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This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents are either a product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual people living or dead, 11 страница



“What?” he snaps.

 

“I wanted a Diet Coke,” I whisper.

 

His gray eyes narrow, and he shakes his head.

 

“The Pinot Grigio here’s a decent wine, it will go well with the meal, whatever we get.”

 

He says patiently.

 

“Whatever we get?”

 

“Yes.” He smiles, his dazzling, head cocked to one side smile, and my stomach pole vaults over my spleen. I can’t help but reflect his glorious smile back at him.

 

“My mother liked you,” he says dryly.

 

“Really?” His words make me flush with pleasure.

 

“Oh yes. She’s always thought I was gay.”

 

My mouth drops open, and I remember that question… from the interview. Oh no.

 

“Why did she think you were gay?” I whisper.

 

“Because she’s never seen me with a girl.”

 

“Oh… not even one of the fifteen?”

 

He smiles.

 

“You remembered. No, none of the fifteen.”

 

“Oh.”

 

“You know, Anastasia, it’s been a weekend of firsts for me, too,” he says quietly.

 

“It has?”

 

“I’ve never slept with anyone, never had sex in my bed, never flown a girl in Charlie Tango, never introduced a woman to my mother. What are you doing to me?” His eyes burn, their intensity takes my breath away.

 

The waitress arrives with our glasses of wine, and I immediately take a quick sip. Is he opening up or just making a casual observation?

 

“I’ve really enjoyed this weekend,” I murmur. He narrows his eyes at me again.

 

“Stop biting that lip,” he growls. “Me too,” he adds.

 

“What’s vanilla sex?” I ask, if anything to distract myself from the intense, burning, sexy look he’s giving me. He laughs.

 

“Just straightforward sex, Anastasia. No toys, no added extras.” He shrugs. “You know… well actually you don’t, but that’s what it means.”

 

“Oh.” I thought it was chocolate fudge brownie sex that we had, with a cherry on the top. But hey, what do I know?

 

The waitress brings us soup. We both stare at it rather dubiously.

 

“Nettle soup,” the waitress informs us before turning and flouncing back into the kitchen. I don’t think she likes to be ignored by Christian. I take a tentative taste. It’s delicious.

 

Christian and I look up at each other at the same time with relief. I giggle, and he cocks his head to one side.

 

“That’s a lovely sound,” he murmurs.

 

“Why have you never had vanilla sex before? Have you always done… err, what you’ve done?” I ask, intrigued.

 

He nods slowly.

 

“Sort of.” His voice is wary. He frowns for a moment and seems to be engaged in some kind of internal struggle. Then he glances up, a decision made. “One of my mother’s friends seduced me when I was fifteen.”

 

“Oh.” Holy shit that’s young!

 

“She had very particular tastes. I was her submissive for six years.” He shrugs.

 

“Oh.” My brain has frozen, stunned into inactivity by this admission.

 

“So I do know what it involves, Anastasia.” His eyes glow with insight.

 

I stare at him, unable to articulate anything – even my subconscious is silent.

 

“I didn’t really have a run-of-the-mill introduction to sex.”

 

Curiosity kicks in big time.

 

“So you never dated anyone at college?”

 

“No.” He shakes his head to emphasize the point.

 

The waitress takes our plates, interrupting us for a moment.

 

“Why?” I ask when she’s gone.

 

He smiles sardonically.

 

“Do you really want to know?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“I didn’t want to. She was all I wanted, needed. And besides, she’d have beaten the shit out of me.” He smiles fondly at the memory.

 

Oh, this is way too much information – but I want more.

 

“So if she was a friend of your mother’s, how old was she?”

 

He smirks.

 

“Old enough to know better.”

 

“Do you still see her?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“Do you still… err…?” I flush.



 

“No.” He shakes his head and smiles indulgently at me. “She’s a very good friend.”

 

“Oh. Does your mother know?”

 

He gives me a don’t-be-stupid stare.

 

“Of course not.”

 

The waitress returns with venison, but my appetite has vanished. What a revelation.

