" Yes, she has … I value your friendship Maggie, but that's as far as it goes. "
" I was just … I was worried.. You seemed diffe….. I was looking out for you … "
" I'm a grown man Maggie, I don't exactly need looking after, you may of not noticed but I seem to have done quite well on my own "
" I know. " She gives me a worried smile " Look, come back inside, let me explain properly.. " She places her hand on my arm..
" I can't, another time may be. "
" What's the rush? "
Eva that's the rush, I can't wait to be with her. I conjure images of her in bed patiently waiting for me.
"Eva's waiting for me. I'm on my way to her place now. " I gently squeeze her arm to soften the blow.
" Okay," she smiles. " On your way. Say hello from me "
…
All is quiet when I arrive at the apartment,it's dark as I make my way to Eva's room. She's sleeping, the room softly lit with a candle she'd left burning. Standing at the door I am fascinated.
In repose her face looks different, younger, so innocent.
" Beautiful," I breath.
Unable to stop myself, I take photo's of her with my phone. it is voyeuristic, I just couldn't miss this opportunity.
My need for her is a throbbing ache in my chest, quickly divesting myself of clothes,climbing into bed laying atop of her placing my mouth on hers, kissing slowly. She wakens moving her hands over my body, parting her legs allowing me to settle comfortably.
" Well, hello to you, too, " she breathlessly sighs in-between kisses..
" I've missed you, you'll come with me next time. "
" Hmm, will I? You haven't known me long enough to miss me. "
" Shows what you know, " I'd had enough of talking so I slide down her body gently sucking her nipple through her baby doll, whilst deftly pushing up the hem and dipping my hand between her legs.
She's deliciously wet " Seems you missed me too. You're swollen and wet for me."
My fingers touch her entrance, I tease and circle again and again until I could hold back no longer and slide in one finger, lowering my head pushing her legs over my shoulders, tasting her with soft strokes of my tongue over her clit.
" Gideon, please. " She begged.
" Not yet, " I continued, fetching her to the edge of orgasm,and then letting her slide down again, holding her legs apart with my shoulders (to prevent my head being squashed this time) I torture her further by thrusting my tongue inside her entrance occasionally flicking her clit with a single stroke.
" Please,Gideon.. let me come.. I.. need..to come,.. please "
" Shh, angel " slowly I allow her orgasm to build until she comes like a rushing river, soaking my face and the sheets beneath us.
Moving over her again, clasping her hands to restrain her movements, I carefully push my cock inside her. My body shudders at the warmth and incredible sensation, her tightness clasping my cock tightly.
" You're so soft and warm. Mine, Eva. You're mine. "
Holding me closer by wrapping her legs around my waist we begin to move. I pound into her letting her feel every last inch of me. She is gasping and thrashing around under me trying to meet each thrust with her own. Holding her hands even tighter I pour out my soul, telling her how much she means to me,as I near my release, my pace quickens for several thrusts " Eva.. " I shout... Both of us climaxing together.
She sinks into the mattress..
" I'm not done. " Adjusting my knees to exert more pressure I slam back into her, each thrust staking my claim, she is mine only mine, here for me.
CHAPTER 20
I was in a buoyant mood entering my office, this morning … hmm … I'd woken after a dream free, relaxing sleep, Eva was already up and about. She was taking a shower, I decided to join her, Eva's eyes were fixed on my erection as I entered the shower, lifting my eyebrows sardonically, I smiled at her hungry expression. She retaliated by giving me a blow job, sucking me so hard I had to support myself pressing my hands against the tiled wall. I intended to fuck her senseless after,but she shot out of the bathroom and was dressed, fixing coffee when I finished showering.
I told her she hadn't got away with it …I was taking a rain check.
"Fiend," she muttered " I'm gonna lose my job over you, then you'll probably have me as a sex slave. "
" What a wonderful idea, let's discuss. " I teased.
