Студопедия
Случайная страница | ТОМ-1 | ТОМ-2 | ТОМ-3
АрхитектураБиологияГеографияДругоеИностранные языки
ИнформатикаИсторияКультураЛитератураМатематика
МедицинаМеханикаОбразованиеОхрана трудаПедагогика
ПолитикаПравоПрограммированиеПсихологияРелигия
СоциологияСпортСтроительствоФизикаФилософия
ФинансыХимияЭкологияЭкономикаЭлектроника

17 страница. given him. She did not know why the thought of his casually using still all her little presents made her inclined to laugh

6 страница | 7 страница | 8 страница | 9 страница | 10 страница | 11 страница | 12 страница | 13 страница | 14 страница | 15 страница |


Читайте также:
  1. 1 страница
  2. 1 страница
  3. 1 страница
  4. 1 страница
  5. 1 страница
  6. 1 страница
  7. 1 страница

given him. She did not know why the thought of his casually using still all her little presents made her inclined to laugh. Then he came in with the tea and they drank it sitting side by side on the sofa. He told her more about his improved circumstances. In his pleasant, fri-endly way he acknowledged that it was owing to the work that thro-ugh her he had been able to bring the firm that he had secured a larger share in the profits. He told her of the holiday from which he had just returned. It was quite clear to Julia that he had no inkling how much he had made her suffer. That too made her now inclined to laugh.

 

"I hear you're going to have an enormous success tonight." "It would be nice, wouldn't it?"

 

"Avice says that both you and Michael have been awfully good to her. Take care she doesn't romp away with the play."

 

He said it chaffingly, but Julia wondered whether Avice had told him that this was what she expected to do.

 

"Are you engaged to her?"

 

"No. She wants her freedom. She says an engagement would in-terfere with her career."

 

"With her what?" The words slipped out of Julia's mouth before she could stop them, but she immediately recovered herself. "Yes, I see what she means of course."

 

"Naturally, I don't want to stand in her way. I mean, supposing af-ter tonight she got a big offer for America I can quite see that she ought to be perfectly free to accept."

 

Her career! Julia smiled quietly to herself.

 

"You know, I do think you're a brick, the way you've behaved to her."

 

"Why?"

 

"Oh well, you know what women are!"

 

As he said this he slipped his arm round her waist and kissed her. She laughed outright.

 

"What an absurd little thing you are." * "How about a bit of love?"

 

"Don't be so silly."

 

"What is there silly about it? Don't you think we've been divorced long enough?"

 

"I'm all for irrevocable divorce. And what about Avice?" "Oh, she's different. Come on."

 

"Has it slipped your memory that I've got a first night tonight?" "There's plenty of time."

 

He put both arms round her and kissed her softly. She looked at him with mocking eyes. Suddenly she made up her mind.

 

"All right."

 

They got up and went into the bedroom. She took off her hat and slipped out of her dress. He held her in his arms as he had held her


so often before. He kissed her closed eyes and the little breasts of which she was so proud. She gave him her body to do what he wan-ted with but her spirit held aloof. She returned his kisses out of ami-ability, but she caught herself thinking of the part she was going to play that night. She seemed to be two persons, the mistress in her lover's embrace, and the actress who already saw in her mind's eye the vast vague dark audience and heard the shouts of applause as she stepped on to the stage. When, a little later, they lay side by si-de, he with his arm round her neck, she forgot about him so comple-tely that she was quite surprised when he broke a long silence.

 

"Don't you care for me any more?" She gave him a little hug.

 

"Of course, darling. I dote on you." "You're so strange today."

 

She realized that he was disappointed. Poor little thing, she didn't want to hurt his feelings. He was very sweet really.

 

"With the first night before me I'm not really myself today. You mustn't mind."

 

When she came to the conclusion, quite definitely now, that she no longer cared two straws for him she could not help feeling a gre-at pity for him. She stroked his cheek gently.

 

"Sweetie pie. (I wonder if Michael remembered to have tea sent along to the queues. It doesn't cost much and they do appreciate it so enormously.) You know, I really must get up. Miss Phillips is co-ming at six. Evie will be in a state, she won't be able to think what's happened to me."

 

She chattered brightly while she dressed. She was conscious, alt-hough she did not look at him, that Tom was vaguely uneasy. She put her hat on, then she took his face in both her hands and gave him a friendly kiss.

 

"Good-bye, my lamb. Have a good time tonight." "Best of luck."

 

He smiled with some awkwardness. She perceived that he did not quite know what to make of her. Julia slipped out of the flat, and if she had not been England's leading actress, and a woman of hard on fifty, she would have hopped on one leg all the way down Stan-hope Place till she got to her house. She was as pleased as punch. She let herself in with her latchkey* and closed the front door be-hind her.

