"You're so good at this, Gideon. So good…"
Gripping her butt, lifting her so as to rest on her shoulders I drive into her hard and deep hitting her back wall, forcing a gasp of pain/pleasure from her throat. She comes yet again. Her tiny muscles inside clenching down on my cock even harder.
"Ah, God. Eva." I detonate violently flooding her with semen, and then grind against her emptying myself as deeply as I can get.
Sucking in deep breaths desperate for air, I grasp her hair again.
"I wish you knew what you do to me. I wish I could tell you. "Kissing her damp throat.
"I can't help it that I'm stupid over you. It's just too much, Gideon.It's..."
"…Uncontrollable." I mutter for her.
I start again, slowly moving in and out, thickening and growing with each push and pull.
"And...you need control." She breathes.
Holding her face between my hands as I move inside her,
"I need YOU, Eva. "My gaze fierce on her face." I need you."
Chapter 38.
We return to the gala just as the other guests are making their way into the dinning hall. I wait for several minutes outside the ladies restroom where Eva has gone to rearrange her hair and reapply her makeup. When she returns, she looks as beautiful as ever. She is calmer no longer swamped by anxiety.
"Stay with me," I utter. Taking her hand and leading the way to the table.
By some perverse sense of fate, Corinne has somehow managed to seat herself beside me. I ponder on who she has managed to manipulate to be seated there, she wasn't even on the guest list! I swallow back my irritation. It's a deliberate manoeuvre on her part and I don't appreciate it.
Eva is very quiet. To build her confidence I refuse to let go of her hand. Keeping a firm grip throughout the meal, both of us choosing to eat one handed rather than break the connexion between us.
Corinne gives me a curious look." I seem to remember you being right handed. "
"I still am." Lifting our joined hands from beneath the table and placing a kiss on Eva's fingertips.
Corinne lifts one of her beautifully tapered eyebrows, subsequently picking up her knife and fork to resume eating.
In spite of my show of commitment to Eva this doesn't stop Corinne talking, I realize pretty quickly what her game is. Regardless of her sweet smiles and honey coated tones she seems intent on aggravating Eva. Having ascertained from Maggie no doubt that Eva is new to town she suggests places I should take her to, endeavouring to take me on a trip down memory lane.
"Can you remember when we went there, Gideon?" She croons.
I attempt to control the conversation, steering her away from contentious subjects. Keeping my voice low to avoid Eva hearing our conversation. I suppose I could shut Corinne down with a few terse words, although I feel a little sorry for her and it's hardly the done thing. I didn't feel here in public the right place to reproach her over her pathetic attempts to derail Eva and I.
I have to admit I'm a little surprised, Corinne was always such a sweet person, never badmouthing anyone. Seeing this other side to her nature is a revelation.
I'm inwardly cringing every time she opens her mouth to speak, wary of what she might reveal. So I remain focused on her ensuring she doesn't lean around me to engage Eva in conversation, forever fearful of her deliberately upsetting her.
I realise my mistake…In my doomed attempt to prevent Eva from finding out about Corinne in the ballroom, I have inadvertently given Corinne the ammunition she requires to disturb Eva.
I've told Corinne about Eva's vulnerabilities, and she is using this knowledge with deadly precision.
Eva flexes her hand attempting to pull free. I tighten my grip I don't want her leaving my side.
"What are you doing? " I murmur, turning to face her.
My eyes lift to see a man I recognize and detest resting his hands on Eva's chair.
Lucas…Every muscle tenses. Anger…a red-hot rage consumes me.
" She's going to alleviate the boredom of being ignored, Cross.By spending time with someone who's more than happy to pay attention to such a beautiful woman."
Fury pulsates through me. I hate this man with a vengeance, and the feelings are reciprocated. I' deadlocked, every muscle as taut as a wire.
If he lays one finger on her I'll obliterate him. He's deliberately provoking me in a petty attempt at revenge. Moreover, it is working.
He has deliberately sat next to Eva to taunt me…payback, take his revenge.
I think not.
Eva tugs on my hand, again I refuse to release her.
"Walk away, Terry." I warn him.
The man's an abomination, under no circumstances is Eva having a drink and pleasant chat with him. I can just imagine his poisonous words.
"You've been so preoccupied with Mrs Giroux, you didn't even notice when I sat at your table." He smiles derisively." Eva. Shall we?" Indicating towards the dance floor with his hand.
"Don't move, Eva." I command, my voice as cold as ice.