 

Christian the submissive… Holy shit. I take a large slug of Pinot Grigio – he’s right, of course, it’s delicious. Jeez, all these revelations, it’s so much to think about. I need time to process this, when I’m on my own, not when I’m distracted by his presence. He’s so overwhelming, so Alpha Male, and now he’s thrown this bombshell into the equation. He

knows what it’s like.

 

“But it can’t have been full time?” I’m confused.

 

“Well, it was, though I didn’t see her all the time. It was… difficult. After all, I was still at school and then at college. Eat up, Anastasia.”

 

“I’m really not hungry, Christian.” I am reeling from your disclosure.

 

His expression hardens.

 

“Eat,” he says quietly, too quietly.

 

I stare at him. This man – sexually abused as an adolescent – his tone is so threatening.

 

“Give me a moment,” I mutter quietly. He blinks a couple of times.

 

“Okay,” he murmurs, and he continues with his meal.

 

This is what it will be like if I sign, him ordering me around. I frown. Do I want this?

 

Reaching for my knife and fork, I tentatively cut into the venison. It’s very tasty.

 

“Is this what our err… relationship will be like?” I whisper. “You, ordering me around?” I can’t quite bring myself to look at him.

 

“Yes,” he murmurs.

 

“I see.”

 

“And what’s more, you’ll want me to,” he adds, his voice low.

 

I sincerely doubt that. I slice another piece of venison, holding it against my mouth.

 

“It’s a big step,” I murmur and eat.

 

“It is.” He closes his eyes briefly. When he opens them, they are wide and grave.

 

“Anastasia, you have to go with your gut. Do the research, read the contract – I’m happy to discuss any aspect. I’ll be in Portland until Friday if you want to talk about it before then.” His words are coming at me in a rush. “Call me – maybe we can have dinner – say, Wednesday? I really want to make this work. In fact, I’ve never wanted anything as much as I want this to work.”

 

His burning sincerity, his longing, is reflected in his eyes. This is fundamentally what I don’t grasp. Why me? Why not one of the fifteen? Oh no… Will that be me – a number?

 

Sixteen of many?

 

“What happened to the fifteen?” I blurt.

 

He raises his eyebrows in surprise, then looks resigned, shaking his head.

 

“Various things, but it boils down to,” he pauses, struggling to find the words I think.

 

“Incompatibility.” He shrugs.

 

“And you think that I might be compatible with you?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“So you’re not seeing any of them anymore?”

 

“No, Anastasia, I’m not. I am monogamous in my relationships.”

 

Oh… this is news.

 

“I see.”

 

“Do the research, Anastasia.”

 

I put my knife and fork down. I cannot eat any more.

 

“That’s it? That’s all you’re going to eat?”

 

I nod. He scowls at me but chooses not to say anything. I breathe a small sigh of relief.

 

My stomach is churning with all this new information, and I’m feeling a little lightheaded from the wine. I watch as he devours everything on his plate. He eats like a horse. He must work out to stay in such great shape. The memory of the way his PJ’s hung from his hips comes unbidden to my mind. The image is totally distracting. I squirm uncomfortably. He glances up at me, and I blush.

 

“I’d give anything to know what you’re thinking right at this moment,” he murmurs.

 

I blush further.

 

He smiles a wicked smile at me.

 

“I can guess,” he teases softly.

 

“I’m glad you can’t read my mind.”

 

“Your mind, no, Anastasia, but your body – that I’ve got to know quite well since yesterday.” His voice is suggestive. How does he switch so quickly from one mood to the next? He’s so mercurial… It’s hard to keep up.

 

He motions for the waitress and asks for the check. Once he’s paid, he stands and holds out his hand.

 

“Come.” Taking my hand in his, he leads me back to the car. This contact, flesh to flesh, it’s what is so unexpected from him, normal, intimate. I can’t reconcile this ordinary, tender gesture with what he wants to do in that room… The Red Room of Pain.

 

We are quiet on the drive from Olympia to Vancouver, both lost in our own thoughts.

