But I couldn't care less what he thought, at the moment finding Eva is all I care about. I tried phoning her again and again, through to voice mail each time, in desperation leaving a message
" I fucked up again. Don't break up with me. Talk to me. plz."
Outside it is nearly dark, the street is streaming with people, vendors, foodcarts and people just out for a good time.My eyes are frantically searching for her golden halo of hair. I am powered by a chaotic mix of self anger and remorse for my callous, unfeeling behaviour.What is she thinking at this moment in time? I ask myself.She has to think she is just another notch on the bedpost..
My cell is cemented to my hand, again and again pressing redial, "Hello." A tearful quiet voice whispers.
" Eva! Thank God. Where are you? "
" I don't know. I ….. I'm.. sorry Gideon. "
She sounds lost, bewildered.
" No Eva. Don't blame yourself, it was me, my fault. I need to find you. Where are you? "
I knew which direction she'd taken from the hotel and with a little more coaxing I managed to find her at an Italian restaurant. I froze, she was sat hunched over at the back of the dining area, she looked so small, so vulnerable..
I didn't like seeing her this way, hurt and confused.Striding purposely forward ignoring the waiter, I hauled Eva against me,trying to comfort her, silently begging for her forgiveness. Guilt throbbed away at the centre of my heart.
" God. Eva. " Burying my face in her neck.
She must of felt my anguish, hugging me back, whispering " I'm sorry … I'm being stupid. "
" No Eva. If you had taken me to a place you reserved for fucking other men, I would of lost it. "
Our surroundings began to filter through my mind, there were several others dining at the tables.
" I can't be here, not in public at this moment. Come home with me? "
She hesitantly looked at me.
" It won't be like the hotel. I promise. my mother and housekeeper are the only women who have been there. "
The waiter arrived with a menu. " That won't be necessary, we're leaving.. "
My home is a penthouse apartment on 5th ave. It was on my list of priorities to purchase when fortune permitted.
As a child I'd lived in a similar apartment with my parents up until I was 5. Then the disaster of my fathers business dealings and his subsequent suicide had left us penniless. My mother soon rectified this by remarrying. However, the only happy memories from childhood are from my formative years. Hence my desire to live here.
My home has always been my inner sanctum. Here, I am free to be myself, not Gideon Cross billionaire, just Gideon the man.
Few have been here,never women (my mother and housekeeper don't count), not even Corrine. It never felt right. No one connected enough emotionally, for me to give them this extra insight to who I am.
Yet Eva is unique,so unlike my previous liaisons. Different not only in appearance, but in temperament too. She is fiery, independent yet needy and emotionally insecure.
For once I wanted to connect physically and emotionally with this woman. I wanted her to see me, all of me, my life, my home. She is a new start for me.
Saying all that though, I'm nervous, I'm entering into unknown, uncharted territory. A person's home reveals a lot about oneself, showing any weakness. Vulnerability isn't a sensation, since being an adult, I am accustomed to. My unease, probably shows through.
Eva is so sweet when we arrive (More than I deserve considering what's happened.) She obviously can feel my tension.
Tugging her into the apartment " Come in. I want you to sleep here tonight. "
And I did need her, both of us needed to reassure each other. I also wanted the opportunity to tell her how much she meant to me... Plus reassurance that my monumental cock up hadn't ruined our relationship.
" I don't have any clothes or stuff. "
" We can pick up anything you need. " Pulling her close, explaining how I didn't blame her for leaving the hotel, but she had scared the shit out of me, and I needed to hang on to her for a while ….
She seemed to like that, though protested she needed a shower. She smelt of me and sex. I liked that..I liked my scent all over her. it reminded me of what we'd done. And she was mine …..
I took Eva through to my bedroom, pulling towels from a drawer for her to use. As I handed them to her she looked up at me shyly
" Thank you. " She muttered.
I knew she wasn't thanking me for the towels, she seemed to understand I was revealing a part of me that I had never shown to another woman.
