn't aware of that...."
....as soon as those words left the teacher's lips.... Dareum snatched my hands..And dragged me out of the classroom...
"unni... I'm confused... who's sick...??? And what does chung taesung have anything to do with our family?!"
............in the bathroom..
Dareum asked me... While I washed my tear-painted face with cold water....
"unni!!! What's wrong!? Huh?!? What!! whaaaaaaaaat!!"
"......Dareum..........."
I grabbed both of dareum's hands and squeezed them hard.... water still dripping down from my face..
"....whu........! what!!! Just say it!!!"
"...if......... if you......"
"..yeah................. go on!!! Stop stalling!!!! - 0 -!!!!"
".....if you had.............. a secret sibling...... a secret sibling you didn't know about.... What would you do..?"
"a secret sibling...?? Guy?! girl?!"
"....a guy....."
"is he cute?!??!"
"yeah...................... He's the cutest thing ever.....^-^...."
a tear fell from my eyes....
"..eh? but why are you crying!!!! What about the secret sibling?! How would I feel about it?!?"
"yeah......."
"If he's cute of course I'll like it!!!!!!!!! More popularity from my friends, eh? Muhaha!- 0 -!! Is that why you wanted to talk to me..?"
"..then... what if.......... What if that guy............... was.... Was someone you hated more than anyone... else...?'
"..eh...........? hated more than anyone else?!"
"if.......... If you didn't even like seeing his face.......?"
"..........you're........ you're not joking are you, unni.."
"..................."
"...it.... isn't an if... is it.... It's... it's really true isn't it....."
I silently started crying, shoulders shaking madly...
"Chung taesung............ is... is that who it is, unni..."
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.. I was speechless at her assumption.... Dareum began shaking my shoulders violently.. - _ -
"why!? Why!!!! Why.... Why HIM of all people?!??! How can... how can Chung Taesung be a part of OUR family?!!? How?!?!?!??! and WHY!????????????????"
"................"
"tell me!!!! Why huh?!??!! Wait.... HOW the heck is he related to us??????!!!!!!"
"........he's..... he's our dad's son......... our dad in heaven..."
".....Chung Taesung?!?!?! You're saying he's our mom and dad's son?!?"
"....no......... our mom isn't related to him.... A different woman....... Just the same father...."
"......hah............... imma go crazy............. What is this............. Unni... is this some joke??? Perhaps an early april fools ha-ha....??"
"......Taesung.......... he's family Dareum...."
"...............how can.... How can someone who was born between dad and another woman, be family.....?"
"don't say it like that Dareum......."
".....imma.... pretend I didn't hear any word of this... nothing's gonna change.. you want some drama between me and Taesung...??! where i'll be crying and running with open arms to taesung?!?! Hah... you are so dreaming if you think I'll suddenly like him just because he's "family"........... in fact..I'm beginning to hate him more....."
"...what........... what's jooho then...? Jooho's your brother isn't he...?? Why can't Taesung be our dongseng..............?....."
"JOOHO?! He's actually BORN between our step-dad and our mom!!!!!!!!!"
"excuse me?! Is.... Is our step-dad more important.... More important and special than the real dad who gave birth to you?!?! Is that how It is with you!!?"
"yeah!!!!! I only lived 6 years of my life with him unni!!!!! I barely remember ANYTHING about our real dad.... And...... I lived more than 10 years with my step-dad!!!!! I don't care who the hell gave birth to me!!!!! How about YOU continue crying about the dad in heaven?? and don't bring me into this!!!!!!! I consider our step-dad closer than our real dad so don't think I'll suddenly take some sympathy toward Chung Taesung!!! He's YOUR brother!!!! I.......... I have no part in this..........."
all I could do.... Was stare at Dareum dumbfoundedly......are you....... Are you really my sister, dareum......?? This is so unlikely of you...........How can you be so cruel......... so heartless......?........