 

When he parks outside my apartment, it’s five in the evening. The lights are on – Kate is at home. Packing, no doubt, unless Elliot is still there. He switches off the engine, and I realize I’m going to have to leave him.

 

“Do you want to come in?” I ask. I don’t want him to go. I want to prolong our time together.

 

“No. I have work to do,” he says simply, gazing at me, his expression unfathomable.

 

I stare down at my hands, as I knot my fingers together. Suddenly I feel emotional.

 

He’s leaving. Reaching over, he takes one of my hands and slowly pulls it to his mouth, tenderly kissing the back of my hand, such an old fashioned, sweet gesture. My heart leaps into my mouth.

 

“Thank you for this weekend, Anastasia. It’s been… the best. Wednesday? I’ll pick you up from work, from wherever?” he says softly.

 

“Wednesday,” I whisper.

 

He kisses my hand again and places it back in my lap. He climbs out, comes round to my side, and opens the passenger door. Why do I feel suddenly bereft? A lump forms in my throat. I must not let him see me like this. Fixing a smile on my face, I clamber out of the car and head up the path, knowing I have to face Kate, dreading facing Kate. I turn and gaze at him midway. Chin up Steele, I chide myself.

 

“Oh… by the way, I’m wearing your underwear.” I give him a small smile and pull up the waistband of the boxer briefs I’m wearing so he can see. Christian’s mouth drops open, shocked. What a great reaction. My mood shifts immediately, and I sashay into the house, part of me wanting to jump and punch the air. YES! My inner goddess is thrilled.

 

Kate is in the living area packing up her books into crates.

 

“You’re back. Where’s Christian? How are you?” Her voice is fevered, anxious, and she bounds up to me, grabbing my shoulders, minutely analyzing my face before I’ve even said hello.

 

Crap… I have to deal with Kate’s persistence and tenacity, and I’m in possession of a legal signed document saying I can’t talk. It’s not a healthy mix.

 

“Well how was it? I couldn’t stop thinking about you, after Elliot left, that is.” She grins mischievously.

 

I can’t help but smile at her concern and her burning curiosity, but suddenly I feel shy.

 

I blush. It was very private. All of it. Seeing and knowing what Christian has to hide. But I have to give her some details, because she won’t leave me alone until I do.

 

“It was good, Kate. Very good, I think,” I say quietly, trying to hide my embarrassed tell-all smile.

 

“You think?”

 

“I’ve got nothing to compare it to, do I?” I shrug apologetically.

 

“Did he make you come?”

 

Holy crap. She’s so blunt. I go scarlet.

 

“Yes,” I mumble, exasperated.

 

Kate pulls me to the couch and we sit. She clasps my hands.

 

“That is good.” Kate looks at me in disbelief. “It was your first time. Wow, Christian must really know what he’s doing.”

 

Oh Kate, if only you knew.

 

“My first time was horrid,” she continues, making a sad comedy face.

 

“Oh?” This has me interested, something she’s never divulged before.

 

“Yes, Steve Paton. High school, dickless jock.” She shudders. “He was rough. I wasn’t ready. We were both drunk. You know – typical teenage post-prom disaster. Ugh

 

– it took me months before I decided to have another go. And not with him, the gutless wonder. I was too young. You were right to wait.”

 

“Kate, that sounds awful.”

 

Kate looks wistful.

 

“Yeah, took almost a year to have my first orgasm through penetrative sex and here you are… first time?”

 

I nod shyly. My inner goddess sits in the lotus position looking serene except for the sly, self-congratulatory smile on her face.

 

“I’m glad you lost it to someone who knows their ass from their elbow.” She winks at me. “So when are you seeing him again?”

 

“Wednesday. We’re having dinner.”

 

“So you still like him?”

 

“Yes. But I don’t know about… the future.”

 

“Why?”

 

“He’s complicated, Kate. You know – he inhabits a very different world to mine.”

 

Great excuse. Believable too. Much better than – he’s got a Red Room of Pain, and he

wants to make me his sex slave.