" It feels good to have you here. " I meant what I said, it felt right, comfortable, natural.
Leaving Eva to shower, I went to prepare some caviar and crème fraiche on mini toast.
Joining me sometime later wearing a tee shirt I'd left out for her to wear. We sat and watched old re runs on t.v., it was nice, just lounging enjoying each others company, snuggled together on the sofa.
At 10.30 we crawled into bed, me spooning Eva, her back to my front. The warmth and close proximity of her body had me hard in seconds, desperate as I was to make love I held back trying to make amends for earlier. Slowly we drifted asleep ….
* Thank you 1962. Took the idea from your review!
All rights belong to Sylvia Day.. just borrowing characters and having fun..
Chapter 17
A bleak darkness seeps into my mind, I am entering a world where there is no hope, just darkness and pain.
An evil shadow approaches. I am helpless, there is no one to come to my aid.
I know what is going to happen next, writhing I try to escape, it is pointless …. Angered by my own helplessness ….
" No … no! " Shifting quickly, lashing out, " Christ it hurts…..! Crying out angry words ….
A soft voice echoing on the periphery ….. Good, loving.., caring ….. Stilling, I desperately search for the source.
"Gideon you're dreaming. Come back to me " Her voice is a small echo penetrating the outer edges of the darkness.
" Eva…? "
Still tensed, desperately waiting for her to ward of this grasping darkness.
" I'm here, are you awake? " Her voice floats ethereally by.
The warmth of a naked body presses into my side, a gently caress down my arm. " Gideon? "
Gasping awake. " What? what is it? "
" What the ….? " Eva sat staring at me.
" What's wrong? You okay? " I said hoarsely. I felt disorientated, tendrils of darkness lingering, clinging to my mind.
Wrapping her arms around me I surrender to her my body drowning in her warm embrace. Burying my nose in her neck to smell her beautiful scent.
" I want you. " She whispered, stretching out aligning her body against mine, pressing her face into my neck softly kissing and sucking my throat. Automatically wrapping my arms around her, running my fingers up and down her body, gradually soaking in her warmth.
Vestiges of the darkness disappeared leaving no memory of the darkness with in.
Eva climbed slowly over, laying on top of me. Sealing her lips over mine.Rocking her body over my erection again and again… ….. Grasping her hair, holding her face tightly to mine as tongues and teeth clashed …
Up and down, up and down, she stroked using me to masturbate.
It sent a shock of desire through my body, groaning loudly, rolling Eva over, so she was beneath me, pushing her legs apart with my knees.
" I don't have any condoms in the house. " I murmur, whilst sucking her nipples.
" I know you mentioned bills of health and it's the responsible wa… "
" Shh, I trust you. " Pushing the head of my cock slowly inside her. The sensation was fantastic, so much more sensitive when not using a condom.
" Eva, " I sighed, holding her tightly. " I never …Christ you feel so good. I'm glad your here. "
Our love making was slow and soooo good, both of us finding our releases together, then laying forehead to forehead for several minutes. After a while I heard a gently snooze, Eva had fallen asleep with me still inside her. Slowly, so not to wake her I gently pulled out, moving to the side. Shame really, I was already rock hard again, better let her sleep though, we had work tomorrow.. Spooning her I drifted off into a dreamless slumber.
I awoke feeling refreshed and incredibly horny. My dick is rock hard pushing into Eva's hip. She's still asleep, though she looks so desirable, I can't help myself. Keeping my weight on my arms and feet, I climb on top and slowly push my cock inside her. She feels tight yet soft and warm, the sensation is pure pleasure.
Her eyes blink open, desire quickly replacing surprise.
" I hope you don't mind, I couldn't resist. " I murmur.
" Umm, " she sighs, arching her breasts into my chest. " I could get use to this. "
" That was my thought at 3 o'clock this morning. " I grinned," I thought I'd return the favour. " Sinking deeper and thrusting harder into her.