Eva visible shivers before replying in an aggrieved tone.
"It's not his fault, he has a point." She petulantly points out.
Hell, I thought I'd been doing the right thing, I've been protecting her, why can't she see this?
Biting back my annoyance, I tighten my grip on her hand. Under no circumstances will she be going anywhere with that degenerate.
"Not now, Eva." I order.
Terry smirks, clearly enjoying my discomfort. "You don't have to tolerate him talking to you that way." He tells Eva. "All the money in the world doesn't give anyone the right to order you around."
Eva looks at me clearly embarrassed and upset.
"Crossfire." She breathes.
There is such emotion in her low voice… it strikes me sharp. Instantly I release her hand as if an electrical current has shocked us apart.
Moving her chair back, throwing her napkin onto the table.
"Excuse me. Both of you."
Collecting her purse she moves away from the table heading towards the restrooms.
My instinct is to follow, yet I remain seated so as to give both of us a few minutes respite. I'm still reeling from her use of the safe word.
"Tut, Tut. Cross…" Terry gloats.
"Get out of my sight. Before I have you thrown out."
He shrugs his shoulders turns and wanders off.
"Gideon?" Corinne mutters.
"What? " I snap.
Before Corinne can reply, Maggie joins us, taking a deep breath to compose myself.
"Corinne, Gideon, "Maggie greets us.
Attempting to break the terse atmosphere, "Maggie, I like your new hairstyle, it suits you."
"Thank you."
My cell vibrates, taking it from my pocket I check the caller I.D.
Eva…A text. 'Not running, just leaving.'
Hating the fact that she is so unhappy and has felt the need to bolt again.
Have I pushed her too far?
Have all the events of the past week been too much for her to handle? Damn Corinne…
I have been an idiot, I've let how I thought I should be, influence how I could be. In love …I should have let Corinne know this in no uncertain terms, even if it hurt her feelings, tell her that there is no way back for us. Eva...only Eva.
Briefly I close my eyes, but it is impossible to stop the rise of sheer panic, tinged with fear coursing through me. How many more times is she going to forgive me when I fuck up?
"I've got to go." Rising from my seat desperate to follow Eva.
Corrine blinks in surprise, "but I thought you had to… "
"Someone else can do it. " Walking off before I finish speaking, cell in hand as I order my car to be brought around.
….
As I approach Eva's apartment I hear Eva screeching at someone, she sounds furious. Moving quickly forward to unlock the door and enter I stop dead in my tracks. Cary has three other people with him, two woman and a man, all naked. They're daisy chaining… except the guy has broken away and is now threatening Eva."Back the fuck up! "Eva shouts.
Cary disengages from the woman.
"Leave her alone, Ian." He snaps.
"Come on baby girl.You need a good time. Let me show you one."
The guy took a step towards her, I see red…I've seen and heard enough, propelling myself forward and punching the guy hard in the face sending him flying into the sofa.
"Take it to your room Cary, or take it somewhere else." I bit out.
I am fucking furious with everyone, Cary for putting Eva at risk. Eva for not trusting me and myself for acting like a prick all night.
Eva and Cary have a few harsh words, the bottle blonde on the floor rises, clocks me then visible preens, pushing her breasts out and pouting with her bottom lip.
Christ…No thanks I would rather be celibate.I give her a scornful, contemptuous look. She at least has the grace to blush and cover herself up.
Then Eva pipes up.
"Don't take it personally he prefers brunettes."
The look I give her is withering. I am shaking with suppressed anger.
Eva swallows hard and takes an involuntary step back.
"Fuck! Fucking great! "Pushing my hands through my hair in frustration. Now I have frightened her!
"Get this mess out of my house, Cary." Eva sounds tired and fed up, turning she heads for her bedroom.
"You've better get him some attention," I mutter to Cary, indicating the guy on the sofa. His face covered in blood. I have probably broken his nose.
Well I hope it hurts.
…..
"Eva?" Entering Eva's bedroom and removing my jacket. I head for the bathroom, on entering I see Eva in the shower sat on the floor, eyes closed with her arms wrapped around her knees.
She hears me and cringes, tucking in on herself even more, this makes me livid. "Goddamn it," I snap. "You piss me off worse than anyone else I know."
She looks up at me through her wet hair." Go home, Gideon."
I can't quite believe she's said that, after that drug addled idiot nearly attacked her. I'm not leaving her on her own, what's more I'm not allowing Eva to spend the night here, she can come home with me. If she doesn't want to sleep with me she can always use her room.
