In the Name of Allah the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

My Dear, I know you'll read this one day. I met your new boyfriend. He seems to be a very nice guy.

Huh! I knew when you started fishing. And I was sure that you'll find good guy, because no one can stand in front of your beauty.

I saw ups and down in my life, from my early life i decided that I'll never love someone. I was almost same like other khans four years back. Like most khan’s and pashtons I was man of proud, dignity and honor and manners. But four years back my life changed to be a simple man. Because proud, dignity and honor is good only in the battle field, it is not good in relations, it destroy relations.

I was happy and successful, and I was at very low distance from to be settled. After the month I finished fasting accidentally we met. Although I decided from the beginning that I'll never love someone. You are too much attractive, when I saw you for the first time everything changed completely in my life.

And my heart said something like that “God is great who made such wonder of beauty. You are the most charming and beautiful girl in the universe. Your eyes kill people, on your smile people die. Your voice increase heartbeat, especially when you speak in your own language. I wish if I could take the dust of your footprints and keep it near to my heart, eyes and lips. You are princess of my heart. You are angel from havens. These two moments I spent with you are far more precious and valuable than my whole life.”

Despite I'm stable to my decisions and thoughts,

I was not able to stay on my old thoughts anymore in front of your beauty. It was strange feeling inside me. For some time I was thinking that you were sent to me by God, because how come suddenly everything changed in my life.

After few meetings when you said that “ main tum se pyar karte hon ”, I was thinking of myself that I’m superior, strong, successful and lucky man on the earth. There was strange kind of energy inside me. When you said you must complete your study task tonight, in spite of I was very tired I completed my study task. And I was happy and satisfied thinking that finally I’ve someone in my life that cares for me. My heart said she is my girl. Love in my heart for you was increasing day by day. I was thinking in my heart that I’ll give all happiness of the world to my beloved even if I die for it. And I was busy in thinking and planning for the best life of both of us. I told my father and mother that I’ve found my life partner. They were very happy.

Life was smooth, gradually you started ignoring me. I tried to know the reason but you gave me different excuses each time. Your words were not supporting your excuses neither your excuses were justifying ignoring me. I decided then whatever it is, it doesn’t matter, for me only it matters that I love you. Whatever you do I’ll always forgive you. And so always I said sorry instead of you should have said after keeping me waiting long nights. Time was running in days and nights, one day you ignored to pick-up my phone, I tried to send you SMS many times but failed. Later I came to know that my SMS was blocked on your cell phone. It did hurt me a lot, but again I said sorry as usual. One day I posted on your wall and you deleted it immediately, Somehow I found that you are fishing. It broke me, I did not know what to do. After few days I said to myself, always hope for the best. And I decided to give you one more chance, and I did so but no luck. This time you clearly ignored me.. After sometime it came to my knowledge that you are in love with someone else.

Oh, God knows what I was feeling that day. It deeply hurt me, I gone into severe pain, I was completely broken. The world was too small for me, I was feeling that I’m the weakest person of this world. I gone crazy. I cried blood tears that day, My shirt was wet due to my tears. No one can understand this pain if you want someone from your heart and she leaves you so easily without reason. If you were interested in someone else at least there is a way for formal breakup. But you did not care for that. (“ I’ll educate coming generation that never ever fell in love. Before love everything will be normal in your life, and you’ll be able to marry any good girl. But after fallen in love if the girl is sincere with you. You are the most successful man. But if the girl is not sincere then your life is destroyed. Your heart will not accept other girl and you will be not able to forget the one you loved.”)

Life is very difficult, every day when I’m alone I cry. In the office when I get free for a little while I go to washroom for cleaning my eyes from tears. My world is completely ruined. I blame no one for this. I still feel good when I remember the few happy memories with you, and I’m very thankful to you for that. I like your new boyfriend because you love him. I love everything associated with you. The world is small place may be one day we’ll meet some where some place. I love you and I’ll love you forever. Whenever in whatever situation you’ll need me I’ll be right there for you, no matter what if it cost my life I’ll be happy.

I wish you to be happy and successful where ever you live. Enjoy your life with your new friend. Never cheat on him, because he is also a human being, and it hurts when someone you love cheat on you. Take care

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