Eva responded by lifting her hips to meet my thrusts.
All in all it is a fabulous way to start a morning …..
CHAPTER 18
Arriving at Eva's apartment she went to change, while I made the coffee. Eva has her idiosyncrasies, her coffee for instance, heavy on cream and sweetner. Most girls shied away from this,for Eva to keep her figure she either works out a lot, or has a fast metabolism.
I love the normality of being with her, doing ordinary things. This is all new to me, I want to spend more and more of my time with her. I sigh thinking of this evening, a business dinner which will take me away from Eva.
" I have a business dinner tonight, I was hoping you'd come with me, and make it bearable? "
She smiles apologetically, " sorry, chicks before dicks and all that."
I cage her in against the breakfast bar,feeling like a hunter who has been denied his quarry. There is no way I am not going to see her tonight. Taylor is her close friend though, so I suppose I'm going to have to make allowances.
" Cary isn't a chick, but I get it. Could I come over after dinner and stay the night? "
Smoothing her hands over my vest, her eyes darkening " I'd love it, if you did. " She huskily replied.
" Good. " Because baby, I wouldn't have accepted no as an answer ….
…
I really do think Eva is trying to kill me. The sexual tension between us is always high. We only have to be in one another's presence, it takes one look, one touch and we're ready to rip each others clothes off.
Maintaining a normal, indifferent or even passive attitude isn't easy, when your girlfriend insists on wearing short skirts with incredibly high heels. To add insult to injury she has on luxurious black silk stockings. Once we're in the limo she lifts her skirt to reveal lace top stockings attached to a lacy garter belt.
" You like? " She cheekily enquires.
I mean come on! What guy could resist …
" I'm hard, " having to adjust myself. " How the hell am I going to get through the day knowing your dressed like that? "
" There's always lunch? " she teased.
Jeez, she's hyping it up further..
Groaning. " I have a business lunch, I'd reschedule if I hadn't moved it already yesterday. "
She seems pleased that I had altered my itinerary to be able to see her.
Intuitively I lean over brushing my fingers over her cheek. Leaning into my hand she mutters " can't you carve fifteen minutes out of your day to see me? "
For you anything. " I'll manage it. "
Taking a deep breath Eva delves into her bag, looking up nervously. " I have something … a gift … not really a gift … I'm already thinking it's not appropriate …. " She hesitates looking nervous, unsure.
" What's wrong? " I frown, unable to understand the sudden change in her attitude.
" Nothing it's just... "
Why is she so embarrassed? " Give it to me. "
" You can totally decide not to take it … "
" Shut up Eva. Just give it to me. " I totally intrigued now.
She pulls out a photo frame, it has a digital clock set at 3 am, with die cut images of Eva posing happy, tanned and blowing kisses.
I am blown away by her kindness, the gift it's self monetarily is nothing, though the feelings behind it are priceless. She is letting me know she'd been there for me when I'd needed her, helping me to cope.
" Like I'd said you don't need to keep it …... "
" I …. " I cleared my throat feeling slightly overwhelmed by the pure simplicity of her loving gift. " Thank you, Eva. "
The car pulled up outside the Crossfire building, Eva shot out,
" I can hang onto it until later, if you want. "
Shaking my head," it's mine. You're not taking it back. "
Clasping her hand in mine we walked into the building. The precious photo frame tucked safely under my arm.
…..
The business day begins with the normal briefings and updates. I'd placed Eva's photo frame on my desk, so I can glance over now and then and see her cheeky smile.
Around 10.30 Scott informs me my P.R guy Jonas wants to see me immediately.
Jonas has worked for me for several years, he is a competent,hardworking employee, dealing with the press in a calm professional manner.
" Mr. Cross, we're being inundated with calls regarding the photo of you kissing a woman in the street last night. "
He'd fetched his laptop with him, and shows me the glossip blog.
