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"Yeah," Frank says skeptically, "After you started painting me naked and checking me out for several hours a day."

"No," Gerard insists, "Before that. I just didn't realize it." Gerard hasn't really thought about it before, but it's actually true. He had found Frank to be attractive before, too, but at a seemingly innocent level where he just thought it was because they're friends and nothing more. It had never occurred to him that he might be attracted to Frank on a sexual level, or that he had other feelings for him than friendly ones.

They both lie silent in the dark for what seems like hours, and Gerard thinks Frank might have fallen asleep, but then the younger boy says, "What happens now?"

Gerard's glad he wasn't the one to bring it up, although he wanted to ask the question and didn't want it asked to him. He doesn't know what happens now. "You know how I feel about you," Frank continues. "But I'll understand if you don't want this."

Gerard can tell by the tone of Frank's voice that that's not true, though. He remembers the hurt expression on Frank's face from when he pulled out of that hug too quickly, and he can imagine how much worse it would be, how Frank would feel, if he were to reject him again. He doesn't want to do that to Frank. Not without trying, at least.

Putting down his hands on either side of Frank's chest, he heaves himself up, so that he can look at Frank properly. "I can't really promise that it will work out in the long run, but I want to give it a try. It's what you deserve, and I really want to figure out my feelings for you."

He can make out a smile on Frank's lips, and leans in to cover them with his own in a sweet kiss that makes his chest swell, and his heart beat faster. Frank grins up at him through the dark when they pull away, and he feels strangely happy and satisfied when he lies back down and wraps his arm around Frank's warm body.

They fall asleep not long after, and the last thing Gerard thinks is that he has never heard a silence so beautiful.

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The End.

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