Sipping the coffee she made, " I want to take you out tonight, dinner then back to my place? "
She frowned. " Gideon, I don't want you to burn out on me. "
I knew that I needed to learn how to be in a relationship.And I am trying, Eva's reticence is disappointing.
" Don't make excuses, you don't get to decide I can't do this." I said grimly.
"That's not what I meant. I just don't want to crowd you and there's st… "
She'd obviously realised I'd taken offence at her words and she quickly tried to remedy the situation, smoothing her hands over my chest.
" Eva," gently cupping her face, " you have to trust me. I'm trusting you.I've had to or I wouldn't be here now. "
"Okay, dinner and your place it is. " She'd whispered.
….
10.30 Scott informs me Jonas is on the line wanting a few words before my next appointment. " Jonas, is there a problem? " I asked matter of factly.
" No sir, not as such. Can you log onto the … news site sir, normally I wouldn't bother you with this, though it concerns Miss Tramell. "
My curiosity is aroused, I freeze as I survey the pictures and headings. There is a picture of Maggie and myself taken as we parted last night, her hand on my arm,me touching her as I explain about Eva. Damn.. Eva's not going to like this, I deliberately had not passed on Maggies salutation from last night, knowing full well Eva wouldn't of taken it in a friendly light.
The reason for Jonas's concern became apparent with the next set of photos. Cary and Eva were hugging each other outside the restaurant yesterday lunch. The look on their faces ….?
The captions were all similar questioning Eva's relationship to Cary, and my reaction to it.
I'd been silent for quite a while …
" Mr. Cross? " Jonas enquired.
" There's nothing to it, just press speculation. Ignore it, no comments. " Ending the call,swivelling my chair to look out on the city.
It gutted me seeing her laughing and hugging another man. The expression on her face was loving as was his.I Closed my eyes against the slide show, playing in my head of Cary and Eva.
I am mad, so damn mad.
Is this why she was unsure about tonight? Have I my answer to why she didn't want to go public?
Are they playing me for a fool? If they are, they'll regret it.
Trust. Fucking trust …. I'd asked her to trust me, but can I trust her?
A surge of possessiveness and anger powers through my body, grabbing a sheet of inter office note paper I write three words
' Noon, my office. '
I'm too angry with her to offer any salutation. Scott is ordered to have the note hand delivered immediately.
Twenty minutes later I had my reply ' Sorry, got plans ' written on the back of the note I'd sent.
I was fucking fuming, when I said jump people usually asked how high, no one refused.
Being prissy are we Eva? Well we'll see about that.
Contacting the lobby informing security Eva had to be waylaid until I was there. We couldn't really have a confrontation in the front lobby, so I ordered Angus to wait out outside.
Security alerted me to Eva's computer being shut down, I am already in the elevator when the front lobby inform me Eva is there, and not too happy about being detained apparently.
My anger by now is a cold fury burning inside. Striding through the lobby I see Eva is making her escape, Garrity is by her side looking puzzled.
" Eva! " I snap.
Stopping she turns to face me on the sidewalk. Her eyes are blazing, which I know full well indicates fury.
Well baby if you think your furious, wait till I start!
" I'm going for lunch with my boss, " she spits defiantly.
" Where are you headed Garrity? " I enquire, retaining eye contact with Eva through out.
" Bryant park grill. "
" I'll see that she gets there. " Grasping Eva firmly by the elbow leading her into the waiting Bentley.
I follow her in, giving her no room to escape. She scrambles over the seat trying to evade me. The door closes and we're off. I was so distracted that I totally forgot the privacy glass.
" What are you doing? apart from embarrassing me. "
Leaning forwards into her personal space, wasting no words,
" Is Cary in love with you? "
" What? No! "
" Have you fucked him? " I growl.
She shot a glance at Angus, embarrassed by his presence, but I didn't give a fuck.
"Have you lost your mind?" She screeches. " Screw you, billionaire playboy with your bevy of beautiful socialites. "
So she has seen the pictures ….. That's why she didn't want to come to my office.