Most of the captions were intrigued as to the identity of the woman.
It really is a good photo, the photographer really captures the passion between us. I hope he got well paid for it..!
Hmm…. I want this picture … Eva looks so..
" Mr Cross? "
Narrowing my eyes I pull myself out of my reverie. " Yes? "
" How do you want to run this? sir."
I could tell he thought I was displeased. No doubt he would've liked to give me a lecture on ' not kissing woman in public ', If I wished to keep my personal life private. He didn't dare though, but I'm sure it crossed his mind!
" Keep it low key. " I ordered " You know, no direct or official comments, everything from unnamed sources. "
" What about the lady? sir, "
" Her name is Eva Tramell, daughter of Richard and Monica Stanton."
Jonas nods his head several times absorbing my words " And your relationship? sir. "
Their nosy bastards the press, but their gonna find out sooner rather than later, so we might as well have some control over the coverage.
" She's my girlfriend at present if that's what your enquiring about and no, I've no problem releasing that information, but remember no direct quotes. "
I'd no need to explain to Jonas why, if my team gave a direct quote now, any future press enquiries would expect quotes each time. Best to have official ' no comments ' and just leak what you want them to know through unofficial sources.
I sent him on his way, insisting that he got me a copy of the original photo from the photographer.
Once he'd left I sat back pleased with myself for engineering the publicity. In plain terms both Eva and I were no longer on the dating market. And I wanted every guy out there to know that. She is mine …..
… Yet another business lunch, meeting my associates in the Crossfire lobby. I catch sight of Eva rushing out of the elevator, she seems distracted, flustered even. She rushes forward and would have flew straight by if I hadn't moved over into her path.
" Eva." Turning her around to face me. I quickly introduce my lunch dates then excuse us and pull her off to the side.
" What's wrong? You're upset. "
" It's all over the place, a picture of us. "
Come on angel it's a lovely picture, don't be upset.
" I know, " I nodded " I've seen it. "
She seems confused at my relaxed attitude " Come on baby, for once their reporting the truth, "
" Did you plan it? " She accuses.
" Not exactly no, I saw an opportunity and took it." Ok, so I'm stretching the truth a bit.. Eva needn't know.
" Look I saw the guy there, I just gave him a picture worth printing, then told P.R to make it clear who and what you are to me. "
" Why would you do that? "
Did she think I was planning on keeping her a secret. No way, I want everyone to know she is mine.
" You have your way of dealing with jealousy and I have mine. Now every one knows we're together and off the market. Why is that a problem for you? "
She still seems really upset, maybe I should of warned her.
" Eva? "
" I was just worried about your reaction, but there's more " She rushes on, her voice slightly shaking. " There are things you don't know … It can't be this way Gideon. We can't go public. I don't want … Damn it. I'll embarrass you."
I study her face intently, she really means what's she's saying. Brushing a loose lock of her golden hair off her face " You couldn't. It's not possible. Look can we speak later? If you need me … "
" No..no.. It's okay. "
Cary appeared " Everything okay? "
" Hi Cary, everything is fine, enjoy your lunch and don't worry."
Giving Eva's hand a gently squeeze before I leave to rejoin my lunch companions.
…
After lunch Scott managers to find a free slot in the afternoon for me to see Eva. I text her the time, informing Scott she has to be sent in immediately.
Five minutes before Eva is due I receive a call from one of my project managers in Arizona. We are building a huge complex there over several stages,this particular manager has just moved back to this project after spending time elsewhere. The crux of the matter is her immediate boss has been away for a week and several issues have arisen regarding out sourced contractors. Prior to her move away she had been in charge of the awarding of contracts, and the contracts her superior has are nothing like the ones she awarded before moving. She suspects fraud, backhanders in real terms,and is wanting advise on how to handle the situation.The fraud annoys me, no one rips me off and gets away with it.
Eva enters whilst I'm still speaking. As much as I appreciate this woman's diligence, she's a manager and should be able to handle this situation in the short term.