 

“Oh please, don’t let this be about money, Ana. Elliot said it’s very unusual for Christian to date anyone.”

 

“Did he?” My voice hitches up several octaves.

 

Too obvious, Steele! My subconscious glares at me, wagging her long skinny finger, then morphs into the scales of justice to remind me he could sue if I disclose too much.

 

Ha… what’s he going to do – take all my money? I must remember to Google ‘penalties

for breaching a non-disclosure agreement’ while I’m doing the rest of my ‘research’. It’s like I’ve been given a school assignment. Maybe I’ll be graded. I flush, remembering my A for this morning’s bath experiment.

 

“Ana, what is it?”

 

“I’m just remembering something Christian said.”

 

“You look different,” Kate says fondly.

 

“I feel different. Sore,” I confess.

 

“Sore?”

 

“A little.” I flush.

 

“Me too. Men,” she says in mock disgust. “They’re animals.” We both laugh.

 

“You’re sore?” I exclaim.

 

“Yes… overuse.”

 

I giggle.

 

“Tell me about Elliot the over-user,” I ask when I’ve stopped giggling. Oh, I can feel myself relaxing for the first time since I was in line at the bar… before the phone call that started all this – when I was admiring Mr. Grey from afar. Happy uncomplicated days.

 

Kate blushes. Oh my… Katherine Agnes Kavanagh goes all Anastasia Rose Steele on me. She gives me a dewy-eyed look. I’ve never seen her react this way to a man before.

 

My jaw drops to the floor. Where’s Kate, what have you done with her?

 

“Oh, Ana,” she gushes. “He’s just so… Everything. And when we… oh… really good.” She can hardly string a sentence together she’s got it so bad.

 

“I think you’re trying to tell me that you like him.”

 

She nods, grinning like a lunatic.

 

“And I’m seeing him on Saturday. He’s going to help us move.” She clasps her hands together, leaps up off the couch, and pirouettes to the window. Moving. Crap – I’d forgotten all about that, even with the packing cases surrounding us.

 

“That’s helpful of him,” I say appreciatively. I can get to know him too. Perhaps he can give me more insight into his strange, disturbing brother.

 

“So what did you do last night?” I ask. She cocks her head at me and raises her eyebrows in a what-do-think-stupid-look.

 

“Pretty much what you did, though we had dinner first.” She grins at me. “Are you okay really? You look kind of overwhelmed.”

 

“I feel overwhelmed. Christian is very intense.”

 

“Yeah, I could see how he could be. But he was good to you?”

 

“Yes,” I reassure her. “I’m really hungry, shall I cook?”

 

She nods and picks up two more books to pack.

 

“What do you want to do with the fourteen thousand dollar books?” she asks.

 

“I’m going to return them to him.”

 

“Really?”

 

“It’s a completely over-the-top gift. I can’t accept it, especially now.” I grin at Kate, and she nods.

 

“Hey, I have interviews! The week after next, in Seattle, for intern placements!”

 

“For which publishing house?”

 

“For both of them!”

 

“I told you your GPA would open doors, Ana.”

 

Kate, of course, already has an internship set up at the Seattle Times. Her father knows someone, who knows someone.

 

“How does Elliot feel about you going away?” I ask.

 

Kate wanders into the kitchen, and for the first time this evening, she’s disconsolate.

 

“He’s understanding. Part of me doesn’t want to go, but it’s tempting to lie in the sun for a couple of weeks. Besides, Mom is hanging in there, thinking this will be our last real family holiday before Ethan and I head off into the world of paid employment.”

 

I have never left continental US. Kate is off to Barbados with her parents and her brother Ethan for two whole weeks. I’ll be Kateless in our new apartment. That will be weird. Ethan has been traveling the world since he graduated last year. I wonder briefly if I’ll see him before they go on vacation. He’s such a lovely guy. The phone rings, jolting me from my reverie.

 

I sigh. I know I have to talk to him. I grab the phone.

 

“Hi.”