" So you did see the photos."
She turns away, feigning disinterest. " Cary's like a brother to me. You know that. "
" Ah, but what are you to him? The photos were amazingly clear, I know love when I see it. "
The car slows to allow pedestrians to cross, as quick as lightening Eva shot out the door, turning to say " Obviously, you don't. " then fled, slamming the door as she went.
" Shit! "
Jumping out the car. " Eva. stop right there. "
Boy she is mad, she flips me the finger and disappears into Bryant park.
I caught up to her a few steps in, grasping her waist from behind.
" Don't run. " I hiss into her ear.
" Your acting like a nut job! "
Christ! what does she expect when she won't even discuss it.
" May be because your driving me fucking crazy. Your mine, tell me Cary knows that. " I hold her tighter as if to emphasize the point.
" Right. " She snaps, " like Magdelene knows your mine? Your causing a scene. "
She is right of course several people are watching us intently, no doubt fascinated by the emotional scenes being played out in front of them. Her fault of course, if she'd …..
" We could of done this in my office, if you hadn't been that damn stubborn. "
" I had plans, asshat. And your fucking them up for me. " She bursts into tears. " Your fucking up everything. "
My anger is suddenly replaced by remorse, clarity seeped through the possessive rage that had been burning with in. Jesus, what was I doing?
Instantly I release her, spinning her round to face me. Tears are running down her face, tears I'd caused.
Pulling her tightly to me. " Christ, don't cry. I'm sorry. "
She beats her fists against my chest,asking what's wrong with me, when I can go out with Magdelene who'd called her a whore and said she was going to marry me,when she couldn't go out with a dear friend, who had been rooting for me from the beginning. "
Jeez, had I read it wrong, Taylor rooting for me? who would of thought.
" Eva, Maggie just happened to be at the same restaurant. " Cupping her face, kissing her hair softly.
" I don't care, talk about the look of love on a face. How could you look at her like that. "
This made me smile " Eva, I was thinking and talking of you when that picture was taken. Only you could put that look on my face. "
" You expect me to believe that? "
" Angel… she told me to say hello but I figured it wouldn't go down too well "
Her arms slid around my waist beneath my jacket. Thank god, I thought I'd blown it.
" We need to talk, there are things you don't know, if a reporter digs deep enough ….. we need to keep our relationship private or end it. It would be better for you. "
I've really no idea what's she's talking about, but one thing is certain.
" Neither is an option. Whatever it is, we'll work it out. " Cupping her face, resting my forehead against hers.
Eva lifts her head and presses her lips against mine. Her kiss is passionate and needy. And I kiss her with the same enthusiasm as she kisses me.
" There, " I whisper, gently caressing her cheek. " Let that go viral. "
She sighs, " your not listening to me, you crazy stubborn man. I have to go. "
Oh I'm listening angel, nothing absolutely nothing is going to keep me from you.
" We'll ride home together after work. " I mutter..
Stepping back retaining contact with her hand until distance pulls us apart …..
Authors Note.. Phew.. I feel traumatized after writing that!
Chapter 21
Leaving Eva in the park had been a lesson in self restraint, all I had wanted to do was take her home, to hold her,just be with her, to make up for my jealous behaviour.
Christ, the damn press, I should know better by now. I mean the pictures of Maggie and me, I knew they'd been harmless, so why hadn't I given Eva the same trust? Stupid.. Stupid..
God. What a palaver over nothing!
No doubt Jonas would be pulling his hair out in the morning … Oh well.. tough.. It will make his day interesting.. If those pictures of Eva and I did go viral, I must make sure he gets me a copy ….
…..
The rest of the afternoon dragged on interminably, eventually it was time to leave. Eva is quiet, too quiet. As we travel home I study her intently, she is sombre. I feel that if I try to make conversation she will burst into tears. Taking her hand I kiss her fingers and hope that this afternoons debacle isn't the cause of her distress.