I hold a finger up to tell Eva I'll be one minute. She responded by blowing a big bubble with the gum she was chewing and popping it with her finger. Ahh she's in a naughty mood. I immediately press the privacy button.
Grinning she hops onto my desk,pouting prettily.
" Deal with it, I can't be out there till next week..,," …. " Stop I have some thing time sensitive on my desk, your keeping me away from it, and it's not improving my disposition. Do what needs to be done and report back tomorrow. "
" Eva….. " She removes her gum wrapping it in paper.
" Before you reprimand me Mr Cross, let me say I over reacted this morning, and I shouldn't have run yesterday at the hotel. however, even though I've been a naughty secretary, I think I should be given another chance."
My eyes narrowed as I studied her, assessing what her next move would be. " Did I ask for your opinion on the appropriate for yesterday miss Tramell? "
Hopping down from the desk smoothing her hand down my chest " Can't we work something out. I do possess a wide variety of skills " She purred.
I caught her by her hips pulling her to me, she boldly fondled my cock, stroking softly up and down. " My next meetings in 10 minutes. "
" If you think there's anyway I won't make you come, then think again. "
With this she unfastens my fly and lowers my zip.
I'm totally caught in her thrall. " Eva your unravelling me, do you know that? Are you doing it on purpose? "
Reaching inside my boxer briefs she wraps her hand around my dick, whilst lifting her face. She kisses me all demand and sex. It was a kiss straight from my erotic fantasies.
" I want you. " I growled.
Sinking to the floor pulling my boxers down " Eva what ar… "
She clasped my cock with both hands and was running the tip of her tongue over the wide crown. The sensation had me grasping for the desk,as she gently started to suck.My whole body shuddered and as she ran her tongue on the underside of the crown there was a hot burst of pre cum,making me shiver all over. I loved watching her head bob up and down. Gently touching her cheek." Lick it. " I ordered. The sensation is indescribable. "God, Eva your mouth, keep sucking. Like that hard and deep."
Aroused by my commands she fisted me harder sucking deeper. Pushing my hands in her hair gently holding her face to my groin. The harder and deeper she went the more I wanted to thrust, grasping her hair harder almost pulling it, I thrust my cock into her mouth, me fucking her mouth now rather than her sucking me. I pounded my cock into her mouth while she swirled her tongue around it's tip " Ah Eva. " I cried as I climaxed. tightening my grip on her hair even more, as my throbbing cock hit the back of her mouth pumping every last bit of semen down her throat. She licked me clean,then slowly rose softly kissing my mouth. My cock was still pretty hard, certainly up to fucking her. But we were out of time, I felt bad about this. Eva had said she needed an equal exchange, I didn't want her to think I was using her.
" I have to go." She murmurs. " Have a good day and evening tonight. "
" Eva …! " I feel frustrated." Damn it wait. "
Restoring my appearance, I tug her closer pushing my hands through her hair trying to tidy the strands I've displaced earlier. " I didn't get you off. I know you need an equal exchange. "
Cupping my face with her hands " You did use me, but with my permission,anyway I wanted you to have this memory of me."
Alarm flashed through my mind, my chest hurt immediately.
" Why the hell do I need a memory when I have you? " I shook my head gathering my thoughts " Eva if this is about earlier … the photo's.."
" Shh, shut up and enjoy the high. If we had an hour I still wouldn't let you get me off. I'm not keeping score ace. You're the first guy I've said that to. I have to go. "
She smiled up at me." It's okay Gideon. You're coming over tonight right? "
" You couldn't keep me away.. "
" We'll talk then." ….
I watched her leave, feeling somewhat reassured by her parting words, something was bothering her though. I couldn't imagine anything she said would deter me though, I mean how on earth could she embarrass me (Thinking of her earlier words in the lobby.) Whatever it is, we'll deal with it, cause I'm not letting go..