"I'm not fucking leaving you here. Cary's lost his damn mind! That amped up asshole was seconds away from putting his hands on you when I got here."
"Cary wouldn't have let that happen, "she responds tiredly." Either way I can't deal with both of you at the same time."
Stopping the pacing I'd been doing." Then you can just deal with me." I say quietly.
She moves her fallen hair from across her face so she can see me clearly.
"Oh? I'm supposed to make YOU my priority?" She hisses.
I feel as if she has punched me hard in the gut, I'm not use to being admonished for my behaviour.
"I was under the impression we were both each others priorities."
"Yeah, I thought that too, until tonight."Eva snaps.
Christ almighty.
"Jesus. Will you drop it with Corinne already? I'm here with you, aren't I? I barely said goodbye to her because I was chasing after you, AGAIN." I stand glowering at her.
"Fuck you. Don't do me any favours." She cries.
Her petulance drives me crazy, she's deliberately pushing me away. In a pique of temper I lunge into the shower fully dressed and yank Eva to her feet and kiss her, gripping her arms to hold her in place.
Eva remains tense refusing to submit even when I try coaxing her with soft lush kisses. Moving my lips from her mouth to gently kiss down her throat.
"Why? " I mutter," Why are you driving me insane?"
"I don't know what your problem is with Dr. Lucas, and I honestly don't give a shit. But he was right. Corinne got way too much of your attention tonight. You pretty much ignored me through dinner."
What do I say? I was trying to protect you from her relating tales of our engagement together. And the fact Corinne was deliberately trying to irritate her. I've already admitted to myself I should have told Corinne straight out that me and her are not going to happen. How can Eva even think I would want to ignore her.
"It's impossible for me to ignore you, Eva. If you're in the same room with me, I don't see anyone else."
"Funny." She whines."Every time I looked you were looking at her." Calming down some I release her, moving my hands though her wet hair. "This is stupid. You know how I feel about you."
"Do I? You want me. But do you love Corinne?"
Love Corinne? Is she insane? Eva knows I love her. Is this what this is about? Eva tells me constantly how much she loves me, is this the reassurance she needs?
And what's she implying that I want sex with her, yet love Corinne? Jeez…
"Oh for fucks sake. No!" I explode.
Closing the water off, caging Eva to the glass with both arms so my face is inches from hers.
"You want me to tell you I love you, Eva? Is that what this is about?"
She flinches, tears springing to her eyes. Swiftly ducking her head under my arm. "Go home, Gideon.Please."
"I am home, "my voice full of suppressed emotion." I'm with you."
Pulling her closer I bury my face in her hair, holding on to her not wanting to let go. Eva bursts into tears, sobbing into her hands.
"Go away, Gideon. Please."
Seeing Eva so upset is breaking my heart. "I love you, Eva. Of course I do."
Again Eva flinches as if I've hit her, tears coursing down her cheeks, she struggles violently trying to break away.
"Oh my God, "she cries, kicking out at my legs." I don't want your fucking pity! I just want you to go away."
This hurts, everything hurts…Why won't she believe me? I didn't pity her. I adore her... I am obsessed with her beyond all reason.
She has to understand…There is no way I'm able to leave whilst she's so upset. What if she decides I'm not worth all this heartache and angst.
"I can't leave, you know I can't. Eva, stop fighting. Listen to me."
"Everything you say hurts, Gideon." She emphasizes the word 'hurt'.
I'm hurting too, this is why I have to press on and make her understand.
"It's not the right word, Eva. " I murmur into her ear."That's why I haven't said it. It's not the right word for you and what I feel for you."
"Shut up. If you care for me at all, you'll just shut up and go away." She presses against my chest trying to push me off, I hold on tightly.
I have to explain about Corinne, what our relationship had been like, why being with Eva is so different. Eva will hear me out, I'm not going to release her until I've said my piece.
"I've been loved before…" I begin, " by Corinne, by other women...But what the hell do they know about me? What the hell are they in love with when they don't know how fucked up I am? If that's love, then it's nothing compared to what I feel for you."
Eva stills…turns her gaze on the mirrors reflecting our images.
My face is a plethora of volatile emotions, my clothes dripping wet through. Eva is naked in my arms, black streaks are smeared down her cheeks from her mascara.
Finally, I seem to be getting through to her, kissing down her cheeks trying to quell her shaking body I continue.