 

“Obviously.” Sarcasm drips from my voice, and I roll my eyes at the phone.

 

He’s silent for a moment.

 

“Can I see you? I’m sorry about Friday night. I was drunk… and you… well. Ana –

 

please forgive me.”

 

He sighs heavily, sadly.

 

“I know, Ana. I just thought, if I kissed you, it might change how you feel.”

 

That’s not going to change. You know that.” I hate to let him down, but it’s the truth.

 

“So you’re with him now?” His tone is full of disdain.

 

“But you spent the night with him.”

 

“That’s none of your business!”

 

“Is it the money?”

 

“Ana,” he whines and apologizes simultaneously. I cannot deal with his petty jealousy now. I know he’s hurt, but my plate is overflowing dealing with Christian Grey.

 

“Maybe we can have a coffee or something tomorrow. I’ll call you.” I am conciliatory.

 

He is my friend, and I’m very fond of him. But right now, I don’t need this.

 

“Tomorrow then. You’ll call?” The hope in his voice twists my heart.

 

“What was that all about?” Katherine demands, her hands on her hips. I decide honesty is the policy. She’s looking more intractable than ever.

 

“He made a pass at me on Friday.”

 

And Christian Grey? Ana, your pheromones must be working overtime. What was the stupid fool thinking?” She shakes her head in disgust and returns to packing crates.

 

Forty-five minutes later, we pause our packing for the house specialty, my lasagna.

 

Kate opens a bottle of wine, and we sit amongst the boxes eating, quaffing cheap red wine, and watching crap TV. This is normality. It’s so grounding and welcome after the last forty-eight hours of… madness. I eat my first unhurried, no nagging, peaceful meal in that time. What is it about him and food? Kate clears the dishes, and I finish packing up the living room. We are left with the couch, the TV, and the dining table. What more could we need? Just the kitchen and our bedrooms left to pack up, and we have the rest of the week. Result!

 

The phone rings again. It’s Elliot. Kate winks at me and skips off to her bedroom like she’s fourteen. I know that she should be writing her Valedictorian speech, but it seems Elliot is more important. What is it about the Grey men? What is it that makes them totally distracting, all-consuming, and irresistible? I take another slug of wine.

 

I flick through the TV channels, but deep down I know I’m procrastinating. Burning a bright red hole in the side of my purse is that contract. Do I have the strength and the wherewithal to read it tonight?

 

I put my head in my hands. Jos

 

Jose’s not even here, and I’m turned on. It just can’t be about sex, can it? I recall his gentle banter this morning at breakfast, his joy at my delight with the helicopter ride, him playing the piano – the sweet soulful oh-so-sad music.

 

Henow exactly what, but the research should shed some light. But do I really want to know? Do I want to explore this world I know nothing about?

 

It’s such a big step.

 

If I’d not met him, I’d still be sweetly and blissfully oblivious. My mind drifts to last night, and this morning… and the incredible, sensual sexuality I’ve experienced. Do I want to say goodbye to that? No! Screams my subconscious… my inner goddess nods in silent zen-like agreement with her.

 

Kate wanders back into the living room, grinning from ear to ear. Perhaps she’s in

love – I gape at her. She’s never behaved like this.

 

“Ana, I’m off to bed. I’m pretty tired.”

 

“Me too, Kate.”

 

She hugs me.

 

“I’m glad you’re back in one piece. There’s something about Christian,” she adds quietly, apologetically. I give her a small, reassuring smile – all the while thinking… How the

hell does she know? This is what will make her a great journalist, her unfaltering intuition.

 

Collecting my purse, I wander listlessly into my bedroom. I am weary from all our carnal exertions of the last day and from the complete and utter dilemma that I’m faced with. I sit on my bed and gingerly extract the manila envelope from the bag, turning it over and over in my hands. Do I really want to know the extent of Christian’s depravity? It’s so daunting. I take a deep breath, and with my heart in my throat, I rip open the envelope.