CHAPTER 19
After Eva left I contacted Angus asking him to collect Eva from work and take her home. I didn't want her exposed to unwanted exposure from the paparazzi, it wasn't going to take them long to ascertain where she worked. Now our relationship was out in the open Eva's security was going to need revising,it is something that I need to discuss with her.
My next appointment took my mind off Eva for a while, however once they'd left I found myself returning to our last conversation. ' Memories ' Why would I need memories of her?
She'd avoided answering me earlier.
In the lobby she'd been positive publicizing our relationship was a bad thing, embarrassing even. My curiosity was aroused, reaching for both Eva's and Cary's back ground checks I scanned through the details again. *
Hmm, nothing obvious, she'd had a few affairs whilst at college, only brief liaisons though. (I'd thump them if I ever met them.) Was there an unwanted pregnancy? or a child? No, somehow I don't think it's this, my team would of uncovered that..
Unusual, her moving to California, away from money and luxury.
She'd also seen a psychiatrist. Not that uncommon amongst rich kids of today, except this guy wasn't a child psychiatrist, that wasn't his field … What then?
She'd met Taylor there. I knew from the background search I'd instigated on him that he'd had one hell of a fucked up childhood... The guy had sought help and that in it's self spoke volumes on his strength of character. His upbringing probably explains why he is so promiscuous, he possibly has abandonment issues..
Eva's behaviour is still a mystery.
The next sheet is Eva's credit card details relaying all transactions for the last six months. From this I could ascertain what make of shampoo she uses to her bra size.
No, the information I require isn't here, or if it is it's buried deep.
I could instigate a more in depth investigation,this would take time, and I knew she found it difficult to cope with my incessant need for information and control. She'd freaked at the nightclub when she'd found out I had accessed information from her credit card. In fact her words were ' why don't you just ask me Gideon? Is that so fucking hard for people nowadays.'
Okay, so that's what I would do, ask her … and if she prevaricated, I'd remind her of what she'd said in the nightclub... To be honest I still couldn't imagine anything would deter me from seeing Eva. I am intoxicated by her.
Seeing her credit card purchases has given me an idea. Eva has given me a gift, I'd like to give her something, I don't have to be at the dinner until 8 pm, that gives me two hours to shop...
I've chosen to shop at Saks flagship store on fifth avenue, it's a fabulous store and has an amazing selection of clothes, all the top designer brands. It is a spacious shop with marble floors giving a feel of luxury and comfort, typical Manhattan glamour.
The personal shopper assigned to me is a guy (gay of course) I take some of his advise though to be honest I want to select most of the items myself. He is incredibly helpful though in finding the items out that I require.
An hour and a half later, $30,000 lighter, after purchasing two evening dresses a dozen Carine Wilson lingerie sets and several silk stockings and garters, I make my way home, Angus gives me Eva's keys which she left with him earlier.
…
The dinner is the usual mixture of social niceties and good food, I'm here to discuss business though, the tempting thoughts of Eva waiting for me encourage ….. well let's put it like this, I don't prolong the talks, getting to the heart of the deal as quickly as is politely possible without upsetting my business associates. During these talks I catch a brief glimpse of Maggie sitting with another party at the back of the restaurant. I acknowledge her presence when she waves with a curt nod, I still haven't spoken to her about her conversation with Eva. I hadn't appreciated her interference upsetting Eva and I certainly wasn't keeping her on hold..
Once the deal has been agreed upon I make my apologies and leave. Outside there is a barrage of photographers shouting out questions regarding my relationship with Eva,fortunately my security detail keep them at a distance.
" Gideon. " Maggie has made her way outside,knowing she is a friend the security have allowed her access. " You haven't said hello. "
" Maggie. " My voice is curt.
" Ah …. Eva's told you what I said.. " She reply's sadly.
" Maggie … " Shaking my head, she seems so sad I decide to go easy on her, she's been a friend since childhood, I suppose we all make mistakes.
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