"I think I loved you the moment I saw you. Then we made love for the first time in the limo and it became something else. Something more."
"Whatever, "she sighs. " You cut me off that night and left me behind to take care of Corinne. How could you, Gideon? "
A sharp pain slices through my chest as I once again realize how misguided some of my decisions regarding Eva have been. I'm so use to doing whatever I want without considering the feelings of others. Assuredly, at the Advocacy dinner I had done just that. I'd put my own feelings first without considering the consequences my actions may have had on Eva.
Scooping Eva up and carrying her out of the shower to the edge of the tub, bundling her up in a bathrobe. Taking her make up remover wipes out from the draw by the side of the sink, crouching down beside her and gently wiping away the smears on her cheeks.
"When Corinne called during the advocacy dinner, it was the perfect time to make me do something stupid. You and I had just made love, and I wasn't thinking clearly. I told her I was busy and that I was with someone and when I heard the pain in her voice, I knew I had to deal with her before I could move on with you."
Eva shakes her head, frowning. "I don't understand, you cut me off that night and left me behind for her. How does that move us forward?"
"I screwed up with Corinne, Eva. I met her my first year at Columbia, I noticed her of course. She's beautiful and sweet, never a bad word for anyone. When she pursued me, I let myself be caught and she was my first consensual sexual experience."
"I hate her," Eva pouts.
This encourages me, I smile. I love it when Eva goes all possessive on me.
Eva takes exception to this and adds,
"I'm not kidding, Gideon. I'm sick with jealously right now."
Finishing off wiping away the smears from her tear stained face and kissing her forehead, Eva needs affirmation of my love and intense feelings for her.
"It was just sex with her, angel. As raw as you and I fuck, it's still making love. Every time, from the very first time.You're the only one who's ever gotten to me that way."
She takes a deep breath, nodding slightly. "Okay. I'm marginally better."
I kiss her and for the first time in what feels an age, she responds, pulling back, " I guess you could say we dated, and were exclusive sexually. We often ended up going to the same places as a couple. Still when she told me she loved me I was surprised. And flattered. I cared about her. I enjoyed spending time with her."
"Still do, apparently."Eva mutters sourly.
I chastise her with a few admonishing light taps to her nose.
"Keep listening... I thought maybe I might love her too, in my own way...the only way I knew how. I didn't want her to be with anyone else…So I said yes when she proposed to me."
Eva jerks back in surprise, "She proposed?"
"Don't be so shocked," I said with a mocking smile. "You're bruising my ego."
Eva throws herself at me clasping me fiercely.
"Hey, "returning her embrace with just as much ardour. "You okay?"
"Yes. Yes, I'm getting there." Eva releases me from her body lock and cups my cheeks with her hands.
"Keep going," she whispers.
I go on to explain how I'd said yes for all the wrong reasons. I had been lonely and flattered by her attention. Yet after two years hanging out we never spent a full night together, or talked about any of the things Eva and I talk about. Corinne did not really know me. I had convinced myself that being loved is something worth hanging on to. So we became engaged, Corinne was maybe hoping I'd open up more, spend a full night at the hotel which she thought was romantic, instead of leaving early, my excuse classes in the morning. And when Corinne broke off the engagement she was hoping I'd fight to keep her. Instead, I was relieved. How many times could I keep up with excuses not to sleep over.
"You never considered telling her the truth?" Eva enquires.
"No. Until I met you, I didn't consider it an issue. It affected some things, but I worked round it. I wasn't unhappy. In fact I had a comfortable and uncomplicated life."
"Oh boy." Eva trills her nose wrinkling." Hello Mr Comfortable, I'm Miss Complicated."
I flash my most wicked grin "Never a dull moment."
….
Eva stands fascinated as I strip off my waterlogged clothes.
"You feel guilty because she still loves you?"
"I do yes."I mutter quietly.
"Do you know Magdalene kept her hair long hoping it would remind you of Corinne? " Eva asserts.
"What? " I mutter. "Why? " I'm totally bemused by this.
"Because you're the big prize, Gideon." Eva sighs sounding exasperated.
"You don't know what you're worth."
"Actually I do twelve billi …"
"Shut up."She squeals, placing her hands over her ears. "It shouldn't be a surprise that women will go to extreme lengths to be with you, and fall in love with you...Magdalene thought you still wanted Corinne." She sighs at my stupidity.
"Then Magdalene is not paying attention."
"Isn't she? Corinne told me she talks to you almost everyday."