 

"I dare say there's something in what Roger said. Love isn't worth all the fuss they make about it."

 

 

FOUR hours later it was all over. The play went well from the be-ginning; the audience, notwithstanding the season, a fashionable


one, were pleased after the holidays to find themselves once more in a playhouse, and were ready to be amused. It was an auspicious beginning for the theatrical season. There had been great applause after each act and at the end a dozen curtain calls; Julia took two by herself, and even she was startled by the warmth of her reception. She had made the little halting speech, prepared beforehand, which the occasion demanded. There had been a final call of the entire company and then the orchestra had struck up the National Anthem. Julia, pleased, excited and happy, went to her dressing-room. She had never felt more sure of herself. She had never acted with gre-ater brilliance, variety and resource. The play ended with a long tira-de in which Julia, as the retired harlot, castigated the flippancy, the uselessness, the immorality of the idle set into which her marriage had brought her. It was two pages long, and there was not another actress in England who could have held the attention of the audien-ce while she delivered it. With her exquisite timing, with the modula-tion of her beautiful voice, with her command of the gamut of emoti-ons, she had succeeded by a miracle of technique in making it a thrilling, almost spectacular climax to the play. A violent action co-uld not have been more exciting nor an unexpected denouement* more surprising. The whole cast had been excellent with the excep-tion of Avice Crichton. Julia hummed in an undertone as she went in-to her dressing-room.

 

 

Michael followed her in almost at once.

 

"It looks like a winner all right." He threw his arms round her and kissed her. "By God, what a performance you gave."

 

"You weren't so bad yourself, dear."

 

"That's the sort of part I can play on my head," he answered care-lessly, modest as usual about his own acting. "Did you hear them during your long speech? That ought to knock the critics."

 

"Oh, you know what they are. They'll give all their attention to the blasted play and then three lines at the end to me."

 

"You're the greatest actress in the world, darling, but by God, you're a bitch."

 

Julia opened her eyes very wide in an expression of the most na-ive surprise.

 

"Michael, what do you mean?"

 

"Don't look so innocent. You know perfectly well. Do you think you can cod an old trooper like me?"

 

He was looking at her with twinkling eyes, and it was very difficult for her not to burst out laughing.

 

"I am as innocent as a babe unborn."

 

"Come off it. If anyone ever deliberately killed a performance you killed Avice's. I couldn't be angry with you, it was so beautifully do-ne."

 

Now Julia simply could not conceal the little smile that curled her


lips. Praise is always grateful to the artist. Avice's one big scene was in the second act. It was with Julia, and Michael had rehearsed it so as to give it all to the girl. This was indeed what the play demanded and Julia, as always, had in rehearsals accepted his direction. To bring out the colour of her blue eyes and to emphasize her fair hair they had dressed Avice in pale blue. To contrast with this Julia had chosen a dress of an agreeable yellow. This she had worn at the dress rehearsal. But she had ordered another dress at the same ti-me, of sparkling silver, and to the surprise of Michael and the cons-ternation of Avice it was in this that she made her entrance in the second act. Its brilliance, the way it took the light, attracted the at-tention of the audience. Avice's blue looked drab by comparison. When they reached the important scene they were to have together Julia produced, as a conjurer produces a rabbit from his hat, a large handkerchief of scarlet chiffon and with this she played. She waved it, she spread it out as though to look at it, she screwed it up, she wiped her brow with it, she delicately blew her nose. The audience fascinated could not take their eyes away from the red rag. And she moved up stage so that Avice to speak to her had to turn her back on the audience, and when they were sitting on a sofa together she took her hand, in an impulsive way that seemed to the public exqu-isitely natural, and sitting well back herself forced Avice to turn her profile to the house. Julia had noticed early in rehearsals that in pro-file Avice had a sheep-like look. The author had given Avice lines to say that had so much amused the cast at the first rehearsal that they had all burst out laughing. Before the audience had quite reali-zed how funny they were Julia had cut in with her reply, and the audience anxious to hear it suppressed their laughter. The scene which was devised to be extremely amusing took on a sardonic colo-ur, and the character Avice played acquired a certain odiousness. Avice in her inexperience, not getting the laughs she had expected, was rattled; her voice grew hard and her gestures awkward. Julia to-ok the scene away from her and played it with miraculous virtuosity. But her final stroke was accidental. Avice had a long speech to deli-ver, and Julia nervously screwed her red handkerchief into a ball; the action almost automatically suggested an expression; she lo-oked at Avice with troubled eyes and two heavy tears rolled down her cheeks. You felt the shame with which the girl's flippancy affec-ted her, and you saw her pain because her poor little ideals of up-rightness, her hankering for goodness, were so brutally mocked. The episode lasted no more than a minute, but in that minute, by those tears and by the anguish of her look, Julia laid bare the sordid mi-sery of the woman's life. That was the end of Avice.