At the apartment I lead her through to my bedroom, where I have laid out on the bed one of the dresses I purchased yesterday and a beautiful 1920's style black silk robe.
" I had a little time to shop yesterday, " I explain. " Make yourself comfortable, wear the robe or something of mine. I'll open some wine whilst you shower. Then we'll talk. "
" Thank you, " she softly reply's, holding the silk robe to her face.
I too, changed into black silk pyjama bottoms, then went to the living room lighting the fire and several candles, using these as the only source of light.
" Excuse me." Eva trilled. " I'm looking for Gideon Cross who doesn't have romance in his repertoire."
I grinned shyly, " I'm trying.I just do things to try to please you, and hope for the best. "
" You do please me," she whispers.
" I'm working on it. "
Eva crosses the room, resting her head against my chest, she's shaking slightly.
" Hey, is this about this afternoon? Me being an ass. Or is it about what you need to tell me? Talk to me Eva, it will be alright. "
" You need to sit,I've things to tell you about me. Ugly things."
Sighing I release her and fetch us both a glass of wine. Eva has curled up on the sofa, hugging her knees in a protective almost foetal position. Sitting next to her one arm draped over the back of the couch the other twirling the stem of the glass, I focus my whole attention on her.
She catches my hand off the couch and kisses my knuckles as if this will be the last chance she'll have. Holding my hand in hers taking a deep breath " Here goes okay.. "
Eva relates her mothers history, being a debutante, getting pregnant, refusing to abort the child, yet not marrying the father.
" Lucky me, " I mutter sifting my hands through her damp hair.
Her mother went on to marry a multi millionaire, widower with a son 2 years older than Eva. Perfect arrangement, Monica brought up the children,spending her husbands money, whilst he spent a lot of time away on business.
" Eva, I understand the need for money, I have to have it too, the power and the security. "
Our eyes meet, this admittance of mine,the honesty of my statement, seemed to give her courage.
Staring straight at me, her eyes sombre
" I was ten the first time my stepbrother raped me. "
My whole body went taut, the shock so intense for a brief second my mind reeled. Clasping the glass to contain my emotions, the stem of the glass snapped, reflectively I caught the goblet pressing it to my thigh, shooting to my feet. As did Eva.
" Have you cut yourself? " She cried.
" I'm fine. " I bit out. Walking swiftly into the kitchen, slinging the broken glass in the bin.
Her disclosure has me reeling, I screw up my face trying to contain the rising nausea, raking my hands through my hair. I try to think clearly. I need to go back in there and resume this conversation, no matter how painful this is to me. I have to disguise the sickness I feel, she's had enough humiliation inflicted on her.
Pouring myself a stiff drink of brandy,assuming a calm exterior, though my fury at this Nathan and what Eva has endured is a cold shard of ice pulsing through me.
I rejoined her, " Sit down Eva. "
She just stares at me … God this is hard..
" Eva sit down… please. "
Sitting, she curls in on herself, clasping her knees tightly for protection.
" You said the first time, how many times were there? "
Taking quick breaths staring at her knees. " I don't know, I lost count. "
Christ. No, no baby. Not you too.
" Did you tell anyone? "
Her voice turns into a tiny whisper, each word torture for her to utter. Shame was abound in her small voice.
She explained how she'd been too afraid, until it got so bad she almost told her mother. Then Nathan had killed her cat and left it on her bed as a warning.
The sick bastard.. I tried not to imagine Eva as a small beautiful child, scared, afraid and alone. I knew how that felt. Know what it is like when someone older,stronger …. Oh God, no not Eva …
" Jesus Christ. He wasn't just fucked up, but insane too. And he touched you,Eva. "
Eva quietly carried on,saying how some of the servants had to know, like her they were too scared to say anything. Eventually,
when she was fourteen her mother panicked when Eva had a bad period, taking her to hospital. Eva had had a miscarriage, during the examination they found evidence of abuse,
" virginal and anal scarring." She whispered.
