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"Some things don't have to end," I muttered through my teeth, instantly

tense.

He sighed.

"I brought you to the prom," he said slowly, finally answering my

question, "because I don't want you to miss anything. I don't want my

presence to take anything away from you, if I can help it. I want you to

be human. I want your life to continue as it would have if I'd died in

nineteen-eighteen like I should have."

I shuddered at his words, and then shook my head angrily. "In what

strange parallel dimension would I ever have gone to prom of my own free

will? If you weren't a thousand times stronger than me, I would never

have let you get away with this."

He smiled briefly, but it didn't touch his eyes. "It wasn't so bad, you

said so yourself."

"That's because I was with you."

We were quiet for a minute; he stared at the moon and I stared at him. I

wished there was some way to explain how very uninterested I was in a

normal human life.

"Will you tell me something?" he asked, glancing down at me with a slight

smile.

"Don't I always?"

"Just promise you'll tell me," he insisted, grinning.

I knew I was going to regret this almost instantly. "Fine."

"You seemed honestly surprised when you figured out that I was taking you

here," he began.

"I was," I interjected.

"Exactly," he agreed. "But you must have had some other theory… I'm

curious — what did you think I was dressing you up for?"

Yes, instant regret. I pursed my lips, hesitating. "I don't want to tell

you."

"You promised," he objected.

"I know."

"What's the problem?"

I knew he thought it was mere embarrassment holding me back. "I think it

will make you mad — or sad."

His brows pulled together over his eyes as he thought that through. "I

still want to know. Please?"

I sighed. He waited.

"Well… I assumed it was some kind of… occasion. But I didn't think it

would be some trite human thing… prom!" I scoffed.

"Human?" he asked flatly. He'd picked up on the key word.

I looked down at my dress, fidgeting with a stray piece of chiffon. He

waited in silence.

"Okay," I confessed in a rush. "So I was hoping that you might have

changed your mind… that you were going to change me, after all."

A dozen emotions played across his face. Some I recognized: anger… pain…

and then he seemed to collect himself and his expression became amused.

"You thought that would be a black tie occasion, did you?" he teased,

touching the lapel of his tuxedo jacket.

I scowled to hide my embarrassment. "I don't know how these things work.

To me, at least, it seems more rational than prom does." He was still

grinning. "It's not funny," I said.

"No, you're right, it's not," he agreed, his smile fading. "I'd rather

treat it like a joke, though, than believe you're serious."

"But I am serious."

He sighed deeply. "I know. And you're really that willing?"

The pain was back in his eyes. I bit my lip and nodded.

"So ready for this to be the end," he murmured, almost to himself, "for

this to be the twilight of your life, though your life has barely

started. You're ready to give up everything."

"It's not the end, it's the beginning," I disagreed under my breath.

"I'm not worth it," he said sadly.

"Do you remember when you told me that I didn't see myself very clearly?"

I asked, raising my eyebrows. "You obviously have the same blindness."

"I know what I am."

I sighed.

But his mercurial mood shifted on me. He pursed his lips, and his eyes

were probing. He examined my face for a long moment.

"You're ready now, then?" he asked.

"Um." I gulped. "Yes?"

He smiled, and inclined his head slowly until his cold lips brushed

against the skin just under the corner of my jaw.

"Right now?" he whispered, his breath blowing cool on my neck. I shivered

involuntarily.

"Yes," I whispered, so my voice wouldn't have a chance to break. If he

thought I was bluffing, he was going to be disappointed. I'd already made

this decision, and I was sure. It didn't matter that my body was rigid as

a plank, my hands balled into fists, my breathing erratic…

He chuckled darkly, and leaned away. His face did look disappointed.

"You can't really believe that I would give in so easily," he said with a

sour edge to his mocking tone.

"A girl can dream."

His eyebrows rose. "Is that what you dream about? Being a monster?"

"Not exactly," I said, frowning at his word choice. Monster, indeed.

"Mostly I dream about being with you forever."

His expression changed, softened and saddened by the subtle ache in my

voice.

"Bella." His fingers lightly traced the shape of my lips. "I will stay

with you — isn't that enough?"

I smiled under his fingertips. "Enough for now."

He frowned at my tenacity. No one was going to surrender tonight. He

exhaled, and the sound was practically a growl.

I touched his face. "Look," I said. "I love you more than everything else

in the world combined. Isn't that enough?"

"Yes, it is enough," he answered, smiling. "Enough for forever."

And he leaned down to press his cold lips once more to my throat.

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Acknowledgments

A huge thank you to:

my parents, Steve and Candy,

for a lifetime of love and support,S

for reading great books to me when I was young,

and for still holding my hand through the

things that make me nervous;

my husband, Pancho, and my sons, Gabe, Seth, and Eli,

for sharing me so often with my imaginary friends;

my friends at Writers House,

Genevieve Gagne-Hawes, for giving me that first chance,

and my agent Jodi Reamer, for turning the most

unlikely dreams into realities;

my editor Megan Tingley, for all her help in

making Twilight better than it started out;

my brothers, Paul and Jacob, for their expert advice on all

my automotive questions; and my online family,

the talented staff and writers at fansofrealitytv.com,

particularly Kimberly "Shazzer," and Collin "Mantenna"

for the encouragement, advice,

and inspiration.

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