"...i'm no different than yesterday... I'm the same Dareum yesterday, today, and tomorrow... nothing's changed.. and nothing will... Chung Taesung......... he's your brother... so YOU take care of him............"
as soon as those words left dareum's lips.........she put her hands on the door knob...
".....alright.. since taesung's my brother... I'll take good care of him..And since... since jooho's your REAL brother... I guess you'll take care of HIM... han dareum......."
Dareum looked back at me....... In disbelief.... and a tear fell... from her eyes..
slam..................... dareum stormed out of the bathroom...
......for about 2 hours...........i locked myself in the bathroom stalls.... And cried until i was unable to produce anymore tears.. I ignored the shouts and complains by the students who needed to use the bathroom.........and continued sobbing hysterically.....
....and......
I finally came to a conclusion....... sniffling...........while washing my dirty face....................taesung.................. remember how you promised me, you'll be the one to take care of me....? well... I'll be your guardian from now on..... so don't worry okay.....
I'll become stronger.........
......i'll be strong.... I won't let anyone hurt you anymore, taesung... you don't have to worry about me, anymore..
speedily... I walked to the office......... when I slammed open the door.... a few remaining teachers looked up at me, surprised.... and i marched over to my homeroom teacher, full of determination..
"i... don't think I'll be able to come to school for a few weeks." (see how brave I got to be - _ -?)
"wha.......what...?"
"I'll be taking a break... I have a sick brother I have to take care of.."
"- _ -..Chung Hankyung....."
"......yes......."
the teacher abruptly stood up and began hitting my head with the paper he was holding..?0?.....
"finals begin tomorrow!!!! I dunno what you're playing at, but return to your classroom immediately and study!!!!!!!!! And to think I thought you were a good student... hurry up and leave!!!!!!!!!!- 0 -!!!"
aghast at the teacher's poisonous shout...... I was unable to utter out another word... and returned to my classroom.. -., -.... NOW what do I do......? 0?.....
as soon as the door opened.. Minsoon ran toward me hurriedly....
"yah!! Why'd you come so late?!!?"
"huh...? Um.... I woke up late...^ ^..."
"..- _ -..whoa... never thought I'd see the day when you'd get up late... hey~ you know what?!!?"
"what..........?"
"finals begin tomorrow!!!!!!"
"...whew........ I know.. unfortunately..^ ^...."
"..well, It's better for you, isn't it!?!?"
"...what is...?0?...?"
"..our school... we mix classes with the juniors during finals~"
"...?_?..so................................. what...?"
"...okay, look at it this way... we're seniors... Haewon's a junior........ yeah?"
"uh................. huh..?_?..?"
"aigoo! Your so stupid!!!!!!!!"
Minsoon lightly punched my head..?_?...
"OK!!! YOU and HAEWOn have a 50/50 chance of being in the same CLASS.... OKAY???!?"
huk....- _ -...why...!! not... now..... we're not even on good terms with each other...- _ -.......
whyyyyyyy..? 0?....
later on that night... as soon as the bell signaling the end of school rang.... wanting to go to the hospital.. I ditched my kekekaka freinds... and sprinted to the gates.. if I asked them to come with me.. they'll probably start kissing Taesung...! AND he's not even awake.. tch forget kissing.... They'll probably.......................... AHHH>_<
I didn't even eat lunch................ and skipped my obsession of caramel for today..
......... for I knew.... That I wouldn't be able to eat anything...... while I was putting on my shoes....
Haewon left his friends and came over to where I was...
"....is Chung taesung okay....?
(--)(--)(--)(--) I shook my head......
"....oh.... sorry about that.... wait were you crying again.....?"
....(--)(--).....(--)(--).....
"..look in the mirror before lying... your eyes are hella swollen.... Can you even see...? Huh?"
(- -)(_ _)(- -)(_ _).......
"...hey.... smile some more.... You look so stressed out............"
at haewon's words... I finally looked up.
.....the same backpack..... he didn't throw it away........... I thought he would... considering what happened last night...
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