I didn't know what to say. I have spent all of my adult life trying to leave the horror of my childhood behind. I just stared horrified, she looks down unable to meet my eyes ….
" I'm sorry, " she whispers, " but you need to know. If someone digs too deep. Stanton has tried to hush it up, N.D.A.'s etc, you have a right to know. I don't want to embarrass you. "
What the … is that what she thinks of me?
" Embarrass me! " I snap, " That isn't on the list of what I feel." Anger, distress at what she has been subjected too. And revenge, I need revenge … the dark side of my nature surging to the forefront of my mind.
I wish that Nathan was here, now. I'd kill him, slowly. Torture him, for hurting my angel.
" Gideon, if the press … "
" I'd destroy any reporter who wrote about it, and dismantle any publication that dare print it. I'm going to find him Eva and he'll wish he'd never been born. "
" He's not worth the effort, don't waste your time. " she went on quickly, pushing to her feet.
" Damn it, Eva. Your worth it. "
She went onto explain there was a money trail, usually where reporters tended to look, explaining how she had been paid out five million dollars, money she wouldn't touch. Blood money she called it.
" Stanton's invested it, and knowing his financial wizardry it will probably be a lot more now, so Gideon if you ever worry I'm with you for your money …... "
I froze, never once since I'd met Eva had I considered this, I was offended she thought so little of me.. ….Yet as she stood there so broken, hurt, my heart cried out for her.
" Stop Eva. "
She turned to face me, tightening the belt of her robe, closing her eyes for a brief second.
" I'm going to get dressed and go. " She sadly sighed.
"? "
CHAPTER 22
"What? Go where? " I glowered.
" Home, you need to think about this, about us. " Her voice sounded sad, weary.
" We can do that together, " I said defensively.
I couldn't quite believe she wanted to leave, it didn't make sense. If there was ever a time she needed me it was now. I know I was coming across as being angry, but not at her. I know from personal experience how difficult it is to tell someone about abuse.
I feel angry, sad, horrified because she has been violated in this way.
" No Gideon, I don't think we can. Not when your looking at me like you feel sorry for me. " Her voice is sad, disappointed even.
" I'm not made of fucking stone, Eva. "
" I don't want your goddamn pity. " Her sadness morphing into anger.
Shaking my head in bewilderment, " what the hell do you want, then "
" You! " She screamed, " I want you. "
" You have me angel, how many times do I have to tell you! "
" Your words don't mean shit when you can't back them up. Since we've met,all you've wanted to do is fuck me senseless. It's gone Gideon, that look it's gone. "
For a few seconds I just stare at her, disbelieve being the prevalent emotion, I could fuck Eva anytime, jeez just thinking about it was making me hard.
" You can't be serious. " I muttered.
" You don't realize how your desire makes me feel, it makes me feel wanted, strong and alive, I couldn't bear it,if you don't desire me anymore. "
"Eva I… " Hearing her words was too much, trying to deal with her emotions as well as my own. I could fuck Eva anytime, but she's just told me some horrific things from her childhood, it would be insensitive to have sex with her now, I wouldn't want her to think I was taking advantage, she is upset …. And … Gritting my teeth and clenching my fists I try to keep myself under control.
She loosens the sash of her robe,shrugging the garment off, standing before me completely naked, I am immediately rock solid.
" Look at me, look at my body Gideon, it's the same one you couldn't get enough of that you took me to that damn hotel room.. If you don't want it any more or don't get hard looking at it … "
Shit. Control fucked. Undoing the draw string on my pants
" Is this hard enough for you? " My erection jutted out..