 

 

"And I was such a damned fool, I thought of giving her a cont-ract," said Michael.

 

"Why don't you?"


"When you've got your knife into her? Not on your life. You're a naughty little thing to be so jealous. You don't really think she me-ans anything to me, do you? You ought to know by now that you're the only woman in the world for me."

 

Michael thought that Julia had played this trick on account of the rather violent flirtation he had been having with Avice, and though, of course, it was hard luck on Avice he could not help being a trifle flattered.

 

"You old donkey," smiled Julia, knowing exactly what he was thin-king and tickled to death at his mistake. "After all, you are the hand-somest man in London."

 

"All that's as it may be. But I don't know what the author'll say. He's a conceited little ape and it's not a bit the scene he wrote."

 

"Oh, leave him to me. I'll fix him."

 

There was a knock at the door and it was the author himself who came in. With a cry of delight, Julia went up to him, threw her arms round his neck and kissed him on both cheeks.

 

"Are you pleased?"

 

" It looks like a success," he answered, but a trifle coldly.

 

"My dear, it'll run for a year." She placed her hands on his shoul-ders and looked him full in the face. "But you're a wicked, wicked man."

 

"I?"

 

"You almost ruined my performance. When I came to that bit in the second act and suddenly saw what it meant I nearly broke down. You knew what was in that scene, you're the author; why did you let us rehearse it all the time as if there was no more in it than appe-ared on the surface? We're only actors, how can you expect us to - to fathom your subtlety? It's the best scene in your play and I almost bungled it. No one in the world could have written it but you. Your play's brilliant, but in that scene there's more than brilliance, there's genius."

 

The author flushed. Julia looked at him with veneration. He felt shy and happy and proud.

 

("In twenty-four hours the mug'll think he really meant the scene to go like that.")

 

Michael beamed.

 

"Come along to my dressing-room and have a whisky and soda. I'm sure you need a drink after all that emotion."

 

They went out as Tom came in. Tom's face was red with excite-ment.

 

"My dear, it was grand. You were simply wonderful. Gosh, what a performance."

 

"Did you like it? Avice was good, wasn't she?" "No, rotten."

 

"My dear, what do you mean? I thought she was charming."


"You simply wiped the floor with her. She didn't even look pretty in the second act."

 

Avice's career!

 

"I say, what are you doing afterwards?" "Dolly's giving a party for us."

 

"Can't you cut it and come along to supper with me? I'm madly in love with you."

 

"Oh, what nonsense. How can I let Dolly down?" "Oh, do."

 

His eyes were eager. She could see that he desired her as he had never done before, and she rejoiced in her triumph. But she shook her head firmly. There was a sound in the corridor of a crowd of pe-ople talking, and they both knew that a troop of friends were forcing their way down the narrow passage to congratulate her.

 

"Damn all these people. God, how I want to kiss you. I'll ring you up in the morning."

 

The door burst open and Dolly, fat, perspiring and bubbling over with enthusiasm, swept in at the head of a throng that packed the dressing-room to suffocation. Julia submitted to being kissed by all and sundry. Among others were three or four well-known actresses, and they were prodigal of their praise. Julia gave a beautiful perfor-mance of unaffected modesty. The corridor was packed now with people who wanted to get at least a glimpse of her. Dolly had to fight her way out.

 

"Try not to be too late," she said to Julia. "It's going to be a he-avenly party."

 

"I'll come as soon as ever I can."

 

At last the crowd was got rid of and Julia, having undressed, be-gan to take off her make-up. Michael came in, wearing a dressing-gown.

 

"I say, Julia, you'll have to go to Dolly's party by yourself. I've got to see the libraries and I can't manage it. I'm going to sting them."

 

"Oh, all right."

 

"They're waiting for me now. See you in the morning."

 

He went out and she was left alone with Evie. The dress she had arranged to wear for Dolly's party was placed over a chair. Julia smeared her face with cleansing cream.

 

"Evie, Mr. Fennel will be ringing up tomorrow. Will you say I'm out?"

 

Evie looked in the mirror and caught Julia's eyes. "And if he rings up again?"

 

"I don't want to hurt his feelings, poor lamb, but I have a notion I shall be very much engaged for some time now."

 

Evie sniffed loudly, and with that rather disgusting habit of hers drew her forefinger across the bottom of her nose.