Damn Corinne...That is a blatant lie. Scott often tells her I am too busy to receive calls, in meetings etc. "Not quite, you know how busy I am." Thoughts about the past two weeks with Eva flit through my mind. I feel myself hardening thinking about the 'busy' times I've had with Eva.
I start to feel the cold being in waterlogged clothes so I begin to strip.
"That's nuts, Gideon. Her calling everyday. That's stalking."
Dropping my pants and stepping out of them. "Where you going with all this?" I ask in wry amusement, because Eva's eyes are glued to my groin.
"Don't you get it? You drive women off the deep end. If a woman can't have you they're settling for less than the best. So they think about crazy ways to try and get you."
I laugh at her assessment of me then dryly add. "All except the woman I want, who spends a lot of time running in the opposite direction."
Eva stares at my naked body, drinking me in.
"Answer me one question, Gideon. Why do you want me, when you can have your pick of perfection instead? And I'm not fishing for compliments or reassurances. I'm asking an honest question."
No, she is showing her vulnerable side again, still questioning my ability to remain in a steady relationship. She thinks I'll take what I want and move on.
Lifting her up and carrying her through to the bedroom.
" Eva, if you don't stop thinking of us as temporary, I going to take you over my knee and make damn sure you like it."
Settling her in a chair, I rifle through some drawers for Eva's clothes.
"Have you forgotten I sleep in the nude with you?"
I explain, we're not staying, she is coming home with me.
"I don't trust Cary not to bring more intoxicated jerks home, and once I've taken my medication Dr Peterson prescribed I'll be dead to the world. Unable to protect you.So we're going to my place."
Eva's silent, staring down at her hands.
"I've been down this road with Cary before, Gideon. I can't just bolt to your place and hope he comes out of it on his own. He needs me to be around more than I have been."
Crouching down in front of her tilting her chin up with my fingers,
"I need you too, Eva." I openly admit." I know you need to support Cary. We will figure out how tomorrow. "
Eva cups my face with her hands. "Thank you."
"I need you, Eva." I murmur.
"We need each other," she whispers.
Pulling Eva to her feet, we start to dress.
As Eva pulls on her sweats." I feel tons better now I know the score with Corinne. She's still gonna be a problem for me. "
Eva pauses as she catches my gaze. " You want to nip her hopes in the bud, real quick. Stow the guilt Gideon, and start weaning her off."
Hmm... I've known Corinne a long time, it might be easier said than done.
"She's a friend, Eva. And she's in a rough spot. It's a cruel time to cut her off."
Eva stills, her face has a determined expression, I think I ought to expect some trouble. She has that look, the ' don't mess with me'look.
"Think carefully, Gideon. I have exes in my past, too. You're setting the example for how I handle them. I am taking my cues from you."
This annoys me. I know I've no intention of cheating on Eva. Her demands are as good as saying she doesn't trust me around Corinne.
"Are you threatening me?" I scowl.
"I prefer to see it as coercion. Relationships work both ways.You're not her only friend. She can find someone more appropriate to lean on in her time of crisis."
I leave it at that, I don't want another argument over Corinne, I'll think about what Eva has said in the morning, for now I want her back at my place in my bed.
….
Stepping into the limo I realise I've left my cell, cursing…
"I've forgot something."
"Here let me get my keys."
Eva reaches over for the overnight bag.
"No need," I smile, touching her face with my fingers."I had copies made before I gave them back to you."
"Seriously?"
"If you had paid attention," kissing her head." You would have noticed my apartment key on your key ring."
I leave to retrieve my cell, Eva's face is a picture her mouth wide open in shock.
Climbing back into the limo and tugging her onto my lap.
"We've had a rough night? "
"Yes... "she whispers," but we got over it."
She offers me her mouth for a kiss. She's all sex and lush invitation … She's Eva.
"I can't wait to get you in my bed." I growl.
Then attack her neck with soft bites and lush kisses.
Everything's back how it should be …
For a while at least.
….
Authors Note: Phew…it's done, not perfect and I have already spotted orhad pointed out a few mistakes. Too late to rectify now.
A big thank you to everyone who has followed Gideon and Eve. Even bigger thanks to everyone who reviewed. I endeavour to answer your messages.
Apologies to anyone in the process of reading The Third Person, I have had to withdraw the story, since it is now in the hands of publishers and will be available on E. Book soon…paperback not until next spring.
Gideon's Mirror Image. Hopefully I will be working on this soon.
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