We threw ourselves at each other, the impact so strong Eva lost her balance falling backwards onto the couch with me on top of her. Our lips collided, the kiss wild, strong and passionate, we were kissing as if our lives depended on it. Eva was making small desperate noises in between sobbing, tears coursing down her cheeks. Wild with unchecked passion I kissed my way down her body, sucking her breasts so hard she gasped. My dick was so thick and taut it ached, throbbed to be inside her.Sinking lower with no attempt at finesse I mouthed her clit, plunging two fingers inside her entrance, furiously working them up and down trying to prepare her for penetration knowing I was going to have no control once I entered her. I couldn't wait, even though I knew she wasn't quite ready. She'd questioned my desire for her, my mind still couldn't comprehend that she'd doubted the strength of my passion, well she was going to find out, because I'd wanted to fuck her like this since the moment we'd met.
"Fuck me, Gideon, fuck me hard. " Eva cried.
Moving back up aligning my body with hers,fisting her hair in what must of been a painful lock, to hold her still, I thrust into her, a soft scream came from her mouth, placing my mouth on hers swallowing the remainder of the noise, kissing and tasting, allowing Eva to taste her own arousal.
I went wild, fucking her so hard, using the end of the couch for extra leverage. I've never fucked so savagely before, after every pound, "mine… always mine …" control and reason nowhere on the horizon.
With a loud groan I emptied myself inside her, shuddering at the impact of my orgasm. Eva pressed into me, kissing my jaws, neck and shoulders.
I wasn't done ….
" Hold on, " I breathed hoarsely.
Lifting Eva so she straggled my hips,pushing back inside so we were joined as one.
I needed to see her face, be as close as possible whilst I spoke. And I wanted her to see me, read me, understand that nothing would diminish my passion for her.
Tenderly moving her hair back behind her ears, brushing the tears off her face. " I'm always hard for you, if I could have changed that I would have done so by now. I'm always half crazy for you. "
" Yes, " she whispered. Clasping my wrists tightly in her hands.
I was worried though I had just completely lost control, pounded into her more for my need than hers. Eva hadn't come, she hadn't been wet enough when I took her. I'd taken what I'd needed at a time when she was vulnerable. Cupping her face with my hands, staring intently into her eyes just bare inches away,
" Now show me that you still want me after that. " I frowned. "I need to know that loosing control doesn't mean I've lost you. "
Eva pulled my hands to her breasts, and began to slowly ride up and down. Urging Eva closer arching her back I took one of her hardened nipples into my mouth,she cried out with pleasure, closing her eyes as she focused on moving her body along my hardened length.
" That's it, I murmur, licking my way across her breasts to the neglected nipple.
" Come for me. I need you to come riding my cock. "
Eva placed her hands on my shoulders, gripping so tight it was painful, then she went crazy. Riding my cock with no inhibitions or shame, just pleasuring herself with her head tipped back and eyes closed gasping for breath as she exploded, screaming as the orgasm tore through her.
It was too much, seeing her face as the mixture of agony and ecstasy ripped through her … I wanted her again …
" It's never enough Eva, I gonna come for you again."
Angling her hips to push in deeper, I could feel her cunt preparing to come again, Eva placed her hand on her clit, catching my shaft as I bucked up and down, she was whimpering as the tension built, then she cried out, her cunt clenching my cock as she exploded taking me with her. Throwing my head back white stars flashed behind my eyes, " Eva ….! " …..
We sat silent, still connected, holding each other for what seemed an age.
" Stay, " I Murmured as I slowly pulled out of her tight channel.. Kissing her hair and stroking her face.
" Yes. " She breathed. Only then did I relax.
I'd forgotten nothing, the horror she'd revealed was still a hard knock banging away relentlessly at the back of my mind. Together … As long as we are together, we'll conquer this …..
Chapter 23
All rights belong to Sylvia Day …
Hugging Eva, my lips pressed to her temple " Your so brave, honest and strong, I not sure I deserve you. Your a miracle, my miracle. " I am in awe of her strength, she's braver than I am, I can't even begin to think what it must of cost her to tell me about the abuse ….
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