 

"I understand," she said dryly.


"I always said you weren't such a fool as you looked." Julia went on with her face. "What's that dress doing on that chair?"

 

"That? That's the dress you said you'd wear for the party." "Put it away. I can't go to the party without Mr. Gosselyn." "Since when?"

 

"Shut up, you old hag. Phone through and say that I've got a bad headache and had to go home to bed, but Mr. Gosselyn will come if he possibly can."

 

"The party's being given special for you. You can't let the poor old gal down like that?"

 

Julia stamped her feet.

 

"I don't want to go to a party. I won't go to a party." "There's nothing for you to eat at home."

 

"I don't want to go home. I'll go and have supper at a restaurant." "Who with?"

 

"By myself."

 

Evie gave her a puzzled glance. "The play's a success, isn't it?"

 

"Yes. Everything's a success. I feel on the top of the world. I feel like a million dollars. I want to be alone and enjoy myself. Ring up the Berkeley and tell them to keep a table for one in the little room. They'll know what I mean."

 

"What's the matter with you?"

 

"I shall never in all my life have another moment like this. I'm not going to share it with anyone."

 

When Julia had got her face clean she left it. She neither painted her lips nor rouged her cheeks. She put on again the brown coat and skirt in which she had come to the theatre and the same hat. It was a felt hat with a brim, and this she pulled down over one eye so that it should hide as much of her face as possible. When she was ready she looked at herself in the glass.

 

"I look like a working dressmaker whose husband's left her, and who can blame him? I don't believe a soul would recognize me."

 

Evie had had the telephoning done from the stage-door, and when she came back Julia asked her if there were many people wa-iting for her there.

 

"About three 'undred I should say."

 

"Damn." She had a sudden desire to see nobody and be seen by nobody. She wanted just for one hour to be obscure. "Tell the fire-man to let me out at the front and I'll take a taxi, and then as soon as I've got out let the crowd know there's no use in their waiting."

 

"God only knows what I 'ave to put up with," said Evie darkly. "You old cow."

 

Julia took Evie's face in her hands and kissed her raddled cheeks; then slipped out of her dressing-room, on to the stage and through the iron door into the darkened auditorium.


Julia's simple disguise was evidently adequate, for when she ca-me into the little room at the Berkeley of which she was peculiarly fond, the head waiter did not immediately know her.

 

"Have you got a corner that you can squeeze me into?" she asked diffidently.

 

Her voice and a second glance told him who she was.

 

"Your favourite table is waiting for you, Miss Lambert. The messa-ge said you would be alone?" Julia nodded and he led her to a table in the corner of the room. "I hear you've had a big success tonight, Miss Lambert." How quickly good news travelled. "What can I or-der?"

 

The head waiter was surprised that Julia should be having supper by herself, but the only emotion that it was his business to show cli-ents was gratification at seeing them.

 

"I'm very tired, Angelo."

 

"A little caviare to begin with, madame, or some oysters?" "Oysters, Angelo, but fat ones." "I will choose them myself, Miss

 

Lambert, and to follow?"

 

Julia gave a long sigh, for now she could, with a free conscience, order what she had had in mind ever since the end of the second act. She felt she deserved a treat to celebrate her triumph, and for once she meant to throw prudence to the winds.

 

"Grilled steak and onions, Angelo, fried potatoes, and a bottle of Bass. Give it me in a silver tankard."

 

She probably hadn't eaten fried potatoes for ten years. But what an occasion it was! By a happy chance on this day she had confir-med her hold on the public by a performance that she could only describe as scintillating, she had settled an old score, by one ingeni-ous device disposing of Avice and making Tom see what a fool he had been, and best of all had proved to herself beyond all question that she was free from the irksome bonds that had oppressed her. Her thought flickered for an instant round Avice.

 

"Silly little thing to try to put a spoke in my wheel.* I'll let her ha-ve her laughs tomorrow."

 

The oysters came and she ate them with enjoyment. She ate two pieces of brown bread and butter with the delicious sense of imperil-ling her immortal soul, and she took a long drink from the silver tan-kard.

 

"Beer, glorious beer," she murmured.

 

She could see Michael's long face if he knew what she was doing. Poor Michael who imagined she had killed Avice's scene because she thought he was too attentive to that foolish little blonde. Really, it was pitiful how stupid men were. They said women were vain, they were modest violets in comparison with men. She could not but laugh when she thought of Tom. He had wanted her that afternoon,


he had wanted her still more that night. It was wonderful to think that he meant no more to her than a stage-hand.* It gave one a grand feeling of confidence to be heart-whole.