 

There are several papers inside the envelope. I fish them out, my heart still pounding, and I sit back on my bed and begin to read.

 

CONTRACT

 

Made this day_________ of 2011 (“The Commencement Date”)

 

BETWEEN

 

MR. CHRISTIAN GREY of 301 Escala, Seattle, WA 98889

 

(“The Dominant”)

 

MISS ANASTASIA STEELE of 1114 SW Green Street, Apartment 7, Haven Heights, Vancouver, WA 98888

 

(“The Submissive”)

 

THE PARTIES AGREE AS FOLLOWS

 

1 The following are the terms of a binding contract between the Dominant and the Submissive.

 

FUNDAMENTAL TERMS

 

2 The fundamental purpose of this contract is to allow the Submissive to explore her sensuality and her limits safely, with due respect and regard for her needs, her limits and her wellbeing.

 

3 The Dominant and the Submissive agree and acknowledge that all that occurs under the terms of this contract will be consensual, confidential, and subject to the agreed limits and safety procedures set out in this contract. Additional limits and safety procedures may be agreed in writing.

 

4 The Dominant and the Submissive each warrant that they suffer from no sexual, serious, infectious or life-threatening illnesses including but not limited to HIV, Her-pes and Hepatitis. If during the Term (as defined below) or any extended term of this contract either party should be diagnosed with or become aware of any such illness he or she undertakes to inform the other immediately and in any event prior to any form of physical contact between the parties.

 

5 Adherence to the above warranties, agreements and undertakings (and any additional limits and safety procedures agreed under clause 3 above) are fundamental to this contract. Any breach shall render it void with immediate effect and each party agrees to be fully responsible to the other for the consequence of any breach.

 

6 Everything in this contract must be read and interpreted in the light of the fundamental purpose and the fundamental terms set out in clauses 2-5 above.

 

ROLES

 

7 The Dominant shall take responsibility for the wellbeing and the proper training, guidance, and discipline of the Submissive. He shall decide the nature of such training, guidance, and discipline and the time and place of its administration, subject to the agreed terms, limitations and safety procedures set out in this contract or agreed additionally under clause 3 above.

 

8 If at any time the Dominant should fail to keep to the agreed terms, limitations and safety procedures set out in this contract or agreed additionally under clause 3 above the Submissive is entitled to terminate this contract forthwith and to leave the service of the Dominant without notice.

 

9 Subject to that proviso and to clauses 2-5 above the Submissive is to serve and obey the Dominant in all things. Subject to the agreed terms, limitations and safety procedures set out in this contract or agreed additionally under clause 3 above she shall without query or hesitation offer the Dominant such pleasure as he may require and she shall accept without query or hesitation his training, guidance and discipline in whatever form it may take.

 

COMMENCEMENT AND TERM

 

10 The Dominant and Submissive enter into this contract on The Commencement Date fully aware of its nature and undertake to abide by its conditions without exception.

 

11 This contract shall be effective for a period of three Calendar Months from The Commencement Date (“The Term”). On the expiry of The Term the parties shall discuss whether this contract and the arrangements they have made under this contract are satisfactory and whether the needs of each party have been met. Either party may propose the extension of this contract subject to adjustments to its terms, or to the arrangements they have made under it. In the absence of agreement to such extension this contract shall terminate and both parties shall be free to resume their lives separately.

 

AVAILABILITY

 

12 The Submissive will make herself available to the Dominant from Friday evenings through to Sunday afternoons each week during the Term at times to be specified by the Dominant (“the Allotted Times”). Further allocated time can be mutually agreed on an ad hoc basis.

 

13 The Dominant reserves the right to dismiss the Submissive from his service at any time and for any reason. The Submissive may request her release at any time, such request to be granted at the discretion of the Dominant subject only to the Submissive’s rights under clauses 2-5 and 8 above.

 

LOCATION

 

14 The Submissive will make herself available during the Allotted Times and agreed additional times at locations to be determined by the Dominant. The Dominant will ensure that all travel costs incurred by the Submissive for that purpose are met by the Dominant.


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