 

The room in which she sat was connected by three archways with the big dining-room where they supped and danced; amid the crowd doubtless were a certain number who had been to the play. How surprised they would be if they knew that the quiet little woman in the corner of the adjoining room, her face half hidden by a felt hat, was Julia Lambert. It gave her a pleasant sense of independence to sit there unknown and unnoticed. They were acting a play for her and she was the audience. She caught brief glimpses of them as they passed the archway, young men and young women, young men and women not so young, men with bald heads and men with fat bellies, old harridans* clinging desperately to their painted semb-lance of youth. Some were in love, and some were jealous, and so-me were indifferent.

 

Her steak arrived. It was cooked exactly as she liked it, and the onions were crisp and brown. She ate the fried potatoes delicately, with her fingers, savouring each one as though it were the passing moment that she would bid delay.

 

"What is love beside steak and onions?" she asked. It was enc-hanting to be alone and allow her mind to wander. She thought once more of Tom and spiritually shrugged a humorous shoulder. "It was an amusing experience."

 

It would certainly be useful to her one of these days. The sight of the dancers seen through the archway was so much like a scene in a play that she was reminded of a notion that she had first had in St. Malo. The agony that she had suffered when Tom deserted her re-called to her memory Racine's Phedre which she had studied as a girl with old Jane Taitbout. She read the play again. The torments that afflicted Theseus' queen were the torments that afflicted her, and she could not but think that there was a striking similarity in their situations. That was a part she could act; she knew what it felt like to be turned down by a young man one had a fancy for. Gosh, what a performance she could give! She knew why in the spring she had acted so badly that Michael had preferred to close down; it was because she was feeling the emotions she portrayed. That was no good. You had to have had the emotions, but you could only play them when you had got over them. She remembered that Charles had once said to her that the origin of poetry was emotion recollec-ted in tranquillity. She didn't know anything about poetry, but it was certainly true about acting.

 

"Clever of poor old Charles to get hold of an original idea like that. It shows how wrong it is to judge people hastily. One thinks the aris-tocracy are a bunch of nitwits, and then one of them suddenly co-mes out with something like that that's so damned good it takes yo-


ur breath away."

 

But Julia had always felt that Racine had made a great mistake in not bringing on his heroine till the third act.

 

"Of course I wouldn't have any nonsense like that if I played it. Half an act to prepare my entrance if you like, but that's ample."

 

There was no reason why she should not get some dramatist to write her a play on the subject, either in prose or in short lines of verse with rhymes at not too frequent intervals. She could manage that, and effectively. It was a good idea, there was no doubt about it, and she knew the clothes she would wear, not those flowing dra-peries in which Sarah swathed herself, but the short Greek tunic that she had seen on a bas-relief when she went to the British Muse-um with Charles.

 

"How funny things are! You go to those museums and galleries and think what a damned bore they are and then, when you least expect it, you find that something you've seen comes in useful. It shows art and all that isn't really waste of time."

 

Of course she had the legs for a tunic, but could one be tragic in one? This she thought about seriously for two or three minutes. When she was eating out her heart for the indifferent Hippolytus (and she giggled when she thought of Tom, in his Savile Row clot-hes, masquerading as a young Greek hunter) could she really get her effects without abundant draperies? The difficulty excited her. But then a thought crossed her mind that for a moment dashed her spirits.

 

"It's all very well, but where are the dramatists? Sarah had her Sardou, Duse her D' Annunzio. But who have I got? 'The Queen of Scots hath a bonnie bairn* and I am but a barren stock.'"

 

She did not, however, let this melancholy reflection disturb her serenity for long. Her elation was indeed such that she felt capable of creating dramatists from the vast inane as Deucalion created men from the stones of the field.

 

"What nonsense that was that Roger talked the other day, and poor Charles, who seemed to take it seriously. He's a silly little prig, that's all." She indicated a gesture towards the dance room. The lights had been lowered, and from where she sat it looked more than ever like a scene in a play." 'All the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players.' But there's the illusion, through that archway; it's we, the actors, who are the reality. That's the ans-wer to Roger. They are our raw material. We are the meaning of the-ir lives. We take their silly little emotions and turn them into art, out of them we create beauty, and their significance is that they form the audience we must have to fulfil ourselves. They are the instru-ments on which we play, and what is an instrument without some-body to play on it?"

 

The notion exhilarated her, and for a moment or two she savo-


Дата добавления: 2015-11-04; просмотров: 50 | Нарушение авторских прав


<== предыдущая страница | следующая страница ==>
16 страница| 18 страница

mybiblioteka.su - 2015-2024 год. (0.043 сек.)